to be pleased, or not to be pleased?

i've been shortlisted for the interview!!!

oh my goodness what am i to do? i was sleeping peacefully dreaming of my dog running through meadows and me happily gorging on potato salad, and then my phone's incessant ringing woke me up. they do want me after all...

i'm now on the internet sms-ing miss gan...gosh i'm so nervous... oh just a side thought, i quite love miss gan a lot, she's real nice and i thank God for her. she's like a second mummy to me... =) okay back to the topic.... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

what's God trying to tell me? first i didn't get in so i thought SIM was my answer, but now i get in, is He giving me a second chance? really i think SIM is better, after all it is faster, but is my level of thinking mature enough for a university degree, that's my question. sigh i'm so confused...

sheesh! okay i'm off to do up my portfolio and pray. i'm just one confused and panicky louie. haha i've lost my 3Cs self... the Cool, Calm and Collected louie, as i love to say... haha okay see ya

22nd February 2006

well hey now guess what? i'm in toa payoh, my main office... haha reason being is that i had to fax over to the music company my proof document. i need to show that i have passed my grade 5 theory examination in order to take piano examinations grage 6 and above. so well being the forgetful me (i've been ever so tired and busy) i forgot to take down my applicant's number, so now i have to pay 50 cents to use the internet in the office. i get half hour to play around on the net. it took me around 2 minutes to log into my mail to get my applicant's number, so basically i've got 28 minutes to kill. haha, otherwise it'll be a waste of my precious money.

okay on to the piece of sad but interesting news... i have not been shortlisted for the interview at ngee ann poly. i applied for mass communications under the JPSAE, and i didn't quite get it... okay this is going to be quite confusing... i called the hotline to see if i have been shortlisted, i wasn't. i didn't know what to make of it at first. then feeling itchy, i decided to try again, and.... i realised that i pressed a wrong set of nunbers for my NRIC, and that i was actually shortlisted!! 3 hours later i tried again, and hmmm... i wasn't... but well, at least God has closed this door for me... so off to the University at Buffalo (UB) SIM for me... =)

sigh my time is not up yet but i don't have much to tell, let me tell you about my work instead. i just received a call from a super annoying client... he wants to break his rental lease, and doesn't want to pay the penalty!! argh! had to talk to him so long on my handphone, my hp bill arh... sigh... anyway i referred him over to my boss as i can't handle this fella. one kind of cheapo fella...

oh and something else, i went shopping with mummy before work, and FINALLY i found a nice cheap pair of high heel shoes! yay haha... seriously, i have to face reality, i am SHORT. okay okay! first and last time you'll hear me admit that. i need some height when i go out into the workforce... haha so now i'm walking like a duck with constipation... picture this : backside out, chest out, kness bent, legs kicking the air... yeah that's how i'm walking...

okay the end. i am not going to continue typing just for the sake of typing. there is no use in that, but it seems that is exactly what i am doing haha sorry, i'll really end off now. goodbye.... =)

19th February 2006

hiya people! i'm talking to amelia right now on the phone.. =) oh and we're singing along to the song on my blog... haha yup, that's how loud it is... nah, it's just that amelia's ears are really sharp... like a dog's... haha! =)

anyway, i was just told that my english has gone all weird, so thus, i'm back as strong as ever, as true to my resolution as possible, which is to type good english in this blog. it'll make good practice after all. thanks mrs. koh!

do you know what i have realised these few days? i have not been speaking good english. (okay so today's topic shall be all about the english language) my pronunciation and vocabulary isn't very good, and i make grammatical errors... well the good thing though, is that i know i've made a mistake! =) however, isn't it scary when you realise your mistake only AFTER you've made it? i've had this thought before, about what would happen should my english fail me? i can't converse in chinese very well, nor write a proper sentence in that language, what would be the consequences of my english dying out too? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

now i'm panicking... okay this has just spured me on to start reading the newspapers and books again. all right i confess!! i haven't been as good a kid as i should have been. i did say i would religiously read the papers right? well that went on for quite a while, or rather heh, a week or too, but erm well, that kind of stopped. sigh... okay okay, i know i have to do it, especially if i'm going to do mass comm or communications or whatever it is i'm going to do...

on to something else now... hey i'm currently applying for my music exam! THE final grade oh no! i'm nervous! my examination is in september, and gosh that's really near... besides, i've jsut started practicing on my pieces!! i stopped my lessons in march last eyar you see, it was the O level year. i've started again in january but oh, i don't have a talent with music. i need a few months to perfect ONE song, and now i've got only 9 months to put together THREE songs, scales and SIGHT READING, which by the way, i'm TERRIBLE at. haha i still remember that my grade 6 examiner told me "loisa, you have to brush up on your sight reading. you make it sound so painful!!" haha can you imagine that? he said it straight in my face! how subtle can one be? haha it wasn't exactly amusing then, although now it is pretty hilarious... haha

okay i've got to go to bed now. i'm working tomorrow! do you know what is so strange about this "job" i've got? well i'm SUPPOSED to be a miniature real estate agent, which means i have to do viewings, research, type out reports and so forth, BUT i seem to be doing much more than that! let me tell you what i ahve been up to these two weeks. i have changed lightbulbs, fixed air conditioners, attempted to stop leakages, painted walls, swept and mopped floors, scrubbed toilet bowls, put up wall papers... i've even taken my own study table, chairs and plants to spice up other people's homes! now what kind of job am i holding, you ask me. all i have to say is, i'm a real estate agent cum interior designer cum washer woman sum plumber cum electrician and goodness knows what else? oh why not include receptionist and secretary into the list? sigh... haha it can be pretty amusing if it isn't so tiring running roudn the whole of singapore, and you wonder how i have the time to blog right? haha, it's because i'm waiting for my music application's email to come in! okay, so i registered on friday, and i was told that it would take 2 working days for the mail to be sent to me... but ah well, i'm an anxious girl... haha... =)

ps: HAPPY BITHRDAY ZHI YIN!!

a day in the life as a personnel in the workforce

thu had work and was thinking that my job would be fun but was proven wrong on the 2nd day of work-fri. Yay my only chance to be long-winded so I shall not spare u. haha im attempting to hv more than 1000 words in this post so if its tooo wordy,u hv a choice not to read it. a challenge put to me by SOMEONE. haha and I noe u would be thinkin-wa thanks arh! haha I think I’ll say welcome first. ok shall spare u for now. I got this job wif wl. we were definitely looking forward to this job. on the 1st day we went, we had nothing to do for abt 1h.u could imagine we were bored to death but oso excited tt we could earn free money. An Indian lady asked us if we wanted to shred paper since we were free n had nothing to do. We agreed to do so as soon as she asked us and even were excited to do it. some of u must be thinking wad can shredding paper make us get so excited. Haah I oso don’t noe why we were so excited but maybe cos we were so bored and if we had nothing to do so once we are given a job, we would be excited?
We were shredding the papers and finding ways and means to oso hv fun at the same time. The papers came in a huge stack and were connected to each other so I took one end of the stack and place the pile on the floor and the shreddin machine just ‘swallowed’ the whole pile one sheet at a time. We enjoyed ourselves shredding paper. on a few occasions, the machine was jammed and we tried to pull out the paper tt had been jammed inside the machine using the button but no more paper could be shredded so we decide to pull out the bin that under the shredding machine and tried to make the shredded paper compact so tt more paper could be shredded. While shredding the papers, the acting leader of the dept of payroll--tjen arrived and we were given instructions on how to sort out the info that they needed.
shall tell u how it goes if not u wont be able to understand the rest of the post.
We were told by tjen that we had to sort out taxi claims and meal claims. For taxi claims, it wld be considered as taxable if someone took a taxi before 8.30pm frm mon-fri and during the weekends. for meal claims, it would be taxable if meals were taken during weekends. Those tt were taxable had to be keyed into excel. mind u, it may seem easy but we oso had to refer to calendars to find out if the days were weekdays or weekends and it wasn’t as if the claims were only for 2005! It ranged from 2004 to 2005! Knowing these info, we proceeded to sort out the files. Wl was fortunate in the sense that she had a laptop so once she had found something to be taxable, she could directly key into the excel while I had to put flags on the receipts to indicate they were taxable. File after file I went through and by 4+pm on thu-1st day, I had 10 files on the floor because I had alr sorted them out and was told tt a computer wld arrive at 4.15pm but it still didn’t until the end of the day lah! A lady was ‘complaining’ that I was messing up the floor with all the files, but what could I do? Nothing lah cos I didn’t hv a computer…nvm..its ok. Lunch we had a dept lunch bcos the boos of the dept was posted overseas n seldom came back so since tt day he was in Singapore, they decided to hv a dept lunch on the 13th floor. Wow! Its like 1st day only then we had free lunch. I hv no complains abt the lunch cos it was really delicious. We had curry veg, assam fish, prawns, pasta, pineapple rice and loads more..cant remember but those that I named, I took it except for the prawns cos they r messy to eat outside home. heh no skill to be able to shell it without dirtying my fingers. Aft the main course, we had bo bo cha cha and I had a slice of tiramisu cake. The cake n the bo bo cha cha was really nice. We worked OT for 1h then we went home. That concludes the 1st day.

