what's the world coming to?!

i'm angry... i'm pissed, i'm piqued... any other words that come to your mind?

i can't sleep. it's a nightmare.

i was pretty happy this afternoon as i made my way down to woodlands to meet alfred and jovin for work. we're promoting cable tv and maxonline (internet service) for starhub by the way, so if you are interested, you know who to call... =) haha anyway as i was going down the escalator i met so many GB girls! and THEN i saw 34th's very own sec 2s! haha was so happy, didn't realised how much i miss them.

BUT.... BUT... from then on, my mood went downhill. tell me, where's the love and concern HUMANS are SUPPOSED to have for one another? i mean, isn't it common sense, or simply a thought from the heart?

i was joking around with alfred, leaning against a pillar at the mrt station. we were waiting for jovin. a stick hit my foot. i turned around. a blind indian man apologised. he was trying to find his way around. i was wondering if i should offer my assistance but was unsure how to go about it, so i waited a little while. meanwhile, this poor man was using his stick and hitting everyone in sight, no pun intended. majority of the HUMANS around moved away to avoid being hit, while others just "tsked" the man for tripping them up. they are actually annoyed with him and tsked him!!!! it's extremely appalling!

at the passenger service corner, an indian woman was sitting at the couter of the control station. there was a man behind her too. i absolutely CANNOT figure out WHY, not one of them could not have offered their arm to the blind man? i mean, they were just sitting there!! i remember VERY clearly that a while back, the newspapers featured a section on helping the blind or something like that. they highlighted two events in which one, a young malay boy consistently helping 2 blind women order food at a coffee stall, and two, a man working at the interchange helping a blind person find his way to the bus, or something along those lines. so what's with that article, or does no one read the newspapers?

fine, i couldn't stand it anymore, so while carrying a heavy sling bag and a folderble stand (for roadshows) under one arm, i awkwardly offered my arm to the blind man. he needed to go to the bus interchange where he had to take bus 963 to bukit panjang for work. the most incredulous thing? his work is door-to-door sales, and i thought i had it bad. this guy faces more rejections than i do! he explained to me that many people banged the door in his face and stick (he sells chocolates btw) and some people actually made fun of him. what is wrong with people these days? this man does not need pity, but he does have a heart, and a mind. so treat him with a little respect people. he may need a little help in getting around, so what? we have arms and legs, is it that difficult to go up to him and say "hi, may i help you?"

and.... i was doing my roadshow yet again today, guess what? i was told to "screw myself", and to "f_ _ _k a spider". wow! a simple no would have been sufficient enough, awww come on, i'm just a kid. smile, pat me on the back, reject me with a polite no, and you would still have made me a happy kid. but noooooooooo, my dear fellow singaporeans, whom now i'm ashamed to call homo sapiens, told me to play with a spider!!!!!

i am so mad, plain mad. what's that song? "just a little kidness" etc. obviously nothing has gone through these people's heads... i'm truly embarrassed... and MAD!!! fuming!!!

now i can't sleep... i was thinking, that man was following the raised line in mrt stations for the blind, but unfortunately it leads only to the mrt station. how about the government do something nice for us and make one that goes to the interchange? i didn't know where bus 963 was, but the minute we reached the interchange, the man knew exactly where to turn. i just guided him through. so how about it huh? a line towards the interchange?

enrolment service 2006

my body clock is all wrong... in fact, my entire system is wrong. i can't sleep at night. and i always wake up early, so i feel so tired during the day. YET when night comes around again, i can't sleep. sigh... my big beautiful brown eyes are beginning to look small and black... haha okay, i'm exaggerating and making my eyes sound more attractive. haha okay not the point.

well anyway, i slept at around 2.30am last night, and i had to wake up at 4am!! (arise, go forth!!!!) one and a half hours of sleep... not good, not good at all... i woke up with a funny itch in my throat, and i sounded like a strangled mosquito in the morning... ever heard the mosquitos calling each other with that eeee sound? yeah i sounded something like this... "eEeeEeEEEeeE" horrible... haha but after drinking lots of water, ah yes... haha much better. oh yeah, i really have to complain about the water cooler in the canteen. it is a MENACE i tell you, a TOTAL DANGER to everyone. i every single time i drank from there, my tie got caught, and i was half choked. it is so unglam to have water shooting up your nose and more water spluttering out of your mouth... haha okay i will stop being so long winded...

anyway, my whole batch was promoted! pretty cool eh? sam and i were talking on the phone, and we were prepared not to receive anything as we believed once we supposedly took leave from GB, our attendance was kaput! but ah well, God works wonders... AND the best thing was, everyone in the whole pbb gang 2005 was present to receive the plague together! how cool is that? haha did i mention i love those people?

oh oh and for the D.I.R.T guys... haha COOL! my julie, and carol! haha they deserve it really, they do... i'm proud of them... haha beginning to feel old, like a mother... for the D.I.R.T team (squad) wah sammie!!! haha, poor aud and me. haha, ever since we were in sec 1, we've been telling each other, okay, next year next year ESTHER will receive that award, and we did work towards it you know. sigh, we can next year next year til the next century... nvm congrats to hannah all the same! haha may the best squad win! esther will get you some day, hannah! julie was displaying the dirt team award in the GB room, and i was thinking "the plague had NO esther!!! haha in that case, cannot display" anyway, the shelf was not cleaned yet so haha they took it down... haha

mr chiang was present too! spoke to him a little and as usual, he enjoys teasing people about the dirt award. i'm the old dirt, while julie and carol are the new dirt. -.- lunch was good too... haha the dumpling was nice! however, the ones mdm li makes are nicer... haha

did i mention jolene? she was the usher for mrs foo, the guest speaker and principal of st. hilda's primary... haha she was really cute! she practically RAN to usher mrs foo and just stuck out her hand akwardsly... haha... godo thing jolene saw the funny side of it too and was not worried that we were laughing...

