yuck

murder me... a good way to start would be taking off my head first cause that's the part which isn't working.

ECONOMICS

this subject is so so scary... haha... supply... demand... market... aiyiyi!

cool!!!

so far lessons are pretty easy!!! =) i'm loving it...

math quiz was like haha, kinda funny... he was explaining to us how to get the answers DURING the quiz, that in the end, he might just as well tell us the answers too. majority of us had full marks for it... 5/5... it was about the limit of X... i hope math continues to be nice...

music too! again, most of us had 25/25 for the quiz... cool eh? i'm like grinning idiotically to myself... i had 24/25 for my assignment too.. now why didn't i get 25? haha wanted to ask her, but dare not appear too, hmm... kan chiong? hmm...

anyway, english so far, has been OKAY... we had english quiz too but i'm not very sure how i would fare for this one. i was well, falling asleep during the test, so i scribbled all my answers at the last minute. it was boring... so well, i'll do better the next time...

econs is ridiculous. our teacher is from Bangladash. his accent is like WHOA... have to strain to understand him, let alone HEAR him... to me, he sounds like he has marbles wrapped in cotton wool in his mouth... sheesh... i've got to study real hard for econs if i want to do well...

Lord, give me strength... =)

bored

evidently, i am a little too free and since i have nothing to do, i decided to be itchy and finally change my layout. how can anyone change their templates so many times? i nearly drove myself nuts editing all the stuff inside...

i'm never going to change it again. besides, i got a headache trying to find a layout i like. haha, i'm fussy... now all i have to do is figure out how to find that energy to change this whole thing back to the original template. this one is kinda small, and if i get impatient and tired reading it, others will be too right? okay i'm babbling again...

i'm off! =)

18th May 2006

you know jane? a friend i made in SIM? yeah! her birthday was on 15th may! we walked to ngee ann poly to eat, and someone gave her flowers! happy 20th birthday girl!!

right now i am waiting for angel to sms me so i will know what time to call her. this is so exciting! we're all going to the MI carnival!! haha, i can't find my coupons though, my 10 bucks worth of coupons. allow me to repeat that again... TEN DOLLARS WORTH!! sigh haha

woke jovin up at 7am today... she sounded so sleepy. i woke up so early, why? so as to earlier than audrey! haha, i walked really fast towards dover mrt station and met gracelynn there. wahahaha i WAS earlier than miss hing! =) (smiles real big) math was boring today, everyone was falling asleep. as cute as mr syed was

"I am Mr. Syed, you can call me Mr. Syed"
"There will be a mid term exam, which means middle of the term"
"This is a straight line, which means a line that is straight."
"Do you know what is a short cut? it means to make the working shorter."
"In A square, the thing flying up there is the power."
"You must MASSAGE the equation to simplify it."
"Infinity is when the graph goes through the wall, up the ceiling, down the grave and etc."

his pace is soooo slow! to the extent of being boring! i guess i shoudln't complain so much though, cause maybe later the pace will pick up and you will not see me blog so much... haha.. elizabeth, gracelynn, audrey and i decided to play bingo... -.- it's a really fun game though haha i'm hooked!!

english was pretty okay, i sat by myself cause there's wasn't enough seats for me and my friends in a row. poor me haha! well mix around a little mroe i guess. i jsut realised how different i am from everyone else though. elizabeth and krystal were talking about well, shopping for gifts and seventeen magazine etc, i was lost. scary, i better start to make more friends... haha

met up with jonathan and kenneth outside the bathroom. they're really ncie... =) kenneth told me my jacket with the hood reminded me of his jc days whereby they would throw all their rubbish into the hood's of others... scary... haha, i'm wary of him now... gotta be careful when i wear my jacket...

went off to work with jovin, herman and gary today.. laughed a lot over nothing... don't ask... haha

that's about it i guess... =)