On the 2nd day, I told wl to start work at 8am s(office hours are officially at 8am and not 8.30am cos it was our first day n didn’t noe the plce so we cld go a lil later) so tt we cld work OT for a while. I was running late cos we arranged the day before to meet at 7.20 at the tail end of the train and when I glanced at the clock in the living room, it showed 7.20am. I immediately rushed out of the house after putting my shoes on. Halfway along the corridor, I felt tt the back of my feet was painful bcos the shoes were too tight and being new, were not seasoned. I guessed that I would get blisters at the end of the day. I would hv rushed back home to change shoes but knowing I was alr late, decided not to in case we miss each other on the train cos she stays in pasir ris n I in simei. I reached simei mrt and I waited for wl’s sms to let me noe when to get on the train.while waiting, I took off my shoes so that I can minimize the pain. I waited for at least 20min before she told me she was entering simei mrt station. Had I know she would be thtat late, I would not hv hesitated to change shoes. The walk to the office seemed a long time when in fact was only 10min cos the back of the shoes were ‘bitting’ into my flesh. Once I reached the office I inspected my feet and true enuff, the flesh was torn and I had a big blister on my left feet and 2 blisters on my right feet. Had to walk barefooted ard the office cos the blisters were painful. The ppl in the same office as us were asking what happened to me and I told them abt the blisters. They tried to help me out in finding a pair of sandals for me to wear cos there were stapler bullets on the carpet and didn’t want me to get injured or bacteria to get into the wounds. They were soo kind to me! When it was time for lunch, I tried to put on my shoes cos I couldn’t possibly go out without shoes. They told me not to put my shoes on and volunteered their pair of sandals for me to put it on. They were too big for me and I had to make do with an extra pair of sandals they had in the office but not without walking like a duck. They decided that tt pair was too big and one lady had her nicer pair of sandals on her and she kindly let me try her pair to see if it was any smaller and true enuff, it just fitted me although I saw tt the size was 8. my shoe size is definitely not 8. they were so sweet n caring towards me. Had lunch with the smaller pair of sandals. After lunch, I went to get another pair of sandals as I could not possibly go home in the tight pair of shoes tt I wore in the beginning not to mention with my blisters on both my feet. If we wanted to go to the Ladies, we had to borrow the permanent staff’s card n key. The card being used to get out of the dept n the key to gain access to the toilet—that is their security. We inserted the key into the hole n turned the key but we realised that the door could not be opened. We thought that we had the wrong key since we were given 2 keys. We tried to remove the key but low and behold, it was stuck. The key could not be turned in any direction. Wl informed the receptionist tt the key was stuck. Guess what she did… she gave wl another the masterkey to the toilet and when wl came back I was like “hello? The key is stuck, it cant even be removed and there she is giving us another key??” it was so amusing lah.this time I went and told the receptionist that the key was stuck and she tried to turn the key. She oso could not turn the key and told us that she had to call maintenance. In the mean while, she open the more posh toilet for us to use. I commented to wl that nothing correct is happening today. Haha well..i suppose n hope that Friday would be the worse day cos I still hv 3 more days ahead of me.

Continued sorting out claims that r taxable n the more I sorted out, the worse it became. We had to check the date of the claims and then check against one of the 3 calendars provided—2003 to 2005 calendars. Mind u, the files do not put the year the claims are from. Inside the file u can hv 2004 and 2005 claims. When it was drawing near to the end of the day, I began to hallucinate n ‘see’ the year wrongly and I had to redo the whole file cos I checked the wrong calendar and this can mean a big difference in a weekday or a weekend for each year. It was really so scary but thankfully I realised that I was seeing numbers that were not there if not I would hv made so many mistakes. Aft undertaking this job, it definitely has spurred me on to work hard so that I can go to uni as facing numbers for only 2 days has alr taken its toll on me and I wont want to do that for the rest of my life.

Well..i suppose I just set a record of writing more than 1500 words.haha



btw, this is not posted by loisa

16th February 2006

AUDREY! my dearest auddie odie! haha... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

orange... haha... in dedication to you... =)

okay GUESS WHAT?! i've decided to try out for the 3 year degree course thing... it's called "bachelor or arts in communications" haha but i've got to work real hard at it cause i'm not sure if i'm matured enough to think far yet... after all i am skipping jc and poly for this degree course... sigh, but i can do anything wtih God beside me right? and He ALWAYS is! Gosh i'm so happy... it's like my life has just started and i'm on to something now... let's say if i get into mass comm in np, tourism in sp, and i get this degree thing, haha i can have fun rejecting courses... REJECTING! haha sounds so cool... okay i'm evil... but it's kinda scary... i'm going to be so young there... argh... nvm aud's there with me, together we'll * ahem a bit corny here, GO FORWARD * haha...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i'm just so HAPPY!

oh i've withdrawn from MI already... sigh... my concession card ohhh my heart! haha gotta pay adult fees already... sigh... =( but HEY! i'm an ADULT! haha no longer ms primary school or sec 2 as mr ng loves to say... hee... see? there's always something good in everything... a silver lining... =) gosh can you just tell how positive and happy i am? i'm feeling like an angel... oh but i do miss everyone in mi... my classmates, my og mates... my friends!!! went out with theo and jovin yesterday, don't ask me what happened to amanda, nat, ting and wanqi! haha, going to murder them soon... sigh... 06S14! opps who's there arh? okay i'm going to be a bit longwinded here...

angel! : haha you know what i've got to say... remember louie the graceful swan is behind you all the way!! =)
hwee leng : okay sorry not a single clue on what colour you like so red also lar hor... so you arh, supposed to withdraw with me! haha nevermind, we got into school past the security guards yeah? hey all the best in your future endeavours! no problemo for us... =)
Jeslyn : you never really attended classes with us did you... haha but it's okay... you're still nice... i love that st. pat's tie! haha, love your glasses too though it's kinda bright... keep rocking... =)
Jolene : hmmph, i'm going to find some other porridge lady who treats me better... haha... you're a great girl... keep in touch!! all the best! =)
lynette : okay i know you like pink... you, angel jolene... sigh... terrible taste... =) haha love you man! you're hilarious and so fun to be with.. try to not pinch people's faces too much or they'll go out of shape... mine has already... God bless! =)
Ping May : eeeya... untahantable leh you... well congrats on your results! still in awe of it... you're so soft spoken and sweet goodness haha will miss you a lot! God bless! haha red bag red bag!!! hee haha =)
James : SHEESH! seriously you're so full of nonsense... drama papa, never know when you're pulling our leg! you'll go far in drama... haha =)
Jethro : i'm still trying to figure out if you the stories you tell are true... hmmm... were you the one who said your friend knocked into a van? the other liar-er is james so it might be him too... i say that's not true!! haha anyway nice knowing you... =)
Jeremy : you're gone! were you really knocked down by an ambulance? that james is going to be the death of us... haha all the best! =)
JunXian : yeah yeah i know you like yellow.. yellow yellow banana... haha nvm... you're really nice you know that? unbelievable... wonder how long it will last but seeing how you go about as mr. nice, well it could go on forever! amazing! well i guess i'll miss you too! it's hilarious watching how angel always manages to get the better of you... haha =) psst... music lesson's on tmr! oh no! haha
Linus : i love your mum! haha ah well, you're pretty nice, but real playful... hmmm is study in your list? great knowing you... =)
Othniel : HA you're from BB! my kind of guy... not... haha nah... brother! i'm from GB! haha anyway hmm... your hair blocked my entire view while we were watching the video during GB but nvm, you moved haha thanks! have fun! up til now, i can't quite pronounce your name... opps =)
Nathan : i wasn't crying! i had a cold lar... haha but real nice of you to ask... hmmm i can't figure you out either... but i like your smile... haha, kinda sweet. and eh, my name is LOISA and i don't have to check the directionary! haha God bless =)
Timothy : gee you're scary... you should soften your face or something... give a smile now and then... otherwise you really look like you could whack someone up real bad... but other then that... erm... nice trying not to look you too much... =)
Viknesh : viknesh vikNESH... gosh you're SO exasperating you know that? haha but you make my day... never fail to make me roll my eyes... but that's good you know, cause it makes me laugh... =) all the best to you, chairman of 4 years straight... =)
Wee Jie : ookay, so you pretty much have monday blues and math blues too... haha... well turn up for lessons some time yeah? haha =)

