don't worry be happy =)

well i changed my song haha kinda like it. i think i shall stick with it haha.

hey DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY!

haha how true isn't it? if you face trouble, don't worry cause you'll just make it double. in most cases triple! so basically don't worry! haha always be happy and everything will fall in place, especially when God's carrying you all the way! =) pray and don't worry, be happy, okay i think i've made my point yeah? shall not repeat myself again. sorry just one last time

Don't worry Be happy =) put a BIG smile on your face!!

a MOVIE FINALLY

yay haha finally i'm going to watch a MOVIE after like goodness knows how many months! haha it's some bride movie thing. watching it with sam, aud and jami. argh! wanted julie raq ans sun to come along too, but they've got school and their finals are coming up. raq said she's going to mug real hard. sometimes, with her crankiness and humous and all, she's really a motivation. it's like she goes for it and she works hard for it. she reaps what she sows. after reading her posts, somehow i find some kinda inspiration there, a motivation to STUDY. haha nice eh? =)

oh ya, the reason i can make it now it's because the rehearsal for my class's performance ( graduation ceremony) has been cancelled. but then again, i kinda pang seh-ed shawn cause i was supposed to help with some math and physics thing. opps sorry... nvm, another day k? and you really should go for studying. sicne you've made it this far, supposedly without studying, you might as well go the whole way and end your journey with your best try. =) oh ya, council has this performance too. some singing thing. yeah the chorus goes something like that, ain't too sure

"and friends are friends forever, if the Lord's the Lord of them, and a friend will not say never, cause the welcome will not end, though it's hard to let you go, in the Father's hands we know, that a lifetime's not too long, to live as friends"

oh ya well basically tonight was a mad phone calling day. felt like GB all over again when we call our squad members! haha, felt normal again. haha well had to call a few cca councillors regarding the council performance on friday, then had to call amelia, angel and kim to inform them of the cancellation of my class's rehearsal tomorrow and blah blah. and THEN tried calling samantha (class) to ask her about the eagles award thing as we were supposed to collect the form from her tomorrow but we're not going to school anymore! and erm well, as expected, mr chiang spelt my name wrongly, as always... (louisa) can't anyone remember it! (sigh... what i cannot stand most are the pronounciations... many variations of it. there's loy-sa, lobster, or oh i absolutely love this one. LOU-SIA! say it in chinese, and wow, i'm downstairs or something.) oh goodness was quite messy. then aud and jami called about the movie and ai yar, really like GB. haha you can never get bored with GB. busy busy bumble bee. that's me! haha, nah, rabbit would be nicer than a bee.. oh did i tell you once angel, kim and me stayed in class during bio by ourselves and we had a date with a whole SWARM OF BEES? haha nvm. long story. it was funny AFTER the incident though.

oooo nothing much happened after these i guess, now i'm free so study it is... i hope =)

ps: ms gan said the disneyland at florida is ncier than the hong kong one..! haha, when jami told me that, for one moment i thought ms gan was bringing us to florida after the thailand trip. sigh my hopes have been dashed, my spirits dampened!!! okay i'm being dramatic again... haha.. well one can dream right? haha i think if we do really go, zhi yi would love it since she likes mickey mouse so much. julie would probably go crazy over donald duck and daisy duck. i love pluto! haha, cause well, it's a dog! haha =) goofy's just too goofy for me.. haha goof woof! okay as what julie would say, deprived of a childhood.. haha nah... just being nonsensical again

sos and elisa's birthday!