13th May 2006

today was such a weird day!! haha

jovin, herman and i went on strike!! haha we thought we had a slot in the working list of starhub ( we work part time there), but it turns out that we were not included in that list, thus we decided to camp out at jovin's place instead, to STUDY... yes i repeat, STUDY... this is for herman's sake only... that cute fella didn't even bring books of any sort, he was prepared only to play basketball (xbox) with jovin's brother, roy. jovin was solving her poa questions and i was revising my math... yuck... "the limit of x... etc" i've got a math quiz on that this coming tuesday! arghhh! haha can you feel the pressure? haha

so anyway... jovin and i were distracted halfway so we decided to play a little, a few shooting and racing games... haha, obviously my aiming was terrible. i was shooting the trees, the sky, the walls, the floor... everything... except the bad guys... -.- shoot me... haha ah well nvm, it was all for fun. by then, it was around 6 plus, and i had completed all my stuff. jovin tried to find something for herman and me to do. she played this chinese vcd of jolin tsai (i think that's her name) and it was hilarious! i know i know, you're all wondering how i understood anything... OKAY! all right! so i had a little help, fine A LOT. herman and jovin translated everything into english for me. herman kept saying my personality is like jolin, blur and innocent. hmmph... for me it's one ear in and one ear out. haha... jovin had to eat her dinner at 6.45 so herman i continued to be engrossed in the movie...

by 7.15pm, we were ready to head out to tiong bahru to buy cakes for mother's day! haha my dear mummy, i love her... =) we travelled by train, and since i herman and i were starving, we ate at kfc. HERMAN FINALLY MADE A DECISION! he was the one to decide where we would eat... he's always telling us "anything" you see... i ate the "WOW" meal, shroom's burger. haha, of course i was hungry later, but that's where the cake comes in.. ;) since we had time to kill, we walked around tiong bahru plaza... interesting... before we headed off, we took pictures, that sticker thing again. haha jovin likes to take those, for memories. it was terrible haha, but ah well...

sooo HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY mummy!!!

Poem

i won't let go...by Raquel

I won't let go
'till I see Your face
I won't let go
when all turn dull and earth fades
I won't let go
even when I'm suppressed by pressures
I won't let go
of your hand, that held me through......all my life.

I speak
and only wish to speak by the Holy Spirit.
I sing
and sing a worship from a purified heart.
I smile
and smile only because
Your wonders reminds me of You
and I stand
and stand for the Gospel that guides the lost.

cool isn't it? haha =)

new friends =)

people listen up!

i've got an important announcement to make!!

haha i've made new friends in SIM! a whole lot too! i've been kinda laggy in updating this thing so i'm only telling you about them now... actually it's really thanks to audrey... =) thanks girl... i've made friends with all the girls in her orientation group! they're so cool! haha

there's jia zhen (she's 16 too yippee!), there's gracelynn (straight from GCE "o" levels too), crystal, jane (communications yay!) and stephanie (she's christine's friend, cjc). haha they're a cool bunch. along with them, i came to know elizabeth! raymond's in my english class so he goes into the list too! wel that's about it i guess...

oh yeah, i came to know 3 more people on the way back to dover on thurs afternoon. can't really remember their names except for one girl, veronica (vicky). oops sorry... they were at the bus stop with elizabeth and me you see. cool... maybe i can get to know everyone in UB! =)

ub/sim orientation

ookay... so the orientation for my university at buffalo thing is over... 2 days! thank goodness audrey was with me, jami accompanied us there the first day. had butterflies in my stomach. haha... too bad aud wasn't in the same orientation group as me... sniff

on the first day which was 4th may, we had a talk by the student care services. they're the ones who will be looking after our welfare and stuff while we are full time students in Singapore Institute of Management (SIM). games was next, and guess what? we went over to sentosa!! -.-

my group was well.. pretty pathetic haha. there were four girls, kolila (22 years old, she's from shs by the way, netball haha), amy (18 years old, she smokes), christine (18 years old, catholic jc) and me (louie from shs) haha... amy had a swollen ankle and is allergic to grass, thus she went home and did not go along with us to sentosa. for the boys, my, nearly every single one of them had completed their national service already! some even had their driving license. okay, so i'm a little slow, but it did come to a shock to me that everyone was well, older than me! i expected around 5 to come straight from their "o" levels. but thank goodness, at LEAST there's one juy, julius (maris stellar), he's 16 too! haha woot!

well anyway, in the end, my group 4 mates narrowed down to only a few people by the time we reached sentosa. there were kokila, christine, juius, jie long (ah long or JL), jonathan (jonnie), lloyd (cool name eh), and of course myself!! sheesh, one of the smallest groups!