oh angel, if you do ever read this which i'm not very sure you will:
we've MADE IT! ignore everyone who seems to comment and talk so much... we've never expected the kind of results we got... it's God's blessings to us... maybe we're going through this cause He wants us to strive for better goals the next time but NEVER let anyone get you down, no matter if we're from neighbourhood schools... to me, i'm thick skin enough to know that we're geniuses already so i love you! i'll never leave you okay? we may take different routes but hey in a few years time, we'll be out in the working force and haha, we'll get our driving licences, get married, have kids, or maybe we'll just stay single, go senile and enterthe same old folks home and play mahjong there... haha stay happy angel! )

14th February 2006

okay it's valentines' day! haha i totally forgot all about it til i saw practically every single pupil of saint hilda's carrying a balloon, rose, flower and whatever else associated with valentines day... haha i was at the GB table and i saw carol carrying GREEN BALLOON! haha was so happy, and everyone was going on about hong kiat passing michelle a valentine's day gift... they said he was very sweet and wrap until so nice and so on, but i was kinda thinking more that he's very free... haha, ah well that was still nice of him... okay he's nice to my junior so he's in my good books! haha

okay to the point... i'm so HAPPY! i've finally made my decision on where to go, and no one is going to change my mind or make me confused, no teacher, no student, no friend... only family but ah well, i've prayed and i think God wants me to go for it... to try my best... so we'll see... =)

1. mass comm in np
2. tourism in sp
3. tourism in np
4. media and comm in sp
5. law in tp

haha law was for fun, i don't mind it really, but it's pretty far for me... well guess what? jovin and sam have put np as their first choice so yay! haha wo you peng you liao... jeremy's going to sp, haha so i've got a friend there too! i won't feel so small and lonely in poly anymore... poly's kidna scary eh? it's so big and huge... cna get lost in it... np is a perfect annoying example... haha... there are barriers and railings everywhere! sam and i were joking and said we can no longer jaywalk across our grandfather's road, so we have to climb OVER the railings! haha...

oh heard from sam and aud that there's this 3 year to a degree course, which allows me to skip poly and jc, plunging straight to a degress cert... it's erm 54 K in total.. a BOMB! haha, but ah well, we pay in semesters... it's a degreee in journalism... hee... my kind of thing... la dee da... will ask aud more about it tomorrow, at a normal hour... gotta be quick though as the registration stuff end tomorrow at 4pm!! ahhhh =)

11th February 2006

sigh i've been feeling weird and lost today... never knew choosing where to go would be so tiring and panicky... i can't decide between mass communications in singapore poly, media and communications in ngee ann poly, tourism and resort management in singapore poly, and the same diploma (tourism and resort management) in ngee ann poly...

do you know what really scares me most? it's the thought that i'm no longer trusting in God... i pray, but i wonder if my heart truly believes, or is it just my head? or none at all?

Sam prayed with me over the phone yesterday, while i was walking home... i really love her you know? everyone have been supportive of me though, it's pretty touching... thank you mdm norhani, mr rashidi, ms yew, mr chiang, ms lum, miss gan, jami, oilam, elisa, jacintha, yvonne, raq, sun, sam, shawn, zhiyin, junxian... gosh angel, amelia, kim, emily and weilian too! they are the blessings in my life...

i'm talking to amos now... i love him too you know! sometimes, i wonder if he's an angel... somehow, everytime when i'm so down and i'm not really even aware of it myself, though there's something in me that's not right, he'll come along and make me throw it out, and then remind me of God's love for His people, and guess what? i'm one of them, his very own special child... does that make sense to you? it makes a whole lot of sense to me... i feel so happy and encouraged... lighter, as if God has lifted the burden off me and He has!!

"...seek first his kingdon and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.." -- Matthew 6:33..

this was what amos wrote... so now i'll kneel down, give thanks for what i have, and pray for the Lord to guide me on the right path... only he alone knows what is best for me... =) thanks amos!

ain't sure if i can sleep tonight... i'm still brooding over it i guess, but i can't help it! i'll eventually accept it and life goes on, but for now... sigh... maybe i'll go read a little or something... i have had enough of typing... can you believe that i actually erased all my compositions from my computer after the "O" levels and now, i need to include them in my portfolio!!! haha, sigh... it's sad isn't it... now i ahev to retype our everything that i can find which exists as a hard copy... haha... hit the books louie! =)

THE REAL END OF O LEVELS

ookay, so we've collected our "O" levels result slip, and hey what do you know... LOUIE HAS PASSED HER CHINESE! Gosh i really thank God for that... I prayed and worked so darn hard for that subject... but that UNGRADED for oral is really an eyesore... it's a BIG FAT ungraded... ah well i can't ask for much right? God has blessed me with good results for the written paper already, especially since i failed my oral... it was quite drama in school... haha, cause mdm li dong mei came out to ask how my chinese was, and i found mrs tan ming ngo and ms cindy lum at the staff room and both asked if i had passed my chinese. later, ms kuah, mr lai ( i think that's his name, and another female chinese teacher (she remembers me from a GB CNY dance last year) passed me and asked too how i fared for chinese. it was as if the whole chinese department was after me and i was the only case who failed like that... sigh... but i really love mrs tan and mdm li... well "fu lao shi! now the whole of 4A has passed chinese!"

oh oh and again guess what GUESS WHAT?! I PASSED MY PHYSICS TOO! haha i will always remember what mr. yap told me "ai yar no hope like that..." i was pretty demoralised... i told him i might fail physics, and he said right back to me "fail, fail lor, no choice already, your physics is like that." so now MR. YAP! I PASSED physics! haha, hope he's proud of me, i put my all in my sciences you know... a real lot... cried so much as i was studying it too... and now i've passed both sciences! okay, so i maintained my chemistry, but hey i got a 5 for physics okay?! i improved from a 9 in prelims! Oilam guided me through too... thank you Lord...

now just don't talk to me about english and mathematics okay? those were my hopes of covering up for my sciences and chinese, and now WHAT?! i got Bs.... B!!!!! a B for english! i was praying so hard i'd get an A... so seriously, i have no comments, pretty sad about those subjects...

ah well here's my pride and joy... ahem, my HUMANITIES! ahhhhhhhhh i can jump off the building with joy! i actually got an A1!!! like never in my entire upper secondary life have i got an A1!!!! WOOHOOO!!! i never expected it, i would have been pleased with an A2, but an A1, oh gosh, pleasant surprise... God has truly blessed me... i studied my arse off for my ss, but erm lit er heh... on that exam day, i had both lit and math, so i was concentrating more on math, but see where math has led me?! grrrrr

okay that's the end... we'll see where the Lord leads me... =)

but somehow... it's kinda depressing... =(

she was too fidgety so i had to take hold her still between my legs while i snapped a shot...

she's teething, so she's biting this nylon string thing...

haha don't ask me what she's doing... mid jump...

ooo i love this photo! sweet

she's killing my green slippers!!

haha, i found a hat for her!

she's sleeping yet again...

awww....