haha tmr's sos quite excited... church service that is. save one soul! julie, raq and me are going! sam was supposed to go but in the end she had somethign on. aww... haha, well basically i was QUITE free as i'm done studying physics and chem! today i was so sciency lar. did all the mcq papers in preparation for tues's examination. i'm so happy, taking a break now haha. but then timothy asked me for my copy of the format for english reports, letters etc. had to scuffle through my room to look for it. now everything's turned upside down again. all messy. haha, and i just tidied my room! ah well nvm, all the best for english k? =)

well anyway, tmr's elisa's birthday too! shhh... got surprise... will tell you about it when it's over. i'm not going though, so will harrass someone else to tell me what happened. julie and i are meeting earlier tmr to get elisa a present! sam's chipping in too. hahahahahaha... betcha tmr's gonna be a mad rush as you know whenever julie and i are together, SOMEHOW we'll end up being late. sigh... punctuality is not our forte... haha

oh ya, sigh, there's something wrong with me. i feel old. i have no idea what happened by my neck feels so stiff! my chin hurts, and i keep slouching and hunching. í may be getting athirithis!

break time!

haha okay the last two days were great as basically i had time to take a breather. whew! though i rested quite a bit, i studied too! quite proud of myself. have been qutie focused these few weeks, ever since the september holidays. =) erm wait, i'll continue another day. cold case had started and i'm gonna eat while watching! lalalala =)

21st September

when i got home, my neighbours and i had lunch together, in front of a computer. sigh, realised teenagers these days just love the com... a bit addictive isn't it? anyway, i received this email thing, and after clicking and answering question after question for like how many pages long, i finally got the results of this funny test thing. i didn't even know what i was supposed to find from this... something about me i guess... a quick advice, maybe one should put the title of any quiz at the TOP of the quiz? yeah...

as i was saying, basically... this is what the screen told me

You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

i see things through the eyes of a child? hmmm funny... i find that i don't even realise the details in life as i'm always rushing or sleepy or just day dreaming. most comman past time is stonning. easily fascinated? haha YEAH maybe! =) experiencing new things are fun... but somehow i prefer to experience new physical things. i don't mind trying out a new sport, or jump over a wall or something like that. but if you ask me to try something that is mental... ahhh maybe not. okay okay i'm off the com now! i'm going to study my literature for tmr's prelims! ahhhhh hee =)

flag day

okay louie is sick. haha been sneezing my arse off. something very wrong with my nose. i got a fever last night, and a cold this morning. my noose is bloocked! not nice. oh i can't breathe! no oxygen! haha... nah, being drama ah ma here. i don't really have the mood to study now, so i went online heh. the GB girls are having flag day now. around 9, julie called me. haha, it seems she's supposed to go to seng kang with carol, sarah, and a few sec 1s. they're lost on bus 27! haha! actually after hanging up, i realised that could they not have taken the MRT train instead? haha, anyway, i played a few games with amos, or rather ATTEMPTED to, but our coms are weird! the only game both of us can play is tic tac toe, which becomes boring after two or three games. discussing ss and lit with jeremy. he told me there's this website online whereby you can get questions with model answers for KOTC online, but i'd have to pay. in the end i was like "nvm!" he said he'd hack into the website or something. goodness gave me a fright.

oh ya ya, i saw this version of a star in this stationary shop in st. 11 yesterday! haha was so excited. the people who came into mind were audrey, avril, carol and sunshine. haha. so i decided to draw the outlines during dinner for the star. then i'd try to do some decorations, cut it out or something, then give it to them. haha wheee. so excited. i glued audrey's star already. currently doing avril's one while listening to this song amos sent me. it's quite nice. "i'll be okay" by mcfly. hee thanks! =) lalala, wonder where's julie now? anyway i should be heading out later to donate and say hi to jessica and debbie's group in pasir ris... hee wait for me girls! =)

erm people, would you like to make a donation to The Girls' Brigade? please head down to tampines, bedok, semei, pasir ris, or erm, seng kang NOW! thank you! =)

first week of prelims are over!!