we played spider web, captain's ball, some soccer thing (violent game!! julius agreed with me, we played side by side, haha okay so he played, i basically avoided the ball. it was painful and sand was flying into my eyes haha), some running game, built a sandcastle (the name of our sandcastle was "out of nothing" haha! good one lloyd! haha! you should have seen our sandcastle! it was well, just a mountain of sand! haha!!) there was a really dirty and wet game called mine field (you can probably guess what happens, when you step on a mine, water and flour is poured over your head) but my group members (especially the girls) did not want to play that. sigh... they seem well, a little funless but then again, it was pretty hot out there. =)

so later, kokila left first. next was lloyd and julius. jie long, jonnie, chris and me stayed behind. we decided to be guai and at least give our group a little dignity, that we're still alive in sentosa. however, well, our pride gave way and we humbly left for home. i was so tired!! i was rpactically sleepwalking. we boarded the sentosa bus and headed for harbour front. chris took a bus home from there, while jonnie, jie long and i took the train. jonnie was going to a friend's house so he stopped off at dhoby ghout, too bad otherwise he would usually stop at clementi, he could have accompanied me home!! grrr... haha... jie long's in pasir ris! poor guy, so far! so well, we stopped at outram and met a cute lady who asked for directions to bugis. she followed jie long home, and i went in the opposite direction. -.- i fall asleep and woke up in boon lay... i should have listened to jie long! he told me not to fall asleep and miss my stop! well jonnie and jie long laugehd at me the next day when they heard i missed my stop.. -.-

2nd day of orientation was worse. i kept nodding off... sheesh... the resident director was well, he had a very nice voice, lullaby voice. haha nothing much really... it was just talks and talks and talks...............

and that concludes my exciting orientation

tooth fairy

awww i'm sad...

it's dumb really but i'm feeling so sore... i was so hyper today, my dog lost her first tooth! i thought i'd keep it together with my baby teeth, but there was a lot of blood on it so i bleached it in a cup. i put the cup at the side of the kitchen baisin, and my dad happened to be there. i told him not to touch the cup, pebble's tooth is inside.

next thing i knew, half hour later, the cup was in the drainer and the tooth gone.

so i don't know, i'm just feeling real lousy... as if i've lost something... weird huh... don't mind me... it must be the hormones...

what's the world coming to?!

i'm angry... i'm pissed, i'm piqued... any other words that come to your mind?

i can't sleep. it's a nightmare.

i was pretty happy this afternoon as i made my way down to woodlands to meet alfred and jovin for work. we're promoting cable tv and maxonline (internet service) for starhub by the way, so if you are interested, you know who to call... =) haha anyway as i was going down the escalator i met so many GB girls! and THEN i saw 34th's very own sec 2s! haha was so happy, didn't realised how much i miss them.

BUT.... BUT... from then on, my mood went downhill. tell me, where's the love and concern HUMANS are SUPPOSED to have for one another? i mean, isn't it common sense, or simply a thought from the heart?

i was joking around with alfred, leaning against a pillar at the mrt station. we were waiting for jovin. a stick hit my foot. i turned around. a blind indian man apologised. he was trying to find his way around. i was wondering if i should offer my assistance but was unsure how to go about it, so i waited a little while. meanwhile, this poor man was using his stick and hitting everyone in sight, no pun intended. majority of the HUMANS around moved away to avoid being hit, while others just "tsked" the man for tripping them up. they are actually annoyed with him and tsked him!!!! it's extremely appalling!

at the passenger service corner, an indian woman was sitting at the couter of the control station. there was a man behind her too. i absolutely CANNOT figure out WHY, not one of them could not have offered their arm to the blind man? i mean, they were just sitting there!! i remember VERY clearly that a while back, the newspapers featured a section on helping the blind or something like that. they highlighted two events in which one, a young malay boy consistently helping 2 blind women order food at a coffee stall, and two, a man working at the interchange helping a blind person find his way to the bus, or something along those lines. so what's with that article, or does no one read the newspapers?

fine, i couldn't stand it anymore, so while carrying a heavy sling bag and a folderble stand (for roadshows) under one arm, i awkwardly offered my arm to the blind man. he needed to go to the bus interchange where he had to take bus 963 to bukit panjang for work. the most incredulous thing? his work is door-to-door sales, and i thought i had it bad. this guy faces more rejections than i do! he explained to me that many people banged the door in his face and stick (he sells chocolates btw) and some people actually made fun of him. what is wrong with people these days? this man does not need pity, but he does have a heart, and a mind. so treat him with a little respect people. he may need a little help in getting around, so what? we have arms and legs, is it that difficult to go up to him and say "hi, may i help you?"

and.... i was doing my roadshow yet again today, guess what? i was told to "screw myself", and to "f_ _ _k a spider". wow! a simple no would have been sufficient enough, awww come on, i'm just a kid. smile, pat me on the back, reject me with a polite no, and you would still have made me a happy kid. but noooooooooo, my dear fellow singaporeans, whom now i'm ashamed to call homo sapiens, told me to play with a spider!!!!!