=)

sleepy...

side view of pebbles

8th February 2006, Wednesday

yiiiiiiiiiiiiiaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

friday's the big day, it'll be a turning point in my life! it's the collection for the O level results... i had this terrible TERRIBLE, i repeat and emphasise, TERRIBLE nightmare last night...

do you know how the percentage passes are always announced right before you get your o level slip? yeah, i dreamt that this time, for physics, it's no longer 100% passes, it's 96.3! do not ask me how i came up with that number, but the point is, i'm that 3.7% who did not pass! and there's only so few people taking pure physics, i feel like i would know it's me if the number does not turn up to be 100% pass! the same goes for chinese... it'll probably 98.1% or something, and again that's me... i have to tell mrs. tan (my chinese teacher) if i failed or pass some more. i'm so going to run away from her and mr yap... i feel like a let down already, even before i've collected anything!

okay i'm going to stop my rubbish and start concentrating on what i want to do after the Os... sigh, i'm actually thinking of

JC/MI - chemistry, physics, maths, and lit, maybe chinese B
Poly - media, mass comunications or heh, tourism... sounds funny? sigh, i'm a confused kid with no goals, yeha i know it's bad, don't remind me...

well we'll see what happens next yeah? pray for God's blessings... i truly worked my hair off for physics and chinese... sigh... i'm kidna nervous for humanities and english too, cause i'm hoping they cover up for my weak subjects, but argh! do i really have that little confidence or am i being too pessimistic and negative?

okay cut! i'm going to study now... =)

Chinese New Year!!

wheee chinese new year is here!! haha, today was hilarious! my secondary school class 4a had decided to go back as a class to St. Hilda's for CNY celebrations. i heard that qashrul was the one who initiated the whole thing and that dear fella did not even go back! so anyway, initially, angel and i did not plan to go back as our parents do not allow us to skip school, BUT haha due to our charming ways (heh), we managed to weasel our way through the security guards, teachers, and HODs.

NAH, we actually got permission! here's the funny part. angel, jolene, may, junxian, jethro and me (my new classmates lar) wanted to get out of school real bad. we stayed for the performance til 9, but after that we did not want to join in with the activities. so we all trooped down to the back gate, but oh darn it! although it was not locked, it was chained!! -.- sigh... haha we contemplated climbing over the gate but heh, well we are ladies after all. there were even ideas of poisoning the guards, or putting laxatives into their drinks so we could sneak out as they rush for the loo! our school had also invited a "lion dance" troop to perform for us, so one joker suggested all of us hiding as storaways in their lorry! but the saner ones reasoned that it might take hours before the lorry actually moves out of school! haha junxian was cute! he said that "what if the lorry drives until don't know where, we wouldn't be able to find our way back!!" all of us went "DOTS! we just need to get OUT of school, the minute the lorry exits MI, we jump out! we don't travel with the lorry to its destination!!!" haha... so we continued scheming and brainstorming of ways we could get out of our jailhouse. we truly resembled jailbirds lar, the way we pressed our faces against the fence which blocks us out from the world outside... haha pathetic right... haha

aha! our home tutor was the answer, we told ourselves. thus we went over to ask mrs kuek to see if we could go back to shss, or rather, for angel and i only. jolene and may were going home, junxian had to go back to his bowen sch thing, and jethro, ohho jethro! haha, no idea what he wanted to do. he was super funny, he tried to find excuses to go home, starting with

1) headache
2) stomachache
3) goldfish died
4) grandmother's wedding (she's remarrying)

and ending with

5) going with a friend to his secondary school (mind you, both of them are from DIFFERENT secondary schools! haha)

well mrs kuek wanted to help us out VERY badly but she did not want to get any of us or herself into trouble you see, so angel and me thick skin went to ask the security guards posted at the front gate, if we could go out early. they told us that we needed a permission slip signed by our home tutor and a HOD. so again, we marched over to the general office and asked the clerk there if we could have a permission slip or something. haha thank our lucky stars! a HOD man was behind us (he looked like a technician lab helper, not a HOD!) and he allowed us to go back to our respective secondary schools! haha, we enticed him! nah, haha, we psycho him til in the end he gave in and said "okay lar, we want to encourage filial piety in MI, so since you all are so filial and attatched to yoru secondary schools, i'll let the 6 of you off." he walked us to the school gate to give the secuirty guards permission to let us off, and then others asked him if they could go off too! haha he was so funny. he told them "i don't know all of you arh, i only know 6 of them." haha hilarious!

the minute we got out of school, angel, junxian and i started running like the wind (haha exaggerating here) out of toh tuck rise to catch a cab outside. 3 of us got in and we made out way down to tampines st. 81. poor junxian had to follow us all the way there as we were in a rush. i was so excited i whipped out my handphone to call amelia immeidately. haha was so breathless but my, my heart nearly stopped when i heard her voice! okay, not so kua zhang lar, but i missed her so much! haha... throughout the ride, angel and i were laughing at how we got away with it all! the "early dismissal", and the way we fought to get it.

opps, too late. we then realised that we didn't have enough money to pay for the fare! haha, again we were ultra fortunate that junxian had money with him. vikNESH (he's always going around calling us anGEL and loiSA you see, haha) had given him 10 bucks and he had another 10 bucks of his own so whew! we had enough, but heh, angel still owes him a buck while i owe him 30 cents. pathetic... haha... the total cost was around 12 plus lar, each of us had to pay 4.50. it's like a ticket to enter SHSS's concert.

okay, so we stopped at the springfield bus stop, and we RAN, yet again, towards SHSS, with junxian panting behind us. haha, poor guy... well he wanted to see our school what... haha... first person we saw when we reached school? AMELIA! haha i've never loved her so much! we had a group hug, a bear crushing hug! haha... then we walked in as graduates of SHSS. haha dramatic isn't it? too bad we didn't have a fan club or something waiting for us. haha, okay i'm babbling again. hee

gosh so many familiar faces, friends, fellow school mates, juniors, seniors too, and teachers! haha, there was this homey cosy feeling as we walked up to the hall. sigh... i love SHSS. truly, once a hildan, ALWAYS a hildan. okay, i'm getting sappy here... anyway, the concert was still going on. it was this hildan superstar singing competition thing, and we got there just in time to hear song ren (at least i think that's his name) sing! wow he's good, made my heart melt! haha i could fall in love with a guy like that, although i didn't understand a word he was singing since it was in chinese... haha

okay to name a few people i met... ... ... hmmm i've decided not to. it's just too many! i saw nearly the entire sec 4 batch, joy a senior, juniors, councillors, mr. wong, mdm norhani, mdm wong, mrs. tan the libarian... wow haha... and when mr. yap saw angel and i in school uniform, he was telling us that we disgraced the school uniform as we were not wearing our name tags, school socks, and for me, the school tie. he pointed to my black shoes and went "you still wear black shoes some more... councillor! never wear tie HAI YO!" angel was diaoing him and i so wanted so badly to roll my eyeballs up but i didn't want to look rude and was afraid my contact lenses would drop out onto the floor. haha... met nic teo too... he told me some lame joke, as usual, then twirled me three times... seriously, i do think he's insane... =)

oh oh, i'm wearing contact lenses! ain't used to it yet! mum made me get them as my degree went up and it was advised that i wear lenses to lower my degrees before i go entirely blind! haha, i got it three days ago... heh i'm taking pretty long to get it onto my eyeballs... i woke up at 5am the other day, and i only got it in around 6.45am... haha was nearly late for school because of that... taking them out is much easier... all you've gotta do is practically peel it off the eyeballs... okay am i scaring you? it's okay... =) i'm scared of it myself. haha that's why i take so long to put it on. scary, but my chor lor nature helpes me take it out easily lar. haha...

okay back to topic. after school, kim, angel, amelia and i went to macs for lunch! angel and i were kinda broke (thanks to the taxi fare) so we used our EZ link cards to pay! haha oh then i had to rush home, as my trip back to buona vista is super long! sigh, we went our seperate ways, and i boarded the train towards "don't play" station. (boonlay i mean, it sounds like don't play right? i was a kid and doing my version of a pole dance, playing on the train, when the announcement was made. DON'T PLAY!! i thought the person making the announcements was scolding me, heh) yeah then angel called me and guess what? she met alvin (my orientation group member) and gang at tampines interchange. they're from dunman secondary school so i guess they wanted to visit their school too. by then it was 12 plus, haha, not sure who they're visiting... security guards maybe? haha...