talked to mrs koh a little too... she looks taller and seems to have lost weight... maybe it's the children... haha i hear children are a bundle of joy but are also a handful, so maybe she has her hands a little full... she asked me about sim and ngee ann... haha... well as i've said before i'm going to go to sim, no one is going to confuse me anymore... haha except myself that is... =)

on to the church service. it was cool! i'm always revived again whenever i go for service. i'm feel alive!! =) sermon was good too, it talked about getting to know God personally, and having a relationship with him, and not just "acting" as a good christian... gotta reflect on that and my life...

okay i'm talking to too many people at the same time, so i've lost my trend of thought. i think i have more to tell you about, but..... maybe another time yeah? for now... God bless and good night =)

WOW tough

oh my goodness gracious GOSH!!!

i just studied my school's timetable and THIS IS CRAZY!!!

i'm studying 4 subjects (microeconomics, english, music and math) for 4 months, and then there'll be a final EXAM at the end of it all?! it's really a subject per month and then WHAM an examination!

ON MY BIRHDAY TOO!!!!

sheesh, you know when i was young and small, i proudly used to say "my birthday is ALWAYS a holiday..." haha that's because in school, 9th august is a national day right? so the next day, 10th august, my birthday, is automatically a school holiday too!! AND NOW...

i've got a "survey of algebra and trigonometry" (not my favourite subject either) final exam?

bring on the stress and anxiety man...

tell me again why i've dropped mass communications in ngee ann polytechnic to go to SIM?

ah yes, to get a headstart in life... well obviously i'll have to actually PASS my exams first.. oh dear dear me... (heaves a BIG sigh)

ah well i'll worry about that later... meanwhile, i've got my piano exam coming up! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

oh some good news =) i've let my gorf go (ex-pet frog) and it's hopping and alive! =) i think it's going to start it's own family cause i hear more croaking now... more than one frog around obviously... hope it doesn't lay it's eggs in the swimming pool that's all i can say... =) i'll miss it... but i think the "wilderness" is better for it right? haha

another pet

haha i've got my own frog! as a pet! it's currently residing in a wok... or it could be a frying pan but that's not the point... the point is, it's my VERY OWN FROGGIE! haha

i was training my dog downstairs, at the golf course thing there... and i nearly stepped on this real tiny greenish grey thing on the ground... my dog was squirming so i passed her to my mum and bent down to look, BOING it jumped into my shirt... EEK! wow i've never ran so fast in my entire life, it gave me a fright! as amelia would say, good thing i've got a strong heart, with armour...

haha happy! i think i shall name this little fella hmm... how about frog? haha how original right? okay gorf? sounds weird... but well okay... i learnt this tactic from junxian... haha okay that shall be it's name..

presenting, gorf, the frog!! hey wait a minute, how about kermit? NAH, too corny... okay gorf it is! =)

ow ow OW!!

well my title says it all...

OW OW OW OW OW!!!

this weekend has been the craziest and most painful weekend ever!! my arms are aching so badly from yesterday's drill! and mind you we didn't do a lot... maybe it was the tension in my arms and the lack of practice... haha opps... my back too! haha okay fine, so i obviously slouch a lot so when i had to force my back to be straight during drill... the after effects are apparent now... sigh... and my dog! my dear pet doggie, just bit me in the leg... very loyal indeed. she bit the hand that feeds her! dumb dog... haha don't ask me why i still love her... the cut will not stop bleeding so i needed stitches... ridiculous... sigh... my leg smarts... nvm ignore me, i'm just being a baby =) i was all drama mama just now at the doctor's... of course i thought that i would have to amputate my leg and all that... haha silly me... as usual... okay back to the point...

let me enlighten you on the state visit thing...

the state visit of prince philip, was yesterday and my such a long LONG day! i slept at 2 am cause i was fussing around with my boots... it looked so dull to me. and then i woke up at 4am. why? my kong kong was lost somewhere in holland village so i had to look for him and bring him home. he left his stuff at a friend's place which is at HOU GANG mind you... HOU KANG... and then i had to submit my resignation letter at bishan where i was supposed to work at... BISHAN... so i thought to myself, sinc ei'm up i might as well change into my GB uniform and stuff since i had to meet julie at pasir ris at 9.45am... sigh had 2 hours of sleep and a cup of milo, then off to meet the prince i went...

oh my the train was SO crowded!! i was hot and boiling... literally and figuritively... picture this

"ding dong... outram part interchange." bom bom bom [everyone rushing out of the door and in the process stepping on MY BOOTS! MY POLISHED BOOTS!!!]

"ding dong... raffles place interchange." piak piak piak [everyone running out of the door and AGAIN, stepping on my already marked previously POLISHED BOOTS!!!]