i am so mad, plain mad. what's that song? "just a little kidness" etc. obviously nothing has gone through these people's heads... i'm truly embarrassed... and MAD!!! fuming!!!

now i can't sleep... i was thinking, that man was following the raised line in mrt stations for the blind, but unfortunately it leads only to the mrt station. how about the government do something nice for us and make one that goes to the interchange? i didn't know where bus 963 was, but the minute we reached the interchange, the man knew exactly where to turn. i just guided him through. so how about it huh? a line towards the interchange?

enrolment service 2006

my body clock is all wrong... in fact, my entire system is wrong. i can't sleep at night. and i always wake up early, so i feel so tired during the day. YET when night comes around again, i can't sleep. sigh... my big beautiful brown eyes are beginning to look small and black... haha okay, i'm exaggerating and making my eyes sound more attractive. haha okay not the point.

well anyway, i slept at around 2.30am last night, and i had to wake up at 4am!! (arise, go forth!!!!) one and a half hours of sleep... not good, not good at all... i woke up with a funny itch in my throat, and i sounded like a strangled mosquito in the morning... ever heard the mosquitos calling each other with that eeee sound? yeah i sounded something like this... "eEeeEeEEEeeE" horrible... haha but after drinking lots of water, ah yes... haha much better. oh yeah, i really have to complain about the water cooler in the canteen. it is a MENACE i tell you, a TOTAL DANGER to everyone. i every single time i drank from there, my tie got caught, and i was half choked. it is so unglam to have water shooting up your nose and more water spluttering out of your mouth... haha okay i will stop being so long winded...

anyway, my whole batch was promoted! pretty cool eh? sam and i were talking on the phone, and we were prepared not to receive anything as we believed once we supposedly took leave from GB, our attendance was kaput! but ah well, God works wonders... AND the best thing was, everyone in the whole pbb gang 2005 was present to receive the plague together! how cool is that? haha did i mention i love those people?

oh oh and for the D.I.R.T guys... haha COOL! my julie, and carol! haha they deserve it really, they do... i'm proud of them... haha beginning to feel old, like a mother... for the D.I.R.T team (squad) wah sammie!!! haha, poor aud and me. haha, ever since we were in sec 1, we've been telling each other, okay, next year next year ESTHER will receive that award, and we did work towards it you know. sigh, we can next year next year til the next century... nvm congrats to hannah all the same! haha may the best squad win! esther will get you some day, hannah! julie was displaying the dirt team award in the GB room, and i was thinking "the plague had NO esther!!! haha in that case, cannot display" anyway, the shelf was not cleaned yet so haha they took it down... haha

mr chiang was present too! spoke to him a little and as usual, he enjoys teasing people about the dirt award. i'm the old dirt, while julie and carol are the new dirt. -.- lunch was good too... haha the dumpling was nice! however, the ones mdm li makes are nicer... haha

did i mention jolene? she was the usher for mrs foo, the guest speaker and principal of st. hilda's primary... haha she was really cute! she practically RAN to usher mrs foo and just stuck out her hand akwardsly... haha... godo thing jolene saw the funny side of it too and was not worried that we were laughing...

talked to mrs koh a little too... she looks taller and seems to have lost weight... maybe it's the children... haha i hear children are a bundle of joy but are also a handful, so maybe she has her hands a little full... she asked me about sim and ngee ann... haha... well as i've said before i'm going to go to sim, no one is going to confuse me anymore... haha except myself that is... =)

on to the church service. it was cool! i'm always revived again whenever i go for service. i'm feel alive!! =) sermon was good too, it talked about getting to know God personally, and having a relationship with him, and not just "acting" as a good christian... gotta reflect on that and my life...

okay i'm talking to too many people at the same time, so i've lost my trend of thought. i think i have more to tell you about, but..... maybe another time yeah? for now... God bless and good night =)

WOW tough

oh my goodness gracious GOSH!!!

i just studied my school's timetable and THIS IS CRAZY!!!

i'm studying 4 subjects (microeconomics, english, music and math) for 4 months, and then there'll be a final EXAM at the end of it all?! it's really a subject per month and then WHAM an examination!