well that's about it! louie's eventful chinese new year! haha... my friends have planned an ice skating outing... i'm afraid i'll fall down and break the ice or my neck! haha, we'll see... it'll be an experience though... wheeeeee cant wait! =)

happy chinese new year you guys! =)

turning into a lawyer

okay i've suddenly thought up of an amibition! haha, weird huh... i'm thinking of becoming a lawyer! haha, those criminal ones... hee... but it's a little scary, dealing with them. i wanna be a defender! =) my inspiration? haha the lawyer, madison, from tim green's books! haha! however, i just found out that in order to be applicable for that particular career, i have to get an A in GP (general paper), be real proficient in english and etc. i'm not sure about science, math and all those stuff, but i might as well do my best in those too yeah? well so basically i'm panicking, as i have slowly realised that my english is failing me. so... i'm back to my OLD resolution again. i'll do my best to write good english in my blogs, i hope. yeah, i wanna do well for GP! i'm going to read the newspapers as i read my novels and books... with ZEST and PASSION! haha, that was what my current lit teacher told my class. we need to have ZEST and PASSION to do well in literature! haha, so ZEST and PASSION it is for me. i can't imagine pouring over the newspapers, especially the main straits times section as it's the most unappealing part for me, but that i must do! i do't mind the home section but goodness, the MAIN one? it feels well... boring perhaps... but my GP teachers said that we must know our facts not only at an individual level, but also at a global level. louie, world news is for you! sigh... i have to change my habits now... =( read newspapers everyday, every section, all the time! haha

talking about newspapers, i'm considering journalism too! haha, i do not really enjoy the writing part, but it sounds nice, and something that i believe i can cope with, better than other careers. does that make sense?

okay i'm switching topics very fast. my mind thinks too much haha. my new cca, badminton! haha i haven't exactly signed up for it yet lar, but i'm all for it! haha, it would be cool to actually play badminton regularly now... =)

all these trend of thoughts make me remember something i learnt somewhere in school... a teacher told us something about one thought leading to many many thoughts... it was in literature i believe. she told us about a lady who composed a poem similar to this. a cloud of thoughts or something like that. i'm ashamed to say that i slept in her class. NEVER before have i slept during a literature period. i have always been wide awake during mrs. koh and mr. rashidi's lessons. somehow, this time i just couldn't seem to keep my eyelids open. i promise myself though that in future, i'll sit up real straight and be extremely attentive. haha =) i want to take literature at a H2 level!! not H1! sniff oh well nevermind. i'll stick with my current combination. i can always change it later! =)

friday the 13th!

haha wanqi and angel told me that friday the 13th is a black day, a dao mei day! haha it MUST be true after what we have been through today! allow me to explain...

i attended yet another group outing with my mi mates today. it was supposedly a bbq to celebrate two people's birthdays. namely, carmen, and benjamin. i'm not too sure if these outings are for cyrus one, or the whole of cyrus or something, but nevermind about that. just a thought. anyway, i arrived there pretty late, around 7 plus as i had to travel from music class in buona vista. the place was near MI, and i could actually take bus 173 from there -.- BUT i was told to travel all teh way to bukit batok, adn take 173 from the interchange. hai yo haha but nvm. it was an interesting though stressful ride. the train was darn crowded. oh ya, a mum asked her 5 year old kid what bukit batok was in chinese, and the little one answered with much confidence. i was so embarrassed that i myself did not know it! haha a five year old kid beat me to it! haha oh well...

anyway, basically, i arrived there at 7 plus. 2 guys met me at the bus stop. haha i had escorts! haha, nice of them =) nat, ting, and wanqi were already there in the house when i went in. we played with poker cards for a little while and then nat went home. the 3 of us left decided to help start the cooking as it was 8 plus by then and though everyone was hungry, no one was cooking -.- one fella told us "maybe you better start the cooking. it's okay if you poison us, cause if we don't eat now, we'll still die of hunger" haha it was pretty funny... so the three hopeless cooks tried to kick start the bbq by putting the grill onto the pit. haha we took approximately 20 minutes to do that? haha in desperation, we decided to call the boys who went out to jalan jalan. by the time they got back, we were already cooking the raw food. we were unsure whether they were cooked or not so we just trial and error lar haha. some food were erm, chao ta of course. hee but that's not the point

the point is...

argh! people were complaining and criticising so much! i mean come on, we're cooking for you, we had not eaten either too you know. if you don't want to help it's fine, but please do not ask "who cooked this shit" when everyone is hungry and yet you're not doing a thing! there were of course more comments on our bad cooking but nevermind, what's in the past, let's leave it in the past! =) i guess everyone was pretty frustrated then...

the most amusing thing was that we three girls walked out on everyone with attitude, or rather only wanqi lar. haha, ting and me were loking down all the time and muttering bye without sincerity, but wanqi is seriously the best! haha she dao-ed everyone! and as our msn nicks say....

PATHETIC us. eating puffs along e DESERTED roadside. we nearly got SMASHED by a reversing car and and ongoing car

haha the host's mum was real nice. she gave us three currypuffs to eat on the way home. =) so we walked to the bus stop, and we realised goodness, was it even a bus stop? there were no benches, no lights, no bars, haha just a piece of metal above our heads and a near invisible bus pole there! haha, we sat down on the road to eat our puffs, and again as the nick tells it, we nearly got knocked down, from both sides! on our right a car was going towards us, and on our left, a car was reversing! haha boy did we feel lousy and pathetic at that point of time. we were quite pissed off too so we lost our appetitie, but on the bus to clementi, we became tired and just didn't have anymore energy to be angry at anyone. we had drinks at a coffee shop in clementi and basically, joked and crapped a lot... haha well we had fun then yeah? oh and poor wei yao (mr. polar bear) tore his ankle ligaments... keep him in prayer! we were missing him like mad cause he would have made our day! haha

so i guess all in all, the whole outing wasn't a total black out right? =) we already planned our next chinese new year gathering.. haha or rather gatherings... we're gonna go visitation! haha... =)

combination

okay my combination is like wow... so non me... i'm taking chemistry, physics, and mathematics at h2 level, and literature at h1 level!! ahhhhhh... so scientific and sciency! haha well, we had chem, physics and math on the first day of lessons! i repeat FIRST day... haha... sigh, we didn't start on any physics but immediately we had chemistry homework. and math oh goodness kill me, just murder me... math was like piang! i was just copying, and copying and copying without understanding a thing! haha... terrible... have to revise again and again and over again in the hopes of understanding at least 10 percent. sigh... pray for me, i'm losing confidence and faith! =(

and now, we need a graphic calculator for math... i just smsed elisa, jami and june about it, but elisa hasn't even heard of it! ahhhh!!! and it's darn expensive lar.. it's 175 or 210 bucks can... imagine, if you drop it on the floor... bang! wah your heart will just stop... the worst part is that in poly, you don't need it! so it's such a waste if you purchase one and then decide to go to poly! sniff... it's quite tiring really... trying to decide on so many things now and gosh, i'm so scared! feel so hopeless... useless especially when the math teacher starts to talk... at least i can grasp chem, but math!!! sigh, i love angel that's all i can say... we shall pull through this together okay? =)

=(

a week in MI

MI's been interesting. we had a week of orientation! well cyrus one rocks to the core! haha i've got such a cool group!! although we were all ignoring each other during the first day (everyone was so shy!!), we made at least a friend too! okay, so we were forced too due to the icebreakers... haha, but subsequently we really had fun!

for the icebreakers we had to "get to know" the person sitting next to us. so i "got to know" benjamin! he's this really tall fella (and he knows it! will explain later), who is from st. joseph's institution... haha we asked a lot of irrelavant questions lar, such as shirt size, whether one likes to eat or not, and if one has any animals at home. okay that sounds so like my questions... well i was the one asking the questions mah. the shirt size was by our group leader. oh ya, his cca was canoeing, but he doesn't like to canoe. hmmm okay i guess... haha...

during break, i was standing at a noticeboard i school, desperately sms-ing and calling angel cause i was so lost! haha, and this girl, theodora was standing enxt to me, doign the exact same thing! ahah since she's in my group, we laughed and agreed that we might only be able to find our friends in the mi crowd next year! and then an angel appeared in front of me... ANGEL!!! haha i happily skipped off with her, then looking back, saw theodora still standing there, so i invited her along! make new friends! =) theo's nice... haha very sweet... kinda quiet and innocent, but great! must not forget this funny part. we were eating at the basketball court (it wasn't allowed but heh), and a hilarious incident occurred. there was this gigantic tree nearby, and this guy threw up another fella's sch shirt. it stuck there lar! they tried using a ball to push it out, and guess what? the ball stuck too! by then we were spluttering all voer our food. it was real funny! haha, then a saviour came along. this guy used a mere TENNIS BALL and one throw, the ball on the tree came loose. of course there was no hope for the sch shirt so leaders had to be involved together with bamboo sticks. haha funny man...