okay i realised a few things. this is officially the second time i feel so proud of my juniors and touched by them. i was totally panicking for my chinese exam, as different people kep telling me different formats and different things i nearly died lar. so i decided to take on priscilla''s advice and to call carol and germaine up for some major help, the day before my prelims. yeah yeah a bit late, but i felt bad for troubling them. anyway, i decided carol was quite busy so i called germaine up first. although she wasn't very sure about the format, and we hung up, i think she got jacintha to help me. i guess i can safely presume that's her cause jacintha's scary sometimes that was why i was hesitant in calling her. but she called me anyway. and that's so sweet! it's like, juniros who care. it brings out this really nice feeling... oh and carol too! carol actually helped me out during her recess too. aw so sweet. shawn too. these are examples of people who are too nice but that's good right? the world needs nice people. what's that haha, powerpuff girls' song? (sorry lar, i babysit so i've listened to this song quite a few times)

"love love love makes the world go round!!"

haha, oh yeah, bhavna was really a darling too. i was just brooding in my room, couldn't quite concentrate in my room. she smsed me and that cheered me up quite a big. thank you! funny eh? little gestures like these, or hugs and smiles from your friends (angel, kim, amelia) can encourage you so much. one doesn't need something that big to motivate you. something small everyday can make your life so colourful. okay sorry, i'm becoming very philosophical here cause i'm on a one day break after the first week of prelims.

okay okay i'll get to my point. this week has made me realise that there are great people in the world and i am really thankful for them. i'll probably be this crabby stone fish on my bed now if i wasn't feeling so mushy and grateful and cheery. so thank you people! you're the ones who that rainbow and whisk that rain cloud outta my life! i love you guys! =)

ps. happy birthday cherie dear! God bless ya =)

physics and chinese

argh argh argh oh goodness yikes! today's physics paper was like pure ridiculous. kept avoiding mr yap after that. felt so bad for letting him down. bleh. the FIRST wonderful light experiment was deemed a failure the minute my eyeballs set sight on the screw. i don't like light experiments. first and formost, let me introdue to you the plasticine we were given to, to attatch to all objects. we were not given a stand, a box, scotch tape, stapler or glue. oh no no NO! we HAD to be given what...? STONE PLASTICINE! the plasticine arh, i don't know what kind of synthetic dumb clay it's made of, but it's totally rock lar. they gave us a whole gigantic LUMP of it, and we had to break it up into smaller pieces for each object. i didn't do anything for a whole 10 minutes except attempting to pull apart the clay, not as if i have a lot of time. fed up i tell you. in the end i was so pissed with the stone thing i threw it onto the floor. it didn't work. i scratched it, pinched it, used my ruler to cut it. okay, this is turning into a descriptive essay so my point is, the plasticine was plain hard and shi tou like.

well anyway i FINALLY got it apart, then what happened? i switched on the torchlight... and... the switch came off -_- argh! i was hopping mad by that time. so panicking, i stuffed the switch back then tried to find my dear image, which seemed very insistent on disappearing from me. something wrong with my cornea or what but my eyeballs JUST couldn't detect any image of any kind. all i could see was light. LIGHT! sigh, didn't finish graph, bleh bleh bleh

okay time's up! we switch experiment. YAY! an easier mass experiment. we're supposed to measure the mass of the metre rule. haha, oaky no problem! or so i thought. i spoke too soon. all i did was merely poked the wooden cork and it fell apart. what nonsense is this i ask you? okay, i've run out of steam. tired of complaining liao. anyway my 5 mins break online is over. i guess i had better get to studying metals, gases, anions, cations, OAs, RAs, colours, ppts etc. sigh... chemistry HERE I COME! i tell you arh, the test tubes had better not break or the hose don't start to mysteriously spray water on me otherwise, that's it. loisa will lose all sanity, if i haven't already... oh the effects of prelims. what will happen during the Os? haha nah, don't think so much, i'm outta here! =)