"ding dong... city hall itnerchange." scratch scratch step [everyone pushing their way out and YET AGAIN!!! my BOOTS were scratched, abused and oh goodness SPOILT!!!]

ooooooo i was MAD!!! sigh furthermore, i had been standing ever since i was on the train and i was really tired by the time i had a seat which was like at tanah merah INTERCHANGE. by then, my boots were totally gone. boy do i dislike interchange-s... anyway i couldn't be bothered with anyone so i stuck my backside on the pink seat, not even caring that it was PINK or othering to look for the green ones like i always do, took out my cloth and kiwi, and started polishing my poor battered boots. of course, my shoe bag took up one seat, my gigantic bag another, and myself with my folded legs, 2 seats. i was really grumpy and the next eprson who even came close to 10 cm within my boots, i would have smacked them.

anyway, somehow or other, i arrived at the station at 10am, and julie arrived at 10.25! OH NO! the plan was to meet up with jac at her place at 10am, and meet the rest at tampines at 11am!! so we rushed to get a cab... meanwhile we were standing at a taxi stand where 'cottage pie' was... so julie and i bought miss gan and the girls a chicken pie each... in case they were hungry... it tasted real good =) yum yum

well we met up with carol and aud (her eyes are so big!! and she's taken off her braces! nice hee), but erm, we kinda lost miss gan... opps... we were on bus 10 and she said she'll take a cab and chase us, cause we were unsure of where to off... haha funny... so we FINALLY arrived at our destination... NOT... we were at the esplanade but the state visit's at the cenotaph, esplanade path!! but everyone was there anyway haha... miss gan fussed over the GB girls uniform, the bb boys ventured eagerly towards the girls' washroom til miss gan stopped them the ncdcc guys arrived and silly gary was there too... acting mr oh so big cause he's a cadet inspector... well i say to you, so what so squat? haha =) he's cute lar... [did you know what he told me today? he said that ncdcc is the only ug which distinguishes officers from cadets... why? cause officers have JACKETS... like who cares? haha i was snorting to myself all the way home when i saw the sms]

well okay on to the guard of honour itself. guess what? i didn't see the duke the first time round! -.- haha why? cause i thought it was a rehearsal and i didn't know it was the real thing!! we were arranged by order of height first, and of course, i was the first right thanks... we formed teams in which everyone was from a differnt ug. within each team we were further arranged according to our ccas in alphabetical order... i was standing next to whatshisname, the head of bb, samuel of something like that... that's cause boys' brigade comes first followed by girls' brigade... i know him lar thanks... same school... his smile was similar to a grimace and mine was probably no better. haha but nvm. and as i've told you, we went through a short rehearsal and i didn't know that the second time round it was the real thing! sigh... anyway the sun was in our eyes so i couldn't see very well... i was melting over there all right? gosh! but it was an experience... =) although i must admit it didn't feel grand at all, it was just... an experience... the girl guides were hilarious too... they kept pointing to out badges and asking what they were, and one girl commented on our boots "wah mirror arh mirror! who needs a mirror arh, can use this" haha we were laughing... it was hilarious, and oh yeah, the nametag they gave us for identification is beautiful! it's a CLOTH sticker nametag... how cool can that be? haha i still have it... i pasted it on my wallet =)

anyway the best part of it all? it was the WATER and haha, gary passed out. or rather to him, he "lost vision", which to me is the same thing. haha okay so i'm evil but since he was beaming his weird little cheeky grin at me little i figured hey no worries he's fine. as always. haha... i KNEW IT! he said he had little sleep and did not eat much, and i so guessed it! see? who's the pro... haha... see lar gary... you always call me "weak", now what have you got to say for yourself, when i had such a small breakfast and no lunch myself? not to mention little sleep too? sigh gary gary, have i proved my point now? AND to think he still wanted to call out "loisa! why are you still a sergeant?" during the reception. good thing he was distracted by food, that nut. anyway what's wrong with a sergeant? i'm loving it... at least i don't have to wear a JACKET... sometimes gary just makes me go nuts...

well after the entire thing was over, aud left with miss gan to head for home. that aud abandoned us! haha she had a bbq going on in the evening you see... meanwhile jac, julie, carol and me had to rush back to tampines to eat... why? cause we had to attend S.N.O.W!! speedlight night of worship and gosh was God ever with us! it was powerful man, pure powerful and united! we were hyper and totally on ecstacy! haha at first, i had a really big headache as we didn't have much for dinner, and i was feeling pretty sick already... but the minute the service started, everyone was on their feet praising the one and only Saviour and i felt His presence, so of coruse all of us started lifting our hands and jumping on our feet... dancing and kneeling even!! =) we were indeed unified...

cool! i just love Jesus more and more...

