sigh i've been feeling weird and lost today... never knew choosing where to go would be so tiring and panicky... i can't decide between mass communications in singapore poly, media and communications in ngee ann poly, tourism and resort management in singapore poly, and the same diploma (tourism and resort management) in ngee ann poly...
do you know what really scares me most? it's the thought that i'm no longer trusting in God... i pray, but i wonder if my heart truly believes, or is it just my head? or none at all?
Sam prayed with me over the phone yesterday, while i was walking home... i really love her you know? everyone have been supportive of me though, it's pretty touching... thank you mdm norhani, mr rashidi, ms yew, mr chiang, ms lum, miss gan, jami, oilam, elisa, jacintha, yvonne, raq, sun, sam, shawn, zhiyin, junxian... gosh angel, amelia, kim, emily and weilian too! they are the blessings in my life...
i'm talking to amos now... i love him too you know! sometimes, i wonder if he's an angel... somehow, everytime when i'm so down and i'm not really even aware of it myself, though there's something in me that's not right, he'll come along and make me throw it out, and then remind me of God's love for His people, and guess what? i'm one of them, his very own special child... does that make sense to you? it makes a whole lot of sense to me... i feel so happy and encouraged... lighter, as if God has lifted the burden off me and He has!!
"...seek first his kingdon and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.." -- Matthew 6:33..
this was what amos wrote... so now i'll kneel down, give thanks for what i have, and pray for the Lord to guide me on the right path... only he alone knows what is best for me... =) thanks amos!
ain't sure if i can sleep tonight... i'm still brooding over it i guess, but i can't help it! i'll eventually accept it and life goes on, but for now... sigh... maybe i'll go read a little or something... i have had enough of typing... can you believe that i actually erased all my compositions from my computer after the "O" levels and now, i need to include them in my portfolio!!! haha, sigh... it's sad isn't it... now i ahev to retype our everything that i can find which exists as a hard copy... haha... hit the books louie! =)
4 comments:
its grea tht yo kneel on and pray la..
oh wells, i do hope you could entr a course you like too..
whatever it is you did prud to God in working hard and crying nights away.... He knows it all yea.
Though it may seems like a terrible start to you pre-university life.BUt its not... take it optimistically and think it a God's plan for you lo.... I mean .. only HE has great control about all the ups and downs in my life....
pray hard yea!
your dog is so cute la...!!!
ANYWAY, when a hamster shed hair. what does it mean?
haha thanks raq!! yeah it seems terrible but i guess He has a plan for me right? haha you work hard yourself too! =)
haha thank you! i love her a lot! but she's quite erm, vicious... she keeps biting humans... quite painful arh...
erm, i'm not sure cause i've only had 3 hamsters... and one of them shed fur except for one. and that was dangerous cuase when she sheds, she actually had skin infection and she kinda died with it... so hmm... if your hamster just sheds, it should be okay, but if its skin starts peeling too, uh oh... to the vet! don't use those mites spray thing cause it'll only make it worse... yup =)
er.. i just realise.. the hamster is always bathing and at the same time biting its fur of his "hands" away!
how ah??
i went to a nearby shop and it said its stressed and he adviced another female hamster as a friend... and when i put them together. HELL they fight till i screamed my entire lungs out.
filter it many times till the shock was over...
GAH!.... how do hamster eventually make friends with each other and not hurt each other?
hmmph! stressed my foot! i think he just conned you into buying a second hamster... i had two at one time remember? both females... they fought and i had to get two seperate cages... -.- ... sorry, i asked about the fighting thing and the vet told me that we can't do anything about it cause their nature to each other has changed to a violent one... haha yeah, i screamed too... had to keep each off the other...
oh the bathing and biting the fur thing is okay.. at least that's what happened to my hamster, but must watch it leh, in case it gets a furball in it's throat... but should be oaky lar.. =) haha pray for it... i baptised my hamsters... haha
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