4th April 2007

The first week of April, and school is getting worse. Three tests, which i studied hard for, mind you ACTUALLY completed studying the entire chapter, together with revision notes, tags, and what nots...

Guess what? I failed. WOW! 4 points. I just realized that i can forfeit two quizzes from BOTH mid terms PLUS end terms. Whoooppee? NO because originally i already knew that. The only difference was that i thought you could minus FOUR in total - 2 from the mid terms, 2 from the end terms. So wow! I've maxed the number of quizzes i can forfeit. I do any worse than i am doing now (wait i can't do worse), i can say bye bye to my 3.4 target GPA. zzzzz

So many assignments to do, so many readings to read... Even the assignments are ridiculous. One is to interview an organization, which in the first place, it's HARD to find an organization which would actually listen to you. Earlier in the semester, we ALREADY had to interview an organization, NOW AGAIN, we have to interview another one. NO ONE can interview the same company, although there are various departments in one company. If we have similar companies, we get a zero. -.- How many big name companies are out there, who would pay attention to small people undergoing a communications degree? No one would care. I think.

Now for the second assignment. My wonderful chapter is one that he has not even gone through. As if we're not already drowning in readings, i have to read an EXTRA chapter just to complete ONE POINT of the assignment. -.- And what is the play that we have to read up on about?

An Indian girl whose skirt is "a little too short, a little too tight" who got raped by an white boy. A girl who changes into a black low cut as good as transparent negligee to signal to the boys (yes PLURAL. boyS) that it is time to go, the girl who doesn't mind when the boys put her hands to his genitals, a girl who doesn't mind being fondled, a girl who says "no" to the boy, but continues to hold his hand and kiss him and walk backwards into the bed room while moaning... Then she cries when the boy has sex with her..

I give up. Does she, or does she not deserve it? Okay I'm mean. But any common sense person can see that her communication and non-verbal cues are the opposite of her "no". ZZZ and mind you, she's been on ONLY four dates with the boy, and they're kissing, touching, fondling, moaning and whatever other words are in the play...

Okay, so i can go admit myself in a nunnery. But i refused to be, or to touch, fondle, stroke, moan etc til I'm married.

zzzz why am i even typing this? Back to writing an essay on the Holocaust. Genocide.

*yawns*

Bad week. truly bad week. Guilt ridden week. Never mind. My mind's all messed up.

I need a hug Lord.

loisa.