*i keep falling in love in with You, over and over and, over and over again, i keep falling in love with You, over and over and, over and over again,
it gets sweeter and sweeter as the days go by,
o what love between my Lord and i,
i keep falling in love with You, over and over and, over and over again...*

=)

-time wasted-

sigh sigh sigh

i wasted the whole afternoon today... i'm so sore about it!! friends and i had plans of going to the escape theme park today... i've never been there so i badly wanted to go. however, an interview popped up today, 2pm at tanjong pagar maxell house... thus i decided to forgo fun day as it's ridiculous for me to travel to

pasir ris (escape) ----- tanjong pagar (interview) ----- pasir ris (escape) ----- buona vista (home)

so sigh, nvm, the thought of a prospective flyers job spurred me on! actually at the back of my mind, i was wondering why would we need to go for an interview if all we had to do was distribute flyers? weird eh, but anyway jovin and i headed there... had a talk to amelia on the way and lucky girl, she had her treat!! (a bet made should she watch the movie final destination, and let me warn you, it's a totally gruesome and scary movie)

well everythign was delayed as jovin's medical check up was pushed forward to 1.30, therefore we only reached the interview venue at 2.30pm

BUT

when we arrived there, the office was locked! we gave the interviewer a call, and yeah very funny, he was caught up with stuff. so in total we conversed three times, and each time he said that he would either clal me back in 20 minutes, or he would arrive at the office in half hour. the only reason we bothered to wait for him was because the ad in the classifieds said we would be paid 8 bucks per hour!!

well what a con! the whole thing was a huge con scheme! guess what it's really 300 flyers for 3 dollars! piang, all that waiting for nothing. by the way, he arrived only at 5.45pm. clever eh? sigh... i could have gone for my escape outing... and ended my day with a huge smile on my face... =(

maybe i'll go make some peanut butter sandwich. bought a jumbo loaf and skippy peanut butter on my way home just now... THAT would bring my spirits up!! see? just thinking about that squishy sandwich makes me grin like... like a... oh no! a GLUT! haha oh well, who cares?? haha =)

MURDERER!!

oh goodness gracious gosh! i finally killed my poor pal, liz and the lizard!! it's been stuck on my beautiful green curtains for the past one week so i've been talking to it every night. when i was angry yesterday, i yelled and verbally abused it too... thank goodness it doesn't understand human english... but all the same, i've actually become quite fond of liz...

however my murder instinct came up when it dropped on MY FACE the night before while i was asleep... it tried to share the bed covers with me.. and to do that, you must get permission from louie first!! so ta da uh oh, into the plastic bag it goes, down the toilet bowl it flounders, and then up to heaven it flies!! by the way, how does one tell the difference between a female and male lizard? or are lizards bisexual?

nah i'm not that mean lar... i let it down in my rubbish chute... cause i really couldn't stand another night of flicking tails on my nose, and besides, my dog was really fascinated with it and kept trying to eat it. thus i have to protect my little doggie from food poisoning right? =)

i still have to ask for forgiveness though, cause liz might have died on it's way down the chute... *shivers*

oh no i'm a murderer! i knowingly put poor liz in harm!! =(

okay i'll open up the chute... maybe she didn't fall though, maybe, just MAYBE she's in the ledge or something... =) let me check, will be back in jsut a while...

GOOD NEWS PEOPLE! i have just retrieved liz from the rubbish chute! she's up and healthy... =) i think it's forgiven me cause it ate the pork floss i put inside the jar... it's in the jar too obviously... i'm going to keep liz... =) maybe she'll make good friends with pebbles, but first, i'll have to train the dog not to eat lizards... or anything that moves for that matter... hmmm...

11th March 2006

okay a pattern is forming... do you realise that i only update this blog thing only when i'm free or am real bored, or rather whenever i have nothing on the next day? as can be seen, i have not updated this for quite some time so guess what? i've been working! a real job! haha telemarketing that is... boy do you meet some real annoying people, and you just want to throw these humans out of the window... on the other hand, there are nice considerate people out there in the world who do not scream at you in hokkien but instead, reject you politely and honestly. they do not waste your time by telling you they'll think about it when they obviously do not want it anymore, cause otherwise i'll have to follow up with them and it's really a waste of breath and brain energy, not to mention time and money in making the calls.

i've been feeling very old lately, probably cause now i have to dress up a little more...

skirts, blouses, shirts, pants, HEELS a must, hair down, contact lenses...

you name it! i feel like a loUisa now, not a loisa. somehow it makes a difference with the U inside, it feels more grownup, more feminine, i don't know. [haha i'm beginning to talk to myself, yeah yeah, i know you're tuning out]

ah yes back to the point. i've been feeling old, not early twenties that kind of old, but a little more like in the eighties. haha, that's probably because my feet hurt, my head hurts, i feel like i am suffering from athiritis, and i think maybe dibeties too, at the rate i'm going with the sweets. i have to munch on something while talking you see, otherwise i'll go nuts and bang the phone down on the floor. [and no, i do not sound like i have marbles in my mouth although i suck on sweets as i talk to THE potential, NOT, clients]

sigh my contract has ended anyway, so i was supposed to go for another job near bugis area with a friend i met in MI, jovin. we're supposed to sell calculators at 10 bucks each, and we get a commission of 30% for each calculator sold, which means 3 dollars i guess. pretty pathetic huh... but well, we backed out halfway cause we doubt we can sell any. we'll actually lose money due to all the travelling we have to do.

