crazy day

today was weird.... super weird... kena scolded by parents about everything and anything.. the thing was... i felt so numb i didn't even have the usual maddening fed up thoughts in my head.. felt so tired i jsut bit back my tongue and yes yes the whole way! so proud of myself. i should do this mroe often. think positive and understand scoldings are GOOD! they have my INTERESTS at HEART! i msut not be SARCASTIC! but it's hard.. i feel like i'm contridicting myself but i don't care. my enlgish is dying. my math is improving. mayeb my english marks are going to my math marks. nowadays i find my sentence constructure so funny. i read in a newspaper once that one should always have a blog so you can write in it and improve your english. however, the more i blog, the more it's evident my english is ahhhhhhhhh.. i cannot stand it! i cannot express myself. so frastrating. and another thing, my thoughts seem quite jumbled up... that means i cannot organise my answers.. that means my lit is also dying!

now what was i saying? yes be positivie... viki just thanked me for her birthday present so now i've forgotten what i wanted to say before.. nvm.. on to something else.

i've decided on a new hobby. to collect torn tissue paper. i realised that i'm wasting quite a bit of tissue paper (when i get angry or sad i'll start to tear tissue paper) although i try to reuse them for projects (decorations). therefore, i thought of something really fascinatingly fascinating to me! i'll collect a small plastic bag worth of tissue paper (msut be evident how often i get mad or sad, not very good huh) then i'll recycle, reuse, NOT reduce them! i'll just jumble all the torn tissue paper up and start re tearing them again! okay, i've made myself so happy now, i've decided to reward myself my getting something to eat! haha so fun! eat! food! yay!

ps. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMILY! haha, lalala, in 4 more minutes time, it'll be liting's birthday.. so many britdhays in june and july.. sigh.. a bit tiring leh, i made 4 birthday cards in a row liao... all look the same actualyl but heh nvm. hee! well happy birthday again emily! you, kim and amelia are 16 already! time flies. now just wait for angel, weilian and me! haha! too abd our birthdates are during o levels.. so not fun...