ON MY BIRHDAY TOO!!!!

sheesh, you know when i was young and small, i proudly used to say "my birthday is ALWAYS a holiday..." haha that's because in school, 9th august is a national day right? so the next day, 10th august, my birthday, is automatically a school holiday too!! AND NOW...

i've got a "survey of algebra and trigonometry" (not my favourite subject either) final exam?

bring on the stress and anxiety man...

tell me again why i've dropped mass communications in ngee ann polytechnic to go to SIM?

ah yes, to get a headstart in life... well obviously i'll have to actually PASS my exams first.. oh dear dear me... (heaves a BIG sigh)

ah well i'll worry about that later... meanwhile, i've got my piano exam coming up! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

oh some good news =) i've let my gorf go (ex-pet frog) and it's hopping and alive! =) i think it's going to start it's own family cause i hear more croaking now... more than one frog around obviously... hope it doesn't lay it's eggs in the swimming pool that's all i can say... =) i'll miss it... but i think the "wilderness" is better for it right? haha

another pet

haha i've got my own frog! as a pet! it's currently residing in a wok... or it could be a frying pan but that's not the point... the point is, it's my VERY OWN FROGGIE! haha

i was training my dog downstairs, at the golf course thing there... and i nearly stepped on this real tiny greenish grey thing on the ground... my dog was squirming so i passed her to my mum and bent down to look, BOING it jumped into my shirt... EEK! wow i've never ran so fast in my entire life, it gave me a fright! as amelia would say, good thing i've got a strong heart, with armour...

haha happy! i think i shall name this little fella hmm... how about frog? haha how original right? okay gorf? sounds weird... but well okay... i learnt this tactic from junxian... haha okay that shall be it's name..

presenting, gorf, the frog!! hey wait a minute, how about kermit? NAH, too corny... okay gorf it is! =)

ow ow OW!!

well my title says it all...

OW OW OW OW OW!!!

this weekend has been the craziest and most painful weekend ever!! my arms are aching so badly from yesterday's drill! and mind you we didn't do a lot... maybe it was the tension in my arms and the lack of practice... haha opps... my back too! haha okay fine, so i obviously slouch a lot so when i had to force my back to be straight during drill... the after effects are apparent now... sigh... and my dog! my dear pet doggie, just bit me in the leg... very loyal indeed. she bit the hand that feeds her! dumb dog... haha don't ask me why i still love her... the cut will not stop bleeding so i needed stitches... ridiculous... sigh... my leg smarts... nvm ignore me, i'm just being a baby =) i was all drama mama just now at the doctor's... of course i thought that i would have to amputate my leg and all that... haha silly me... as usual... okay back to the point...

let me enlighten you on the state visit thing...

the state visit of prince philip, was yesterday and my such a long LONG day! i slept at 2 am cause i was fussing around with my boots... it looked so dull to me. and then i woke up at 4am. why? my kong kong was lost somewhere in holland village so i had to look for him and bring him home. he left his stuff at a friend's place which is at HOU GANG mind you... HOU KANG... and then i had to submit my resignation letter at bishan where i was supposed to work at... BISHAN... so i thought to myself, sinc ei'm up i might as well change into my GB uniform and stuff since i had to meet julie at pasir ris at 9.45am... sigh had 2 hours of sleep and a cup of milo, then off to meet the prince i went...

oh my the train was SO crowded!! i was hot and boiling... literally and figuritively... picture this

"ding dong... outram part interchange." bom bom bom [everyone rushing out of the door and in the process stepping on MY BOOTS! MY POLISHED BOOTS!!!]

"ding dong... raffles place interchange." piak piak piak [everyone running out of the door and AGAIN, stepping on my already marked previously POLISHED BOOTS!!!]

"ding dong... city hall itnerchange." scratch scratch step [everyone pushing their way out and YET AGAIN!!! my BOOTS were scratched, abused and oh goodness SPOILT!!!]

ooooooo i was MAD!!! sigh furthermore, i had been standing ever since i was on the train and i was really tired by the time i had a seat which was like at tanah merah INTERCHANGE. by then, my boots were totally gone. boy do i dislike interchange-s... anyway i couldn't be bothered with anyone so i stuck my backside on the pink seat, not even caring that it was PINK or othering to look for the green ones like i always do, took out my cloth and kiwi, and started polishing my poor battered boots. of course, my shoe bag took up one seat, my gigantic bag another, and myself with my folded legs, 2 seats. i was really grumpy and the next eprson who even came close to 10 cm within my boots, i would have smacked them.