jeremy told me about this website his aunt recommended him, so i looked it up. it's real good! haha very easy to find jobs, but now the thing is whether it is easy to GET the jobs... haha... have sent in a few applications online [it's much easier to send in online resumes then go for walk-in-interviews, through classifieds. trust me, i know, cause i nearly died in those heels. instead of jobs and money, i brought back home with me blisters and aches =( ] so well we'll see... =) if i'm still unemployed by the 20th, jovin and i are going to go with jeremy and friend to find jobs. let's hope they're more effective than us. haha... nice of them to let us tag along, but then again, since they're so good at finding nice jobs, we'll probably stalk them and attempt to steal those jobs anyway... yeah that's how desperate we are. HEY! we have absolutely NOTHING to do til late april all right? so give us a break... if we continue sitting on our backsides at home all day long on that sinking old couch, our brain will just rot and you'll find our decomposed bodies lying there, probably in a pool of shrinkled dead matter or something. okay sorry, i'm depressed and feeling slightly cranky. okay, slightly is an understatement, does VERY fit the bill? haha

but hey something to cheer us all up! i'm up for the guard-of-honour duty for the state visit by HRH (his royal highness) [funny eh? her majesty is HM. i've always wondered why it's not his majesty and her royal highness instead. gotta think about that one] prince philip. yup, i get to see a few of the gb girls! somehow seeing them not only gives me a headache sometimes, it can be so exasperating when problems arise, but gosh do they cheer me up when i'm feeling tired or sad! and i get to catch up with my odie too! haha that's audrey to you! only certified people get to call her odie! and i'm garfield's girlfriend! okay i'm crapping again, but really, that's what goes on in gb... haha so yeah!

gotta go now, good night you guys! God bless =)

with love, louie

so blessed, i can't contain it, so much i've gotta give it away

God has been real good to me... first He got me the interview with the mass communications people... and now He has helped me get into the course itself!

He'll take care of me... i know He will =)

1st March 2006

gosh have been so busy! sigh tomorrow's going to be another busy day!

1. i have to collect my glasses! sigh... sad eh? i just picked the first glasses which fits me... i am badly in need of one. well it's RED... i emphasise... RED haha...

2. bring grandpa to holland road to eat pizza hut! haha i got my first pay check! erm 38 bucks... haha so since i've received the pizza hut voucher thing, might as well give him a treat, ensures that he eats a full meal at least. he's pretty forgetful so i'm afraid he forgets to eat his meals sometimes...

3. type out weekly report

4. research on rivervalley apartments

5. call up a few clients regarding the new housing projects "foliage" and "stellar"

that should be about it anyway... oh and postings are out on friday! real nervous, but am excited too... =)

hmmmm?

okay! it's here! haha i'm talking about the results of this survey thing that my mum's cell group leader made the children do during the last cell group... i suspect it's because he's trying to entertain us... haha... anyway here goes... =)

"I must help others"

Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's needs.

How to Get Along with Me
- Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.
- Share fun times with me.
- Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.
- Let me know that I am important and special to you.
- Be gentle if you decide to criticise me.

In Intimate Relationships
- Reassure me that I am interesting to you.
- Reassure me often that you love me.
- Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.

What I Like About Being a Helper
- being able to relate easily to people and to make friends
- knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better
- being generous, caring, and warm
- being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings
- being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humour

What's Hard About Being a Helper
- not being able to say no
- having low self-esteem
- feeling drained from overdoing for others
- not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish
- criticising myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should
- being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tune in to them
- working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings

Helpers as Children Often
- are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism
- try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding
- are outwardly compliant
- are popular or try to be popular with other children
- act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention
- are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Helpers), or quiet and shy (the more introverted Helpers)

Helpers as Parents
- are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)
- are often playful with their children
- Wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?" "Have I caused irreparable damage?"
- can become fiercely protective

interesting hmmm? i don't really believe in these stuff though they sound kinda true... especially the "what's hard about being a helper" part... it's hard to say no... eeriely true... maybe miss gan is right after all... hmmm...

24th February 2006

aw shucks!! i broke my glasses... this is embarrassing... i was to the bathroom while polishing my boots today... i needed water to mix with the black kiwi stuff in order to make it shine... and the very smart me, tripped over my own toes (don't ask me how), got myself entangled with the floor rugs, and fell face in right into the toilet bowl, thus my glasses broke into two... the nose portion is missing, probably stuck somewhere at the bottom of my toilet bowl... therefore, now i wearing my glasses without teh middle portion, which makes me look as if the two lenses are hanging on my face in mid air... sigh... it's only been a year!! sniff... well good thing i've got contact lenses... but i do detest wearing those... ever so fearful my eyeballs would go rolling out of my eye sockets shoudl i pinch too hard or open my eyes too wide... i guess i've got to get new glasses... but i do so love my current ones... =(

anyway i went for the interview today! oh gosh there were two parts! the first part was a one to one interview with a lecturer i think, and the second part was a group interview... we are given a scenerio for part 2, and then we have to make a presentation for them. gosh i was so nervous i could pee in my own pants! i was fidgeting so much and i really felt like yelling... well i got through the first part but the second part goodness! the interviewer was SO sarcastic! she asked if i was really 17, and why my name is LOISA without a "u" in it. hai yo some people just ask too many questions. ah well, i was talking a mile away cause i was so nervous, wasn't even sure if it was relevant, then she told me i talk too much. -.- and then she told me i'm very small... well what relevance is there between size and mass communications? haha anyway i hope i do get in... for fun... =) psst! i made two new friends too! they were with me for our group interview... their names are zoe and michelle! cool eh? =)

by the way, i have to send my dog to obedience school... she's so noisy! she's biting everything and everyone, pee-ing and poo-ing everywhere and anywhere... sigh... off she goes to school...

