17th July 2008

I've decided that i will not visit a friend's blog for a little while, cause i refuse to lose my temper nor carry on a conversation with a person who insults me, and my friends.

I left the conversation with a clear conscience and on a nice note, and i am not going back.

But it's still sad, to me lar. That they are people out there who feel so sad and miserable about their lives, and therefore go out and ruin everyone else's lives whom are the opposites of them. I think it isn't fair to judge and make snide comments, but i don't think i was wrong to make the first tag in the first place. And i really did it in love, not in anger, not in arrogance, and certainly not to show I'm a saint, cause for goodness sake, I'm SOOOO far from a saint, it's laughable! Man if people call me a saint, it's probably the biggest compliment ever! =))

Anyway, i think the bottom line is that this silly person has effectively made me doubt myself. I know religion is a sensitive topic, and that is why i made sure never to push anyone, although churches always tell us to evangelize blah blah, but i try not to make anyone feel uncomfortable. And i thought i was saying it in love to a fellow sister and friend i truly care about, so BAH. Now i don't even dare to say God bless to anyone except family and cell group.

And as I'm typing this, I'm thinking, STUPID SATAN has put this doubt in me! I don't care. I'm going to carry on doing whatever i think is right. God will guide me. MY God. The ONE GOD I BELIEVE IN. So there. Putty.

Ha ha okay the last two fragments are so childlike, but it seemed so funny, for emphasis. Ha ha

Which leads me to think about something else. Rarely do i stand up for myself, nor get mad or even realize when people supposedly bully or make use of me. And when i do realize, i find it hard to counter attack. But, when my friends or family gets into trouble or are insulted, suddenly I'm able to do something, or at least feel something, like horrendous anger ha ha. Okay not so dramatic but something like that. Okay never mind. Dog just licked my face and i lost my train of thought.

Random babbling. Alright see ya... and Here's to everyone out there, Christians, Buddhists, Muslims, free thinkers, whoever. GOD BLESS! From the bottom of Loisa's heart. I want the best for you, I'm not forcing you to accept my God. It's my way of wishing you well! Byee!! =)