anyway, somehow or other, i arrived at the station at 10am, and julie arrived at 10.25! OH NO! the plan was to meet up with jac at her place at 10am, and meet the rest at tampines at 11am!! so we rushed to get a cab... meanwhile we were standing at a taxi stand where 'cottage pie' was... so julie and i bought miss gan and the girls a chicken pie each... in case they were hungry... it tasted real good =) yum yum

well we met up with carol and aud (her eyes are so big!! and she's taken off her braces! nice hee), but erm, we kinda lost miss gan... opps... we were on bus 10 and she said she'll take a cab and chase us, cause we were unsure of where to off... haha funny... so we FINALLY arrived at our destination... NOT... we were at the esplanade but the state visit's at the cenotaph, esplanade path!! but everyone was there anyway haha... miss gan fussed over the GB girls uniform, the bb boys ventured eagerly towards the girls' washroom til miss gan stopped them the ncdcc guys arrived and silly gary was there too... acting mr oh so big cause he's a cadet inspector... well i say to you, so what so squat? haha =) he's cute lar... [did you know what he told me today? he said that ncdcc is the only ug which distinguishes officers from cadets... why? cause officers have JACKETS... like who cares? haha i was snorting to myself all the way home when i saw the sms]

well okay on to the guard of honour itself. guess what? i didn't see the duke the first time round! -.- haha why? cause i thought it was a rehearsal and i didn't know it was the real thing!! we were arranged by order of height first, and of course, i was the first right thanks... we formed teams in which everyone was from a differnt ug. within each team we were further arranged according to our ccas in alphabetical order... i was standing next to whatshisname, the head of bb, samuel of something like that... that's cause boys' brigade comes first followed by girls' brigade... i know him lar thanks... same school... his smile was similar to a grimace and mine was probably no better. haha but nvm. and as i've told you, we went through a short rehearsal and i didn't know that the second time round it was the real thing! sigh... anyway the sun was in our eyes so i couldn't see very well... i was melting over there all right? gosh! but it was an experience... =) although i must admit it didn't feel grand at all, it was just... an experience... the girl guides were hilarious too... they kept pointing to out badges and asking what they were, and one girl commented on our boots "wah mirror arh mirror! who needs a mirror arh, can use this" haha we were laughing... it was hilarious, and oh yeah, the nametag they gave us for identification is beautiful! it's a CLOTH sticker nametag... how cool can that be? haha i still have it... i pasted it on my wallet =)

anyway the best part of it all? it was the WATER and haha, gary passed out. or rather to him, he "lost vision", which to me is the same thing. haha okay so i'm evil but since he was beaming his weird little cheeky grin at me little i figured hey no worries he's fine. as always. haha... i KNEW IT! he said he had little sleep and did not eat much, and i so guessed it! see? who's the pro... haha... see lar gary... you always call me "weak", now what have you got to say for yourself, when i had such a small breakfast and no lunch myself? not to mention little sleep too? sigh gary gary, have i proved my point now? AND to think he still wanted to call out "loisa! why are you still a sergeant?" during the reception. good thing he was distracted by food, that nut. anyway what's wrong with a sergeant? i'm loving it... at least i don't have to wear a JACKET... sometimes gary just makes me go nuts...

well after the entire thing was over, aud left with miss gan to head for home. that aud abandoned us! haha she had a bbq going on in the evening you see... meanwhile jac, julie, carol and me had to rush back to tampines to eat... why? cause we had to attend S.N.O.W!! speedlight night of worship and gosh was God ever with us! it was powerful man, pure powerful and united! we were hyper and totally on ecstacy! haha at first, i had a really big headache as we didn't have much for dinner, and i was feeling pretty sick already... but the minute the service started, everyone was on their feet praising the one and only Saviour and i felt His presence, so of coruse all of us started lifting our hands and jumping on our feet... dancing and kneeling even!! =) we were indeed unified...

cool! i just love Jesus more and more...