to be pleased, or not to be pleased?

i've been shortlisted for the interview!!!

oh my goodness what am i to do? i was sleeping peacefully dreaming of my dog running through meadows and me happily gorging on potato salad, and then my phone's incessant ringing woke me up. they do want me after all...

i'm now on the internet sms-ing miss gan...gosh i'm so nervous... oh just a side thought, i quite love miss gan a lot, she's real nice and i thank God for her. she's like a second mummy to me... =) okay back to the topic.... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

what's God trying to tell me? first i didn't get in so i thought SIM was my answer, but now i get in, is He giving me a second chance? really i think SIM is better, after all it is faster, but is my level of thinking mature enough for a university degree, that's my question. sigh i'm so confused...

sheesh! okay i'm off to do up my portfolio and pray. i'm just one confused and panicky louie. haha i've lost my 3Cs self... the Cool, Calm and Collected louie, as i love to say... haha okay see ya

22nd February 2006

well hey now guess what? i'm in toa payoh, my main office... haha reason being is that i had to fax over to the music company my proof document. i need to show that i have passed my grade 5 theory examination in order to take piano examinations grage 6 and above. so well being the forgetful me (i've been ever so tired and busy) i forgot to take down my applicant's number, so now i have to pay 50 cents to use the internet in the office. i get half hour to play around on the net. it took me around 2 minutes to log into my mail to get my applicant's number, so basically i've got 28 minutes to kill. haha, otherwise it'll be a waste of my precious money.

okay on to the piece of sad but interesting news... i have not been shortlisted for the interview at ngee ann poly. i applied for mass communications under the JPSAE, and i didn't quite get it... okay this is going to be quite confusing... i called the hotline to see if i have been shortlisted, i wasn't. i didn't know what to make of it at first. then feeling itchy, i decided to try again, and.... i realised that i pressed a wrong set of nunbers for my NRIC, and that i was actually shortlisted!! 3 hours later i tried again, and hmmm... i wasn't... but well, at least God has closed this door for me... so off to the University at Buffalo (UB) SIM for me... =)

sigh my time is not up yet but i don't have much to tell, let me tell you about my work instead. i just received a call from a super annoying client... he wants to break his rental lease, and doesn't want to pay the penalty!! argh! had to talk to him so long on my handphone, my hp bill arh... sigh... anyway i referred him over to my boss as i can't handle this fella. one kind of cheapo fella...

oh and something else, i went shopping with mummy before work, and FINALLY i found a nice cheap pair of high heel shoes! yay haha... seriously, i have to face reality, i am SHORT. okay okay! first and last time you'll hear me admit that. i need some height when i go out into the workforce... haha so now i'm walking like a duck with constipation... picture this : backside out, chest out, kness bent, legs kicking the air... yeah that's how i'm walking...

okay the end. i am not going to continue typing just for the sake of typing. there is no use in that, but it seems that is exactly what i am doing haha sorry, i'll really end off now. goodbye.... =)

19th February 2006

hiya people! i'm talking to amelia right now on the phone.. =) oh and we're singing along to the song on my blog... haha yup, that's how loud it is... nah, it's just that amelia's ears are really sharp... like a dog's... haha! =)

anyway, i was just told that my english has gone all weird, so thus, i'm back as strong as ever, as true to my resolution as possible, which is to type good english in this blog. it'll make good practice after all. thanks mrs. koh!

do you know what i have realised these few days? i have not been speaking good english. (okay so today's topic shall be all about the english language) my pronunciation and vocabulary isn't very good, and i make grammatical errors... well the good thing though, is that i know i've made a mistake! =) however, isn't it scary when you realise your mistake only AFTER you've made it? i've had this thought before, about what would happen should my english fail me? i can't converse in chinese very well, nor write a proper sentence in that language, what would be the consequences of my english dying out too? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

now i'm panicking... okay this has just spured me on to start reading the newspapers and books again. all right i confess!! i haven't been as good a kid as i should have been. i did say i would religiously read the papers right? well that went on for quite a while, or rather heh, a week or too, but erm well, that kind of stopped. sigh... okay okay, i know i have to do it, especially if i'm going to do mass comm or communications or whatever it is i'm going to do...

on to something else now... hey i'm currently applying for my music exam! THE final grade oh no! i'm nervous! my examination is in september, and gosh that's really near... besides, i've jsut started practicing on my pieces!! i stopped my lessons in march last eyar you see, it was the O level year. i've started again in january but oh, i don't have a talent with music. i need a few months to perfect ONE song, and now i've got only 9 months to put together THREE songs, scales and SIGHT READING, which by the way, i'm TERRIBLE at. haha i still remember that my grade 6 examiner told me "loisa, you have to brush up on your sight reading. you make it sound so painful!!" haha can you imagine that? he said it straight in my face! how subtle can one be? haha it wasn't exactly amusing then, although now it is pretty hilarious... haha

okay i've got to go to bed now. i'm working tomorrow! do you know what is so strange about this "job" i've got? well i'm SUPPOSED to be a miniature real estate agent, which means i have to do viewings, research, type out reports and so forth, BUT i seem to be doing much more than that! let me tell you what i ahve been up to these two weeks. i have changed lightbulbs, fixed air conditioners, attempted to stop leakages, painted walls, swept and mopped floors, scrubbed toilet bowls, put up wall papers... i've even taken my own study table, chairs and plants to spice up other people's homes! now what kind of job am i holding, you ask me. all i have to say is, i'm a real estate agent cum interior designer cum washer woman sum plumber cum electrician and goodness knows what else? oh why not include receptionist and secretary into the list? sigh... haha it can be pretty amusing if it isn't so tiring running roudn the whole of singapore, and you wonder how i have the time to blog right? haha, it's because i'm waiting for my music application's email to come in! okay, so i registered on friday, and i was told that it would take 2 working days for the mail to be sent to me... but ah well, i'm an anxious girl... haha... =)

ps: HAPPY BITHRDAY ZHI YIN!!