oh and i found a few of my pri. sch friends! haha one of them is amanda, who's in my group too! i totally did not recognise her, but she recognised me! aww so touched... i'm famous... haha! okay then came the games, mi dance, and the oh to goodness SOOO boring discipline talks and subjects combination talks... but i guess it's a neccessity...

ookay, i can't remember details and it'd be too long anyway so i'll just emphasise on my new found friends since that's what orientation is about. jovin, another girl in our group, started passing this book along asking for everyone's numbers and email adds. i remember her casue it's something i'd never dare to do. i'm too shy. i'd just look down and feel real akward. actually jovin's kinda shy too but we both don't know what made her do that.. but anyway it was great cause after that, we all got to know each other better! then there's jasmine, fadilah, michelle, wanqi (her name is together, haha she told me that), natalie, ting you, carmen, pamela (she joined our group on the erm, third day i think), and i missed out a few girls so sorry... i know who you are but can't remember your names! i apologise but i still love you guys! =) okay then there's obviously benjamin, alvin, felix, weiyao erm er... seriously, i think we can forget about the names lar arh... i can't remember a thing. give me faces anytime... =)

what else? okay, we had our first group outing on the 9th january. our group is a very enthusiastic one... haha... i actually heard about it from alvin, then i passed it on the jovin when she called me. the original plan was to go to plaza singapura to play pool, but somehow along the way, the plan changed to orchard taka, then to cineleisure, but still pool.

we ate at macdonald's first. there was a whole lot of fries left! haha so we played this numbers game. each time we lost, we had to eat 5 fries, and we kept giving the longest fries to that poor fella. haha had a good laugh. after that we went to change into home clothes as we were nto allowed into the game room in school clothes. goodness as some did not bring their casual clothes, we had to mix and match to help them out! haha i ahd to pass my school skirt off as a normal skirt! the minute we went in, the man went "oh erm half u is also not allowed" haha. wanqi told him that was not a school skirt. haha she was good! and yeah thanks, we looked small so we had to take out our ezlink cards to prove we're 17! -_- okay on to the game! oh the game was hilarious... haha, theodora and jovin left before the game started, but wanqi and i stayed behind. we took cue sticks, and realised they were longer than us?? haha heavy too... so well, we attempted to help our respective teams play, but of course we were of not much help. in fact i think we slowed them down a lot, thanks to the way our white ball continuously going into the holes... or better yet for my case, the ball flew right OFF the table, don't ask me how that happened okay... by then we were pretty hungry so off we went again to eat! haha, this time at mos burger... wah the guys can eat a lot! wanqi and i were kinda out of the circle so we stonned a little, very quiet. i lost my appetite cause it felt a little weird. in the end we did share a corn soup though. =) it was NICE! i'm going for the frozen strawberries next! hee...

okay time to go home!! majority took the bus home i guess, while a few stayed back to take erm neoprints. did i get it right? yeah.. that sticker picture thing... wanqi, alvin, me and another fella who's from cyrus one (i didn't even know he's in my group til today) went to sommerset station. since wanqi was taking the opposite train, the two guys adn me went off first. i couldn't decide whether to go back to buona vista, or back to tampines instead. (long story) at city hall, i was still thinking about it when alvin made me so kan cheong and told me i had to "decide now". so ookay! i went back to buona vista... haha it was nearer. he actually calculated the number of stations. buona vista - 9, tampines -11... he said two stops did not make a difference but well, haha. that concludes cyrus one's outing!! =)

CHRISTmas

merry christmas everyone!

ms gan sent me an sms which read "christmas is more than gifts and parties. the birth of Jesus is the reason for the season.He brings us hope, joy, love and peace." that's so true ain't it?

As little children
We would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys
We knew we'd find

But we never realized
A baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives
We were the reason
That He gave His life

We were the reason
That He suffered and died
To a world that was lost
He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by
We learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves
And what that means
On a dark and cloudy day
A man hung crying in the rain
All because of love, all because of love

I've finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him
In all that I do every word that I say
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him

He is my reason to live

sigh now this song has special meaning right? haha let's sign language to it, but the GB girls would probably glare at me. done it too many times already.

ah yes, i got a doggie! haha it's a schnauzer! it's one month old, a baby! it's like my christmas present, 2006 birthday present, 2006 christmas present, and part of my savings... or rather the WHOLE lot! ahhhhhh, so i guess i had better start saving again huh... but good news.. at least everything was below the expected 1,000 bucks. we had thought that the dog herself would be more than 1,000. YAY! =) her name is pebbles by the way... don't ask me why but it jsut popped into my mum's head! well it's better than wobbles right? haha i came up with that... and schnauz too, but sounds funny. i llove my long awaited doggie! =)

10th anniversary

on the 16th december 2005, 34th GB celebrated her 10th birthday!! it was well interesting... i can't remember much about it... only that avril and me stonned quite a bit as we were lonely people... it's sad that well, i mena it's supposed to be a memorable event but i can't quite remember anything that happened. well we sang songs, ate, old girls came back, saw seniors, but didn't really catch up with any of them... oh we ate LOTS of potato salad... it was GOOD! =) mrs. koh ate the most bacon bits i think... whenever avril and me pour too much, we would go opps and pass everything to her.... haha... bacon queen! =) i made nuggets and it's so sad! someone else did too, so i ate my owne nuggets... =(

yeah that's about it... but happy birthday 34th! =)

compliments of raq! =)




happy happy!!

1st to 13th December

Thailand Trip

there was a mission trip in thailand with 34th GB for 13 days, and i went with them. this was how it started. i arrived at the airport...LATE. half and hour late. gosh it was embarrassing. well that's what you get when you stay so far away from singapore's changi airport. even though i gave myself half hour allowance for the trip, i was still late! as quoted by the road sign, there was a "MASSIVE JAM". A normal jam wasn't enough, it had to be a MASSIVE jam. haha anyway, when i got there, was feeling pretty sleepy. i gave out all christmas presents, and then had to explain my hair cut.

"after annual camp, i was very sleepy, thus i leaned onto a bus stop sign and fell asleep. there was chewing gum on it, and therefore my hair was glued onto the pole. the gum refused to be removed from my head, and so a bold hair cut was needed to resurrect my hair"

okay i'm being a little dramatic here with my use of words but that's basically what happened. i believe it is against the law to "anyhow spit gum everywhere", but some people just don't get it into their thick skulls. their irresponsible actions cost people their hair you know. (but on the other hand, i shouldn't have been leaning onto the pole but ah what the heck haha)

okay we checked in our bags, and julie was kind stressed out but everything was sweet after that yeah? =) sam, aud and i sneaked off to have a quick, or rather huge bite of rojak, with compliments of sam's mum. thanks auntie, she's sweet isn't she? she even lent me a christian magazine to read during the trip. i love her! oh aud drank barley i think, while sam and i drank bird nest. (i don't know why but i seem to be able to remember the details of this day)

the plane ride was oh-my-gosh. our ears!!! they were so blocked. for my case, it wasn't that bad for as long as i kept swallowing my saliva, my ears would unblock themselves. but after a while, i couldn't very well drink so much water or salivate so much right? poor julie, nothing quite worked for her. i think it was painful. tried offering her a sweet but that was no better. anyway touch down! we landed in.............................................

