aha!

now i remembered what i wanted to say earlier! i've learnt something new from Oilam. she told me that one has to force oneself to gain confidence as one cannot be so timid forever. allow me to start from the beginning.

i was telling her that when audrey told me she was advisor for facilities (is that correct? or it is equiptment? about the same lar arh), i went to check the notice board too. i met sam there! haha, she's advisor for devotion! it's so her... anyway, i found out that i am advisor for publicity! so scary... feel so old.. like wah.. ADVISOR. haha, no longer doing newsletter and rearranging photos until eyeballs entangle. now it's ADVISING. quite funny, i was laughing with sam. anyway, the fascinatingly fascinating thing was, i'm nco i/c for drill.. with yvonne and pearlyn again! i'm somehow always stuck with yvonne, especially! haha, she's my csf and mentor! hee, so cute. anyway, yes, to cut the extremely fascinatingly fascinating story short, i told oilam i don't really feel competent enought to be like in drill. cause after going for the drill instructor course, i felt really lousy. like my commanding so weird, no confidence, i kept giving the wrong commands, and argh! i even said rendang chicken in a command can! the sizing part. yuck. everyone else sounded so good and smart, felt so small, as if i wasn't small enough. then now yvonne and pearlyn quite sud arh, feel more weird. bah. but oilam told me to try. pray i guess. =)

so now people, the moral or this fable is, do your best adn try no matter what. if you feel small, pray to God and He will give you strength. after all, you never know til you try right? that reminds me.. read 1 Timothy 4:12! haha, it so relates to my moral... hee