a day in the life as a personnel in the workforce

thu had work and was thinking that my job would be fun but was proven wrong on the 2nd day of work-fri. Yay my only chance to be long-winded so I shall not spare u. haha im attempting to hv more than 1000 words in this post so if its tooo wordy,u hv a choice not to read it. a challenge put to me by SOMEONE. haha and I noe u would be thinkin-wa thanks arh! haha I think I’ll say welcome first. ok shall spare u for now. I got this job wif wl. we were definitely looking forward to this job. on the 1st day we went, we had nothing to do for abt 1h.u could imagine we were bored to death but oso excited tt we could earn free money. An Indian lady asked us if we wanted to shred paper since we were free n had nothing to do. We agreed to do so as soon as she asked us and even were excited to do it. some of u must be thinking wad can shredding paper make us get so excited. Haah I oso don’t noe why we were so excited but maybe cos we were so bored and if we had nothing to do so once we are given a job, we would be excited?
We were shredding the papers and finding ways and means to oso hv fun at the same time. The papers came in a huge stack and were connected to each other so I took one end of the stack and place the pile on the floor and the shreddin machine just ‘swallowed’ the whole pile one sheet at a time. We enjoyed ourselves shredding paper. on a few occasions, the machine was jammed and we tried to pull out the paper tt had been jammed inside the machine using the button but no more paper could be shredded so we decide to pull out the bin that under the shredding machine and tried to make the shredded paper compact so tt more paper could be shredded. While shredding the papers, the acting leader of the dept of payroll--tjen arrived and we were given instructions on how to sort out the info that they needed.
shall tell u how it goes if not u wont be able to understand the rest of the post.
We were told by tjen that we had to sort out taxi claims and meal claims. For taxi claims, it wld be considered as taxable if someone took a taxi before 8.30pm frm mon-fri and during the weekends. for meal claims, it would be taxable if meals were taken during weekends. Those tt were taxable had to be keyed into excel. mind u, it may seem easy but we oso had to refer to calendars to find out if the days were weekdays or weekends and it wasn’t as if the claims were only for 2005! It ranged from 2004 to 2005! Knowing these info, we proceeded to sort out the files. Wl was fortunate in the sense that she had a laptop so once she had found something to be taxable, she could directly key into the excel while I had to put flags on the receipts to indicate they were taxable. File after file I went through and by 4+pm on thu-1st day, I had 10 files on the floor because I had alr sorted them out and was told tt a computer wld arrive at 4.15pm but it still didn’t until the end of the day lah! A lady was ‘complaining’ that I was messing up the floor with all the files, but what could I do? Nothing lah cos I didn’t hv a computer…nvm..its ok. Lunch we had a dept lunch bcos the boos of the dept was posted overseas n seldom came back so since tt day he was in Singapore, they decided to hv a dept lunch on the 13th floor. Wow! Its like 1st day only then we had free lunch. I hv no complains abt the lunch cos it was really delicious. We had curry veg, assam fish, prawns, pasta, pineapple rice and loads more..cant remember but those that I named, I took it except for the prawns cos they r messy to eat outside home. heh no skill to be able to shell it without dirtying my fingers. Aft the main course, we had bo bo cha cha and I had a slice of tiramisu cake. The cake n the bo bo cha cha was really nice. We worked OT for 1h then we went home. That concludes the 1st day.