CHIANG MAI

hee was so happy... we made our way to the orphanage, rainbow covenant, and settled there for the next 10 days. our mode of transport was an open air van or lorry or whatever it's called. haha so cool! the wind in our hair, the dust floating above our heads... ... ... well most of us ALWAYS sleep on the vehicle. haha, me included of course. anyway, each of us were attatched to a buddy, and my kid was suwisa! imagine, loisa, suwisa! haha love it! love her! i'm loving it. that was the best time of my trip. i played with her, spent time with her, and we even taught the kids there english. as my kid is eight, and is in pri. 1, she wasn't very fluent in her abc-s yet. so i started her off with those.

the first lesson, i went through her homework first. the words in her book were football, basketball, volleyball, swimming, skiing, tennis, table tennis, golf and baseball. she had a hard time differentiating between all of them, so i decided to do something every kid there loves to do. PLAY. haha so we played football, basketball and volleyball. we ran out of time so i just showed her an example of what the rest were like. well, good news, she remembered! and from then on, whenever we played those games, she would run to me and shout the name of the game to me! my did i feel like a proud sister. with a smile i would yall GOOD, and give her a hug. she always responded back with a greater hug and a sweet heart-warming smile. gosh i love her. (is this turning into a compo or what?)

well second lesson. i did not quite plan what to do with her, so i thank the Lord that he gave me an idea which worked very well, a little too well actually, but it was good. the abc song! suwisa seemed to know it well, so we made alphabats with our body. we both had great fun but i kinda had a body ache later. suwisa is no simple girl. usually we would be happy with an L formed with our two arms, but noooooo, suwisa had to use the WHOLE body. i had no choice but to contort my body to form various Es, Qs and worse Ms and Ws with her. i nearly split my pants while attempting a symmetrical X with her.

i have to admit one thing, the children are one extremely fit, healthy, strong and flexible lot. they can move their body in such a gracful manner you can only open your eyes wide in wonder, opening and closing your mouth at the almost inhuman way a 6 year old kid can shovel gravel. as part of doing God's work there, we were also present to help build a walkway for the orphanage there. while i was huffing and puffing over WEEDING, a kid 10 years my junior was actually using a shovel almost bigger than himself, and using all his might to shovel. and he did it, well! the prideful me decided to try it out too, and i nearly broke my back attempting to lift the shovel with the rocks on it. i had no choice but to humbly go back to my weeding and maybe help out with more pulling and stuff. we played soccer against the children too and it was so darn embarrassing! the kids there, my you have to marvel at their stamina. even with the ball rolling TOWARDS us, we just couldn't seem to run to the ball in time and yet, a kid 2 metres further from the ball then we are, could run up to it and snatch it away from our very own eyes. our clumsy feet could not kick the ball very well either. most of the time we kicked sand and the ball continued to lay on the ground, mocking us til a kid kicked it away before we have time to try again. once my shoe even went flying out. okay i admit, i used my hands a lot, but even with hands, chances given to us by our kids, and MUCH help from uncle steven (the volunteer helping out at the orphanage), we still kinda lost badly. haha it was fun though, but before the game was half through, many of us badly wanted to blow our whistles and whisper hoarsely for a break. nearing the end of the game, the kids were still tirelessly running all over the field literally playing the game by themselves, the singapore team from GB were wearily walking from one end of the field to another, in the hope then the ball would come to us on it's own. of course that never happened. we could not even attempt to get into the ball's radius of 1 metre. by the time the game was over, three-quaters of our team was flat down on the ground, waving an imaginary white flag. okay, so i was the only one. the rest were bravely plodding on. haha i was popped! no way was i going to move my butt from the grass. i was contented letting the ball roll anywhere, even into the net of my team, as long as i didn't have to run after it.

okay the third english lesson, i was sick! i have no idea what happened to me, but my body couldn't seem to keep in all my food. it insisted on throwing out everything. i was running a fever so miss gan kinda sponged me and rubbed something onto my stomach. heh... elisa took over the teaching for this session. thanks for helping me out! i missed the night safari too, was so disappointed but i really couldn't go anyway. had a splitting headache and the ride would have just made it worse. sigh.... but julie and elisa (i'm not sure if there are more involved but thanks too) were such sweet girls. they bought me an elephant purse! haha, with it's backside... but nvm, it is so cute! haha thanks guys! really appreciate it! =)

last english lesson. this was a serious one. i was determined to complete the whole abs with suwisa and ensure that she is confident of it. well success. she could identify every alphabat, even at random (although she had to think over the difficult ones), and she could even pronounce them correctly and beautifully. i was most pleased with her Ms and Ns. her pronounciation was clear and precise. the Lord has blessed her with wonderful speech. i was practically jumpng with joy at every alphabat said well! as my grin got bigger and bigger til i looked like a chesire cat, suwisa got mroe and more excited. i think she wanted to please me badly. good girl, i thought. she preservered on despite the many distractions around her. she got deterred quite often but was always pulled back by my "suwisa! listen and watch my mouth!" i did give her a reward later though! =)

all this while, we were doing up the walkway as much as we could, with some help from a tractor. had an interesting experience with that right girls? a little drama here and there, and a few pitiful and pathetic looks. haha. i'm sorry i wasn't of much help though. i was not allowed to be present in the actual shovelling and stuff as i was sick, but i hoped that the water i brought out for you guys was sufficient. i was praying too! =) and... God is good! the walkway was completed in time, and we even finished our banner too! with the help of the kids too, that piece of art was put up with joy and pride. sigh... extremely contented...

okay here comes the best part. singapore night! the night whereby we present all our gifts to the children and show them a little of our singapore culture. julie and i accompanied miss gan and miss lee to the market in the morning. the traffic in thailand is scary. there are no rules, no traffic lights, only lanes which vehicles sometimes do not follow. in the market it's worse! it's a narrow path and both moving vehicles AND humans have to squeeze together in order to keep moving. julie and i nearly went to heaven early 13 times. she counted with fear. haha. when we got back to the orphanage, the officers, with the help of our potential cooks from GB, made a scrumptious singaporean meal. everyone loved the sausage dish, but erm, we all kind of agree that the stew is well, quite similar to soup. haha, but nvm, it was a change from the rice and vegetables. not that i'm complaining but we're certainly not used to that for breakfast, lunch AND dinner. nevertheless, everything was eaten gratefully, except for a few hiccups. i enjoyed the passing of gifts the best. it pulled a string in me as i realised how fortunate we are here in singapore. we get the neccessaties in life easily, and we get fanciful stuff we want but not need too. many a time, we take things for granted, but there in rainbow convenant, there are children who are thankful for one set of second hand clothes that are neither fashionable nor even fit them. it made me feel a little shameful too, of the selfish way i demand for certain things in life. however, God had taken care and provided for them, for He loves the little children, all the children of the world. red and yellow black and white, all are precious in His sight, Jesus loves the little children of the world. =)

oh ya, i nearly forgot. we gave the children a treat too! a buffet lunch at a grand hotel! my could they eat. imagine, all the things we eat so often in signapore, chocoltaes, strawberries, cakes, the children have never had a chance to eat them at all! suwisa for example, went for the strawberries and ice kachang, but poor kid, i had to stop her from eating too much as she had a cough. but even then, she still ate more food then me. second helpings went down in a flash, thirds and fourths. i had to put down my fork and spoons to run after her all the time to help her with the food! haha such a bundle of joy, boy do i miss her.

ah yes, and we visited the local school to teach english and have recreation yet again! i'm just so in love with the kids there! they're so well mannered and such adorable children! they was a language barrier, and the teachers were not exactly very fluent in english too, so translation was a bit rough. but finally the ideas got through and the kids actually had fun with games such as captains ball, and dog and done! inititally, everyone stared blankly at each other when numbers were called out (in thai btw, finally i can manage 1 to 10 in thai! applause!) in dog and bone, and it was fraustrating. but things have a way or working out and it got better and better! haha the staff there are really thoughtful too. on one of the days, i was running a high fever. it was so embarrassing, i was supposed to be teaching english and i landed up in their sickbay. haha fell straight asleep. when i returned to the school again the next day, the principal, i repeat, PRINCIPAL, asked me if i was sabai-sabai (relaxed, or well in english). i was told that whenever a student is unwell, the whole school knows about it and will pray in unity for that person. great isn't it?

we went to church with the children too. some of us helped out in the sunday school, but i was no involved. i stayed in the adult service. it was a good message about strengthening the church, but all of us were really tired so it was hard to stay focused. miss lee was very cute. the pastor had told us to turn to the book of acts and she was still looking at the book of john, which was the verse the pastor had told us to refer too like 3 verses ago! haha, she was blinking furiously... that's how tired she was... haha...

well, i prayed for the children there. some of the children have such sad stories. some are true orphans whose parents died when they were at such a young tender age. others have been abandoned, and some were even found roaming around by themselves at a temple! a few of the children's parents are in jail for drug trafficking too. life imprisonment it is said, the the rainbow covenant had to care for them. your heart can't help but go out to them. love is a universal language, miss gan told us. i pray that God's love and our own shined through us and bless them. makes you think twice right? whenever i see my parents now, i stop to think how fortunate i am to have such loving parents who care for me in their own unique way. sigh, i declare right here that i love my daddy and mummy, and i thank God from the bottom of my heart for them!

i love you daddy and mummy! thank you for everything! i could ask for no better parents! =)