ps. oh yeah, chinese ain't too bad. it didn't make me go as crazy as physics, but i don't have much confidence. for the compo, i either did very well, or i wrote so well i went out of point. i memorised phrases from a compo book you see, since i obviously can't form a single proper sentence on my own. paper 2.... eh... the problem is i understood the passages. i didn't understnad the questions! ahhhhhhhhh haha, nvm it's over. with God's grace i'll stay alive somehow. by the way, ahem, important message here, LOUIE IS GOING TO THAILAND with GB! wahahahaha heeeeeeeeeee

hee =)

okay okay! i admit now and right here! i am bored and a bit GB maddening... well sorry i happen to have quite a few GB pictures right? anyway, you see i did all my science practical practices, and completed 3 math papers, so i decided to give myself a treat. i logged onto my computer, and then tuned in to the creative side of louie! haha okay so this isn't the best work of art you've seen, but the fact that i managed to put everything together QUITE straight is a miracle okay? so give me a break. applaud! haha, so pleased with myself. hey! this IS a start. maybe one day i'll turn everything a bit to the right, a bit to the left, centre, forward, backward... resulting in one VERY nice collage but for now, we'll settle with this yeah? nice...? nice...? come on say it.. it's GREAT! haha =)

11th September

sigh today i had some problems with daddy but i don't quite want to eleborate right here cause once it's written, it cannot be erased, and i know i'll forget about it sooner or later so nvm. anyway saw this youth's prayer which ms gan passed to us on youth day this year (it's pasted on my cupboard).i saw these two rpayers which are really meaningful, well some parts of it applies to me, so i jumbo mumbo both of them together into one nice prayer for louie. here it goes!

Dear Heavenly Father,

You know the struggles i face. people are loading their expectations on mr. the worst part of all is that i am not sure about myself. i have many dreams. i have my own expectations. Dear Heavenly Father, give me understanding. You understand the turmoil i am going through. help me find the anchor in You so that i will not be swept away by the storms of life.

i know You have commanded me to obey my parents. You ahve made it very clear in Your word that i am to respect my parents. in fact, You have even promised me that if i obey my parents You will bless me richly. Dear Heavenly Father, You know that my relationship with my parents is not exactly what it should be. i pray that You will help me in this area of my life. give me spiritual wisdom and understanding so that i may know how You want me to conduct myself. give me strength so that i can obey my parents even in the face of opposing forces. remind me constantly of the wise word of Psalm 119 verse 9 which asks the question: how can a young person keep his way pure? the answer: by living according to Your revealed word, the Bible.

Dear Heavenly Father, enable me to live a life worthy of Your name.

In Jesus' name, Amen

10th september

goodness i'm just so hungry! i think there's something wrong with me. it must have started when i feel out of bed this morning! i had this nightmare about green frogs eating tiny rabbits with giant forks... started hammering my on my bed and kicking the wall, and somehow, i landed on the floor. bumped my head. from then onwards, i had worms in my stomach. i think the hunger worms diffused from the marble flooring itno my head, traveled down my ateries and veins, and lodged themselves in my stomach. i'm talking nonsense here right? sigh...

i'm feeling so hungry now, but my mom banned me from eating. i actually happily made one tom yam cup noodles with this gleeful grin on my face, and went to do some math. when i went back to the kitchen i couldn't find my noodles. i went back outside to the hall and found my mom eating them. she said she's doing me a favour by eating the noodles so i wouldn't get fat. goodness i cannot think anymore. i'm famished! i'm probably a glutton but hey, i'm a growing girl! well erm, trying to grow but one can always dream right? =)

had tuition with oilam in the morning... quite braindraining but enlightening too. just realised i am THAT blur with chemistry. and i FINALLY understand that darn logic gates! how to combine the silly AND< NOT, OR, NOR, NAND whatever gates! i kinda like physics actually, now i i'm beginning to understand it. it's growing on me. maybe i shall be a physician... hey no, that's a medical doctor. see? hunger pangs make me go all funny. i'm starving here. mabe i shall wait til like 3 or 4am and then i'll go and steal food from the refridgerator. heee now that's an idea! =)

8th september

haha sigh don't ask me what i'm doing right now. i'm basically doing all my notes, doing my compo, and resting at the same time. or rather, i'm crapping around with a few erm.. poetic people... sigh... help! i drank too much tea and now i can't sleep! i've got tuition with oilam tomorrow morning at 8.30 too! fwah la la... okay i seriously don't know what to do with myself...