*i keep falling in love in with You, over and over and, over and over again, i keep falling in love with You, over and over and, over and over again,
it gets sweeter and sweeter as the days go by,
o what love between my Lord and i,
i keep falling in love with You, over and over and, over and over again...*

=)

-time wasted-

sigh sigh sigh

i wasted the whole afternoon today... i'm so sore about it!! friends and i had plans of going to the escape theme park today... i've never been there so i badly wanted to go. however, an interview popped up today, 2pm at tanjong pagar maxell house... thus i decided to forgo fun day as it's ridiculous for me to travel to

pasir ris (escape) ----- tanjong pagar (interview) ----- pasir ris (escape) ----- buona vista (home)

so sigh, nvm, the thought of a prospective flyers job spurred me on! actually at the back of my mind, i was wondering why would we need to go for an interview if all we had to do was distribute flyers? weird eh, but anyway jovin and i headed there... had a talk to amelia on the way and lucky girl, she had her treat!! (a bet made should she watch the movie final destination, and let me warn you, it's a totally gruesome and scary movie)

well everythign was delayed as jovin's medical check up was pushed forward to 1.30, therefore we only reached the interview venue at 2.30pm

BUT

when we arrived there, the office was locked! we gave the interviewer a call, and yeah very funny, he was caught up with stuff. so in total we conversed three times, and each time he said that he would either clal me back in 20 minutes, or he would arrive at the office in half hour. the only reason we bothered to wait for him was because the ad in the classifieds said we would be paid 8 bucks per hour!!

well what a con! the whole thing was a huge con scheme! guess what it's really 300 flyers for 3 dollars! piang, all that waiting for nothing. by the way, he arrived only at 5.45pm. clever eh? sigh... i could have gone for my escape outing... and ended my day with a huge smile on my face... =(

maybe i'll go make some peanut butter sandwich. bought a jumbo loaf and skippy peanut butter on my way home just now... THAT would bring my spirits up!! see? just thinking about that squishy sandwich makes me grin like... like a... oh no! a GLUT! haha oh well, who cares?? haha =)

MURDERER!!

oh goodness gracious gosh! i finally killed my poor pal, liz and the lizard!! it's been stuck on my beautiful green curtains for the past one week so i've been talking to it every night. when i was angry yesterday, i yelled and verbally abused it too... thank goodness it doesn't understand human english... but all the same, i've actually become quite fond of liz...

however my murder instinct came up when it dropped on MY FACE the night before while i was asleep... it tried to share the bed covers with me.. and to do that, you must get permission from louie first!! so ta da uh oh, into the plastic bag it goes, down the toilet bowl it flounders, and then up to heaven it flies!! by the way, how does one tell the difference between a female and male lizard? or are lizards bisexual?

nah i'm not that mean lar... i let it down in my rubbish chute... cause i really couldn't stand another night of flicking tails on my nose, and besides, my dog was really fascinated with it and kept trying to eat it. thus i have to protect my little doggie from food poisoning right? =)

i still have to ask for forgiveness though, cause liz might have died on it's way down the chute... *shivers*

oh no i'm a murderer! i knowingly put poor liz in harm!! =(

okay i'll open up the chute... maybe she didn't fall though, maybe, just MAYBE she's in the ledge or something... =) let me check, will be back in jsut a while...

GOOD NEWS PEOPLE! i have just retrieved liz from the rubbish chute! she's up and healthy... =) i think it's forgiven me cause it ate the pork floss i put inside the jar... it's in the jar too obviously... i'm going to keep liz... =) maybe she'll make good friends with pebbles, but first, i'll have to train the dog not to eat lizards... or anything that moves for that matter... hmmm...

11th March 2006

okay a pattern is forming... do you realise that i only update this blog thing only when i'm free or am real bored, or rather whenever i have nothing on the next day? as can be seen, i have not updated this for quite some time so guess what? i've been working! a real job! haha telemarketing that is... boy do you meet some real annoying people, and you just want to throw these humans out of the window... on the other hand, there are nice considerate people out there in the world who do not scream at you in hokkien but instead, reject you politely and honestly. they do not waste your time by telling you they'll think about it when they obviously do not want it anymore, cause otherwise i'll have to follow up with them and it's really a waste of breath and brain energy, not to mention time and money in making the calls.

i've been feeling very old lately, probably cause now i have to dress up a little more...

skirts, blouses, shirts, pants, HEELS a must, hair down, contact lenses...

you name it! i feel like a loUisa now, not a loisa. somehow it makes a difference with the U inside, it feels more grownup, more feminine, i don't know. [haha i'm beginning to talk to myself, yeah yeah, i know you're tuning out]

ah yes back to the point. i've been feeling old, not early twenties that kind of old, but a little more like in the eighties. haha, that's probably because my feet hurt, my head hurts, i feel like i am suffering from athiritis, and i think maybe dibeties too, at the rate i'm going with the sweets. i have to munch on something while talking you see, otherwise i'll go nuts and bang the phone down on the floor. [and no, i do not sound like i have marbles in my mouth although i suck on sweets as i talk to THE potential, NOT, clients]

sigh my contract has ended anyway, so i was supposed to go for another job near bugis area with a friend i met in MI, jovin. we're supposed to sell calculators at 10 bucks each, and we get a commission of 30% for each calculator sold, which means 3 dollars i guess. pretty pathetic huh... but well, we backed out halfway cause we doubt we can sell any. we'll actually lose money due to all the travelling we have to do.