Bangkok

now the last final 3 days of the trip. we went to bangkok to... yup you guessed it! SHOP! we stayed in the bangkok christian guest house. haha... it would be my first and last time shopping til i drop, literally. also my first and last time i buyan actual FULL BAG of things! it's not one of those small bags either, it's those medium sized bags. i surprised myself and my group haha. okay, so those things were gifts and stuff for my parents, but hey, it's not bad coming from louie, the one who rarely buys things, to the extent of never. haha... i got some tees too, haha, they were christmas presents from basia and julie... why? the tees did not fit them but fit me... -_- sigh... sad isn't it? but thanks guys... the thought was sweet! =) you realised something yet? all the tees are FREE SIZE!~thai people are so tiny... or skinny... haha... oh ya, i bought a mickey mouse tee too... actually it was a group thing. haha, aud's group bought elmo tees, and were the elmo gang. so my groups was the m and m gang! haha the mickey mouse gang! haha... the things we come up with. i spent most of my money on food... heh... couldn't resist the sausages. maybe that's how my stomache overturned. in total, i bought a pair of sandals originally for myself as my own were falling apart (doesn't fit me very well so i passed it on to my mum which it fits likes a glove, or shoe), a tissue packet pouch for mum again, bedroom slippers for mum yet again, and "dog shit"or "tampons" (it's actually pork/chicken floss compressed into a long form which looks like dog shit and such. that's what the thais call it. heh) for my mum again! my mum had a long "to-buy"list. we went to church again on sunday! it was really grand. took holy communion and all. it was my first time taking the bread chip with actual RED WINE. felt kinda drunk but maybe it was just my imagination. hospitality was at it's best there. we had lunch (spaghetti) and the libarian there even GAVE me a book when he saw me reading one with interest. he actually asked me to rent it, but i told him i was a visitor and would be going back to singapore soon. i would have no means to return the book if i rented it. when i walked outside, he ran after me with the book and told me that as i liked it so much, he'll give it to me and find a way to replace it. such a sweet man right? thank you Lord for such kind people in the world.

well that's about it i guess...this mission trip is my first and it was a great experience. i have learnt a lot from this trip and... i am so going to write a letter to my suwisa right now!

me and suwisa!! my kid! =) she loves to hold my hand... adorable sweet girl...

everyone at rainbow convenant! =) with banner too... the children helped to paint the rainbow!

din and don (siblings, not quite sure who is who)

wah these two arh, stressful piang! they've got such great stamina adn run like the wind! extremely playful and cheeky boys too! the one in green calls me "LOUEI LOUIE" all teh time for apparently no reason at all, and he gets a kick out of making me run and perspire as i chase after him for stealing my shoes, right from under my feet while i'm standing!

the purple one is slightly less active. SLIGHTLY i emphasize. his way is putting on this innocent face tehn charging with vengence towards his victim and starts tickling her without mercy. somehow all these children enjoy tickling each other and chasing each other through the house and into the fields. sigh... i feel tired just thinking about our race on the last day!

but they're lovely kids. i wish i could go back to tickle them back once again! =)

kan chit

haha he's a dear... kinda small for his age though. he's primary five, but a real playful boy. on the last day, he constantly crept up behind me to tickle, or rather POKE my ribs real hard, in the hopes that i'd run after him and take revenge. of course i did that, and we all screamed with laughter. he runs really fast. can you imagine, juliana, samantha AND me, with suwisa as our grand planner to trap him, took 10 minutes to catch him? wow!

natee and suwisa (siblings)

natee is cute!! he goes "heh heh heh" all the time and we can't help but errupt in splits of laughter all the time! haha heh heh heh

haha i'm bias towards suwisa... a wonderful angel she is... she can be very fierce although she is one of the younger ones in teh orphanage. she spoke to my defence many a time, and helped me out in settling down the older ones. fantastic eh? =)

yupin and kan chit (siblings)

really great kids... all very playful... yupin has a very sweet girly smile

the kids

we're on our way to the market nearby! haha

suwisa and tanya

sigh they're adorable little ones. suwisa's my kid, while tanya's julie's kid. haha one can't help cuddling them the minute you set eyes on their child-like faces... =) they're actually sitting on a home made hammock whichcannot, and i repeat CANNOT, fit both julie and me. we nearly fell off attempting it. it was just nice for suwisa and me, for tanya and julie though. haha... both of us together are too fat for the hammock. behind it as you can see, is a tree. there's a tree hosue on top but it's not very safe. the children there are very agile and they can actually scamper up trees in matter of seconds without aid. scary... when you see it with your own eyes

25th to 28th november

11th annual camp

gosh this was one tiring but satisfying camp. it felt like everything was run by my batch... aud and sam were oderlys for the first two days. julie and me were next. it was as if we never slept! haha we were groups leaders, as well as in charge for the day too. sam and i were in bugalow 13 while julie and aud were in bungalow 7 (aloha loyang) i was the camp nurse can... haha felt so weird... anyway..........................

25th - (aud orderly, sam assisstant orderly) went to school in the morning! had to access the sec 1 GB girls in drill... it was sam and my first time in really acting as drill instructors and accessing the girls. aud was the commander... haha really cute. i panicked at one point of time as i couldn't find my wallet. i was unsure if it was in my old house or new house! aud and sam actually accompanied me home to the old house to look for it, but to no avail. when i got back to school, i found the wallet in my camping bag. -_- fed up. i knew i packed it in but i don't know why i couldn't see it the first time round. sigh my eyes are going. oh ya, we had our bbq on the first day. haha pai seh, my group kinda made a rubbish fire but we were the first to finish up all our food! way to go diligence. we're diligent indeed! haha... okay can't quite remember what happened on the first day.

26th - (sam orderly, aud assisstant orderly) whoa i remember that this day was pretty hectic. sam was real busy adn we were afraid we couldn't wake up in the morning! haha... had to use ms lee's hp as an alarm. okay again can't remember details but devotion was great! and the speaker was good. he played games with us which helped to keep us a little awake. hee. aud was busy i think, so i helped sam out a little. teamwork yeah! =) if i'm not wrong, poor elisa had a bad fall during this day. it was quite bad, and liting and me had to run voer to do our nurse duties! had to use ice bags and all... sigh...

27th - (louie orderly, julie assisstant oderly) ohhhh MY DAY! i remember i was darn nervous for QT. i'm not very confident in leading it... so i think i discussed it with sam the night before. jumped out of bed in the morning for 5BX (morning exercise) but it felt as if i did not sleep a wink. sam and i were so scared we used as many hps alarms as we could plus the alrams of watches. haha worked though. julie was pretty busy with her kitchen work (quater mistress) so sam helped me out. love her so much. thanks sweetie! the speaker for that day was realy funny... as in she talked about marriage and kids and stuff. kinda far off but nonetheless, we sure learnt a lot about being a noble woman yeah? had an interesting recre game with straws. had to use a straw and suck paper, then bring it to across to the other side of the room. goodness, my team was so out of breath haha. basia was so cute! rebecca too! those two were the joy of the group. sun was my second i/c for group, so she took over the gorup for that day as i was busy with the day's events. she did a great job! love my sunshine! hee =) jolene had a very drama accident too right? thank goodness it was minor yeah, no problem =)

oh yeah, the special night event was on this day too! a royal ball! haha there was a royal fall too. poor rebecca nvm yeah? louie still loves you. everyone looked real grand that day. food was wonderful too! haha princessess! avril looked beautiful.... sigh... i wore this black blouse thing with a thai-looking long skirt (considering i was going to go to thailand), but i did not wear heels. so i looked real short. everyone else wore heels! the tall looked even taller!!! argh! kept tripping over my skirt too, and it was so hot! all of us were perspiring like luo tang ji! thank goodness for the ah ma fan the speaker of that day gave us. danced after that, and had this meaningless round of fun, but it was funny... =)

28th - (julie orderly, louie assisstantly orderly) oh gosh by this day, all of us were dying. we were pooped! haha... even with all the alarms and stuff, i very nearly forgot to wake up! haha, but when i did, whoa panicked! flew out of the door and blew my whistle... haha... it is quite funny now actually, thinking back about it... anyway, our last day of camp. we packed up, did all our area cleaning and headed back to the school. by then, i was talking a whole lot of gibberish so got my timing all mixed up when i was getting ready to go home. sigh embarrassing.

well, that's about it. when i came home had to unpack, wash and prepare for my thailand GB mission trip on the first december! sigh... busy busy kid...