"i don't know what to do with myself.... lalala, lalala, la, lalala"

uhhhh

why am i doing this?
1) i'm bored
2) i'm on a break
3) for entertainment
4) due to some baton thing but uhhh nvm

Total Volume of Music Files On My Computer
erm... 305 MB? 63 files and 5 folders... yup... i may have got it wrong though, cause they MAY be 5 folders but 63 files?! hmmm...

The Last CD I Bought Was...
God Reigns! =)

Song Playing Right Now
I'll be there for you - The Rembrandts (from the comedy friends! haha)

5 Songs I Listen A Lot To, Or Mean A Lot To Me
1) Sprit touch Your church
2) What the world will never take
3) Tell the world
4) You will never walk alone
5) Can't decide between runaway train, superman, 100 years, hero, or life for rent

5 People I Am Passing The Baton To
I'm nice, i won't pass it to anyone. i don't think they'll actually do it anyway... raq? try rhyming everything... haha

gosh it's so obvious i'm going nutty... i shall sleep now, just finished a chem paper and this too. tmr gotta meet aud, sam and jami for math... mroe math!!! =) suddenly i love math so much. i lvoe paper 1s best, but i guess i better do more paper 2s right? it's jsut pretty boring... sigh...

Dear Lord, give me strength and help me focus in order to do well and glorify you. thank you very much Lord. In Jesus' name i pray, Amen! =)

6th september

JULIE! happy birthday yesterday! haha, glad you had a nice day.. 2 cakes eh? eat so much... hee! sigh nvm, nowadays i find myself eating a lot too... little food glutton... non stop eating, if i don't eat.. i feel so out of focus... haha... i shall just take it that i use up so much of my brain energy that i ran out of nutrients or energy or specific heat capacity or whatever it is... can tell i've been studying physics lately right? actually, hmm.. not THAT much, but today was purely physics. i totally went crazy during the weekend can. did math paper after paper after paper... goodness.... i'm so pleased with myself actually... find that i've been quite focused this holidays.. no not quite.. VERY... i finished my compo, chinese xi zi, and the chinese close passages okay?! CHINESE! first time i chiong chinese homework until like siao. although i still do it, i'll usually leave it to the last. hahahahahahahahahahahaha goodness i just love myself.. hope that everything STAYS in my head though and doesn't like jsut leak out or worse, SPILL out... if not there'll be NOTHING left in my head! ahhhhhhhhhhh okay i'm crapping again... sigh...

raq hasn't been blogging.... i'm lost... blog raq blog! NOW! it'll improve your english... you know i thought of something. if there's a chinese blog, would it improve my chinese? but everyone would probably misunderstand me right? sigh.. its'okay! louie has learnt 250 chinese cheng yus! =) yes i can, yes i can, YES I CAN! PRIS! you can too! chinese is our mother tongue, we are not plain english people, chinese is our game too! let's strive and beat that darn game yeah? lalalala =)

weird boots

okay like right! i had washed my shoe bag as my boots were dirty because i fell into the toilet bowl suring the pbb camp, and i had to put my boots in the bag so everything was so sticky and wet... it dried today so i decided to plish my boots nice nice until become liang liang then pack everythign away nicely. then like???? suddenly the soles of my boots fell out? okay only one side lar, but ther other side has a big hole... sigh... i do not have super glue so use what? glue stick? stapler? scotch tape? STRING?! okay, i'm beginning to sound ridiculous... sigh... actually i've got another pair of boots but that's not shiny cause i ahve nto been constantly polishing it... YET. i want my old boots back! where there's a will,. there's a way... where's there's a stationary shop, there's a tube of super glue... therefore louie will go down and buy a tube... see if it works... i feel so crappy and senile now... fine, shall go back to writing my composition entitled "Describe how your family spends a typical Sunday". sigh.. i shall use self-deprecated humour as i always do.. it's the easiest... hmmm...