jeremy told me about this website his aunt recommended him, so i looked it up. it's real good! haha very easy to find jobs, but now the thing is whether it is easy to GET the jobs... haha... have sent in a few applications online [it's much easier to send in online resumes then go for walk-in-interviews, through classifieds. trust me, i know, cause i nearly died in those heels. instead of jobs and money, i brought back home with me blisters and aches =( ] so well we'll see... =) if i'm still unemployed by the 20th, jovin and i are going to go with jeremy and friend to find jobs. let's hope they're more effective than us. haha... nice of them to let us tag along, but then again, since they're so good at finding nice jobs, we'll probably stalk them and attempt to steal those jobs anyway... yeah that's how desperate we are. HEY! we have absolutely NOTHING to do til late april all right? so give us a break... if we continue sitting on our backsides at home all day long on that sinking old couch, our brain will just rot and you'll find our decomposed bodies lying there, probably in a pool of shrinkled dead matter or something. okay sorry, i'm depressed and feeling slightly cranky. okay, slightly is an understatement, does VERY fit the bill? haha

but hey something to cheer us all up! i'm up for the guard-of-honour duty for the state visit by HRH (his royal highness) [funny eh? her majesty is HM. i've always wondered why it's not his majesty and her royal highness instead. gotta think about that one] prince philip. yup, i get to see a few of the gb girls! somehow seeing them not only gives me a headache sometimes, it can be so exasperating when problems arise, but gosh do they cheer me up when i'm feeling tired or sad! and i get to catch up with my odie too! haha that's audrey to you! only certified people get to call her odie! and i'm garfield's girlfriend! okay i'm crapping again, but really, that's what goes on in gb... haha so yeah!

gotta go now, good night you guys! God bless =)

with love, louie

so blessed, i can't contain it, so much i've gotta give it away

God has been real good to me... first He got me the interview with the mass communications people... and now He has helped me get into the course itself!

He'll take care of me... i know He will =)

1st March 2006

gosh have been so busy! sigh tomorrow's going to be another busy day!

1. i have to collect my glasses! sigh... sad eh? i just picked the first glasses which fits me... i am badly in need of one. well it's RED... i emphasise... RED haha...

2. bring grandpa to holland road to eat pizza hut! haha i got my first pay check! erm 38 bucks... haha so since i've received the pizza hut voucher thing, might as well give him a treat, ensures that he eats a full meal at least. he's pretty forgetful so i'm afraid he forgets to eat his meals sometimes...

3. type out weekly report

4. research on rivervalley apartments

5. call up a few clients regarding the new housing projects "foliage" and "stellar"

that should be about it anyway... oh and postings are out on friday! real nervous, but am excited too... =)

hmmmm?

okay! it's here! haha i'm talking about the results of this survey thing that my mum's cell group leader made the children do during the last cell group... i suspect it's because he's trying to entertain us... haha... anyway here goes... =)

"I must help others"

Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's needs.

How to Get Along with Me
- Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.
- Share fun times with me.
- Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.
- Let me know that I am important and special to you.
- Be gentle if you decide to criticise me.

In Intimate Relationships
- Reassure me that I am interesting to you.
- Reassure me often that you love me.
- Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.

What I Like About Being a Helper
- being able to relate easily to people and to make friends
- knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better
- being generous, caring, and warm
- being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings
- being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humour

What's Hard About Being a Helper
- not being able to say no
- having low self-esteem
- feeling drained from overdoing for others
- not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish
- criticising myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should
- being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tune in to them
- working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings

Helpers as Children Often
- are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism
- try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding
- are outwardly compliant
- are popular or try to be popular with other children
- act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention
- are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Helpers), or quiet and shy (the more introverted Helpers)

Helpers as Parents
- are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)
- are often playful with their children
- Wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?" "Have I caused irreparable damage?"
- can become fiercely protective

interesting hmmm? i don't really believe in these stuff though they sound kinda true... especially the "what's hard about being a helper" part... it's hard to say no... eeriely true... maybe miss gan is right after all... hmmm...