bbq!

sigh... yesterday was the bbq... it was raining lar... such a miserable day.. but nvm.. the sec 3s prepared all the food! haha, only problem was... well.. there was SO MUCH chicken! and like erm... very few sausages and crabsticks and corn? goodness... haha.. ate quite little there... had to eat carrot cake and instant noodles when i got home.. avril and me were like saying "i want to eat sweet corn! haha, go home we'll have to eat some more.. hungry hungry... !" haha... she's cute... raq came too! it seems she was a lost stray or something... nah... mrs. koh's joke. elisa dragged her back when she wanted to leave earlier...

well anyway, when julie and me arrived (quite late), we were feeling kinda stoney and moody... sigh... i felt pretty weird... like kinda sian, and i felt bad because of the card. i thought that i had told elisa on the phone that if we do make a teachers' day card, it would only be from our batch. when asked if she wanted to contribute, i thought it would mean including her signiture or note. in fact, when julie was sick and raq wasn't sure if she would be coming, i was going to do away with the card and all cause i really CANNOT make any form of a card. in the end it was julie who was on about making the card. so it was only from both of us lor... sigh... the seniors' faces looked so angry then that i felt so stoney after that....sorry.......... but julie was right.. it was only a small thing, actually that was what i thought too... until the seniors like made one circle and started whispering about card and gifts and going out to buy something. they sounded so serious in the end i just went to become a shi tou. thank goodness after i ate one crabstick i felt normal again. was afraid i was going to spoil the mood. sigh... this year it seems as if i get so pissed so often, and i keep making mistakes. sigh... beginning to find GB more stressful than ever. first time keep feeling so stoney in GB. oh dear... oh then julie started stoning too.. also not quite sure what happened to her. raq was quiet.. didn't quite know how to talk to her. wonder if she's okay.. suddenly her blog's gone... sigh... i hope julie and i did not leave her out... the sec 3s were pretty weird too... like they were eating and eating AND eating... and disappearing... haha nvm. forget it. that day was just weird lar. didn't quite enjoy myself until sigh... so sorry... when all the sec 3s left. felt so weird. sigh... must be my hormones or something... heh

oh ya, then we had a small birthday celebration for jolene. HAPPY BIRTHDAY you! haha it's great you got an A for lit. hope i helped a little. sorry my facial expression was such a rock that day.. wasn't feeling too good at that time. rachel! WHY did you miss 2 marks to an A! nvm, end of year get A yeah? =) oh oh, julie and me then presented jolene her present. haha it was a small notebook! she had betetr use it man.. hope you like it jolene! julie and i squeezed through a HUGE crowd to get that for you okay... haha...

well basically, we splashed water on feline, carmen, zhi yin and julie. they got wet! HEE but well, i got PUSHED in well thank you. somehow i always kena pushed in, i just don't know why. got pushed in during GB camp, cca council retreat, council camp, now bqq... oh well... nvm.. as long as my hp doesn't get wet =) oh dear, feline and zhi yin's hps couldn't quite work i think... hope they're okay now...

well that's basically the GB's teachers' day bbq! still a bit hungry now actually.. it rained around 10 and had to like run to the bus stop, then had to run for the bus, had to run home again... sigh... jian fei arh like that... nvm... healthy.. since i didn't run for aces day anyway... (psst angel and i hid in the library to do our lit notes hee)

ranks and pbb brooch

whew today was one long day... it was promotion adn dedication service at ACJC! haha... well basically raq, sun, julie and me were supposed to meet at tampines to buy ms gan her birthday present. it was a cross! hee... anyway, julie couldn't make it as she had to pack for the overnight stay at ms gan's place... and i was kinda late. but got reason one. haha, cause the night before i had pattern pattern burned 3 fingers, so couldn't polish boots, hurt like mad. so this morning i was to polish my boots but didn't realise it would take so long. in the end, i polished like a bit only? yeah.. so i met raq and sun around 10.45, half hour after meeting time. heh sorry... sun told me that mount zion was like second last floor of century square, but when i went there, i couldn't find anythign? realised shop was closed. so nvm, we just bought it from life book shop. saw ben tan there... haha.. he was goign for the band graduation thing i think...

well anyway, after that we headed for the coffee shop near faith's place. ate erm, nasi lemak.. quite nice leh.. but was darn full after that. met up with sam, adu and julie there. wah after that arh, mad rush okay! went to school and started changing into uniform like crazy... haha... oh then we boarded the bus that would take us to ACJC. that was the start of my horrible day. i got scolded about my total defence badge and kidna disappointed ms gan and ms lee. sorry. you see, raq, julie adn me had formally received our td gold badge but sun, sam and aud had not. so we were plannign to wear our silver one instead so as not to let the others feel left out. in the end, they had brought their gold badge, while the rest were given theirs on the bus. i did not have mine, so ms gan was pretty mad at me. sigh.. felt like crying... ms lee said i had to run 10 rounds for punishment. sigh... well we gave ms gan her present on the bus anyway, and she cried! she actually cried okay... felt like crying myself.. i think she was touched... hee..! =)

okay then we arrived. we were ushered into our seats... haha then we waited quite long. sm gan was in the colour party! haha, no wonder we had to go at like 1.30 while the service itself starts at 3pm. well anyway, saw jami in her white officer's unufirn! haha, quite funny... she looked cute though.. loved her click clock shoes... was kinda waiting for her to fall but nah, nt so mean. okay we waited and waited, and waited... sigh... saw my food com 1 group members! wahahaha hee! =)

FINALLY it started, and it was message after message. by then the girls were all feeling quite tired... julie aud and me were in one row, sun and sam behind us. raq was collecting ranks for the sergeants. (congrats by the way) aud julie and me were nearly falling asleep, but whatever did get into our heads, it was truly inspirational. =) well the long awaited moment arrived. promotion time! avril collected the corporal ranks, raq the sergeant ranks, and for the ssgt, it was individual collection. we were cheering for the sergeants like crazy, but they didn't seem too excited about our pbb or ssgt. it's okay though, cause i guess they were tired. long weekend after all. no congratulations and stuff but again, it's okay.. positive thinking! =) it would have been nice for a loud crazy cheering... but ah well, they do need their energy. haha, scarly i was deaf but hardly like it. anyway, after that was PBB brooch. the mam asked me why my hand was so cold and commented that our company had so many badges! haha hee.. so proud of the girls! =) it was so cold and nerve wreaking at that moment that i truly needed to pee so badly. haha. oh ya, and i was selected to present the guest-of-honour her token of appreciation, which was like a HUGE bouquet of flowers! haha and when i mean huge, i mean GIGANTIC! and the mam told me, where's your face, i can't see your smile... i was like heh sorry, the flowers are quite large... had a bit of trouble carrying them too.

okay i was quite happy then cause everyone was in quite a high hyper mood, BUT i kenw my face was like super super horrendously BLACK after the service. when the sec 3s went for ndp, and i saw pearlyn without her hair net, i was told with much CONVICTION by EVERY sec 3 ndp girl that "the other girls dont need to wear leh, it's OKAY, ms angeline didn't say anything. pearlyn has not been wearing it for quite some time so it's OKAY." and the careless thing i did was not to double check with ms gan, since i thought pris was handing it. and today? i saw peralyn wearing hair net, so innocently i asked her "why are you wearing one?" and she like gave me this innocent face too and said "can don't wear meh?" i should have said "YOU tell ME!" but i was so angry i faced the wall. was kind of punishing myself i guess cause everythign was rushign through my head, like discipline adn hwo i wasn't a good example to the juniors if i myself had to do pinishment later (run 10 rounds). thanks carmen and avril for making me feel better... i felt like a total failure and was angry at the whole world at that point of time... =)

oh then on the way home, had motion sickness... bleh... i never was good on buses.. sigh head was totally spinning... then ms gan wanted to pin the brooch on for us but erm, in my confusion i gave her the plastic instead... heh... she wanted to pin the palstic on me!!!

well all in all, a tiring but rewarding day yeah? have fun at the happy happy carnival girls! be happy! SMILE! it increases your face value.. hee

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gosh i just dislike some people soooo much... goodness i'm like so mad now... ARGH! whatever did i do to make people so crazily mad at me?! forget it.. really not my problem... i don't care... i hope.. yes why other? first time i shall use this.. what the hell? i apologise right now for saying it.. but it makes me feel better looking it so i'm not gonna delete it... pissed man.. now all the words are coming out of my mouth shoot..

Lord, help me to forgive and forget.. preferbly forget first... if i'm in the wrong although i don't see how i can be, please show it to me so i know... Thank you Lord... In Jesus' name i pray.. Amen

devotions! haha

22nd August 2005

• Do not give up. Take things as an encouragement; a propelling force to spur you on
• Perservere and "jump out of the pit"
• No one promised a life that is easy, but when you come head on to a difficult situation, have the courage to carry on
• Never, never, never give up
• The winner has to try

25th August 2005

• We have to stop hiding behind our weaknesses and strive
• God has the power to change things

26th August

• You don't always have to take the credit
• You don't always have to shift the blame onto others

yup, that's what i've learnt for this week... haha =)

25th August

nothing much happened today leh... walked home with angel, had quite an interesting talk with her.. but yesterday was hectic! again, my friends had some misunderstandings... yet AGAIN... sigh... black faces AGAIN... tears AGAIN... goodness.. history kinda repeats itself but thank goodness everyone is back to normal today... yeah all these happened thanks to some finger poking fella... you're my successor (heh, GB would know what i mean)... try not to do that too often k? well anyway, we were all weird but it's over... =) ha promotion and dedication service is coming... don't really feel that UHHMMM feeling... that "faster-come-now-i'm-excited feeling"... weird... i feel so studious all of a sudden leh.. quite proud of myself cause i feel that i'm striving for my chinese.. but we'll see yeah? there's GB meeting tmr too... it's been changed to friday jsut for this week due to p and d service... we're gonna get our brooches! haha, felt i should at least announce that... heh...

talked to raq just now... our batch is going to have lunch on sat! haha that one i can't wait... but Sam and Aud! argh! those two arh... a bit scary... sigh... nothign much left to say leh.. it's as if i'm posting for the sake of posting.. i guess i betetr continue to pin my badges huh... sigh... ahve been re-pinning them since last sat.. just can't seem to get the right way to do it.. argh! i'm NEVER washing my harversash again.. nvm stinky.. it's okay.. at least i don't keep poking my fingers.. it's as if i'm pinning my fingers more than i'm pinning my badges lar...

oh yeah, pris if you read this... don't give up! you're a great person... just look to God and think positive... walk with God... and don't cry yeah? don't waste your tears... be strong and go on... i'm behind you all the way even though you can't see me.. so sorry i can't help you out now thanks to my o levels which i am beginning to be tired of, but nvm. spiritually i'm with you eyah? we'll see each other on sat and sun! wahahaha keeping you in my prayers always heh =)

ps: joyce! basia! happy birthday two days ago! =) sigh happy birthday jazzlyn yesterday! and happy birthday feline today! GOODNESS, hwo come so many august babies one... but nvm. they rock yeah? shi tou! hee