On the 2nd day, I told wl to start work at 8am s(office hours are officially at 8am and not 8.30am cos it was our first day n didn’t noe the plce so we cld go a lil later) so tt we cld work OT for a while. I was running late cos we arranged the day before to meet at 7.20 at the tail end of the train and when I glanced at the clock in the living room, it showed 7.20am. I immediately rushed out of the house after putting my shoes on. Halfway along the corridor, I felt tt the back of my feet was painful bcos the shoes were too tight and being new, were not seasoned. I guessed that I would get blisters at the end of the day. I would hv rushed back home to change shoes but knowing I was alr late, decided not to in case we miss each other on the train cos she stays in pasir ris n I in simei. I reached simei mrt and I waited for wl’s sms to let me noe when to get on the train.while waiting, I took off my shoes so that I can minimize the pain. I waited for at least 20min before she told me she was entering simei mrt station. Had I know she would be thtat late, I would not hv hesitated to change shoes. The walk to the office seemed a long time when in fact was only 10min cos the back of the shoes were ‘bitting’ into my flesh. Once I reached the office I inspected my feet and true enuff, the flesh was torn and I had a big blister on my left feet and 2 blisters on my right feet. Had to walk barefooted ard the office cos the blisters were painful. The ppl in the same office as us were asking what happened to me and I told them abt the blisters. They tried to help me out in finding a pair of sandals for me to wear cos there were stapler bullets on the carpet and didn’t want me to get injured or bacteria to get into the wounds. They were soo kind to me! When it was time for lunch, I tried to put on my shoes cos I couldn’t possibly go out without shoes. They told me not to put my shoes on and volunteered their pair of sandals for me to put it on. They were too big for me and I had to make do with an extra pair of sandals they had in the office but not without walking like a duck. They decided that tt pair was too big and one lady had her nicer pair of sandals on her and she kindly let me try her pair to see if it was any smaller and true enuff, it just fitted me although I saw tt the size was 8. my shoe size is definitely not 8. they were so sweet n caring towards me. Had lunch with the smaller pair of sandals. After lunch, I went to get another pair of sandals as I could not possibly go home in the tight pair of shoes tt I wore in the beginning not to mention with my blisters on both my feet. If we wanted to go to the Ladies, we had to borrow the permanent staff’s card n key. The card being used to get out of the dept n the key to gain access to the toilet—that is their security. We inserted the key into the hole n turned the key but we realised that the door could not be opened. We thought that we had the wrong key since we were given 2 keys. We tried to remove the key but low and behold, it was stuck. The key could not be turned in any direction. Wl informed the receptionist tt the key was stuck. Guess what she did… she gave wl another the masterkey to the toilet and when wl came back I was like “hello? The key is stuck, it cant even be removed and there she is giving us another key??” it was so amusing lah.this time I went and told the receptionist that the key was stuck and she tried to turn the key. She oso could not turn the key and told us that she had to call maintenance. In the mean while, she open the more posh toilet for us to use. I commented to wl that nothing correct is happening today. Haha well..i suppose n hope that Friday would be the worse day cos I still hv 3 more days ahead of me.

Continued sorting out claims that r taxable n the more I sorted out, the worse it became. We had to check the date of the claims and then check against one of the 3 calendars provided—2003 to 2005 calendars. Mind u, the files do not put the year the claims are from. Inside the file u can hv 2004 and 2005 claims. When it was drawing near to the end of the day, I began to hallucinate n ‘see’ the year wrongly and I had to redo the whole file cos I checked the wrong calendar and this can mean a big difference in a weekday or a weekend for each year. It was really so scary but thankfully I realised that I was seeing numbers that were not there if not I would hv made so many mistakes. Aft undertaking this job, it definitely has spurred me on to work hard so that I can go to uni as facing numbers for only 2 days has alr taken its toll on me and I wont want to do that for the rest of my life.

Well..i suppose I just set a record of writing more than 1500 words.haha



btw, this is not posted by loisa

16th February 2006

AUDREY! my dearest auddie odie! haha... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

orange... haha... in dedication to you... =)

okay GUESS WHAT?! i've decided to try out for the 3 year degree course thing... it's called "bachelor or arts in communications" haha but i've got to work real hard at it cause i'm not sure if i'm matured enough to think far yet... after all i am skipping jc and poly for this degree course... sigh, but i can do anything wtih God beside me right? and He ALWAYS is! Gosh i'm so happy... it's like my life has just started and i'm on to something now... let's say if i get into mass comm in np, tourism in sp, and i get this degree thing, haha i can have fun rejecting courses... REJECTING! haha sounds so cool... okay i'm evil... but it's kinda scary... i'm going to be so young there... argh... nvm aud's there with me, together we'll * ahem a bit corny here, GO FORWARD * haha...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i'm just so HAPPY!

oh i've withdrawn from MI already... sigh... my concession card ohhh my heart! haha gotta pay adult fees already... sigh... =( but HEY! i'm an ADULT! haha no longer ms primary school or sec 2 as mr ng loves to say... hee... see? there's always something good in everything... a silver lining... =) gosh can you just tell how positive and happy i am? i'm feeling like an angel... oh but i do miss everyone in mi... my classmates, my og mates... my friends!!! went out with theo and jovin yesterday, don't ask me what happened to amanda, nat, ting and wanqi! haha, going to murder them soon... sigh... 06S14! opps who's there arh? okay i'm going to be a bit longwinded here...

angel! : haha you know what i've got to say... remember louie the graceful swan is behind you all the way!! =)
hwee leng : okay sorry not a single clue on what colour you like so red also lar hor... so you arh, supposed to withdraw with me! haha nevermind, we got into school past the security guards yeah? hey all the best in your future endeavours! no problemo for us... =)
Jeslyn : you never really attended classes with us did you... haha but it's okay... you're still nice... i love that st. pat's tie! haha, love your glasses too though it's kinda bright... keep rocking... =)
Jolene : hmmph, i'm going to find some other porridge lady who treats me better... haha... you're a great girl... keep in touch!! all the best! =)
lynette : okay i know you like pink... you, angel jolene... sigh... terrible taste... =) haha love you man! you're hilarious and so fun to be with.. try to not pinch people's faces too much or they'll go out of shape... mine has already... God bless! =)
Ping May : eeeya... untahantable leh you... well congrats on your results! still in awe of it... you're so soft spoken and sweet goodness haha will miss you a lot! God bless! haha red bag red bag!!! hee haha =)
James : SHEESH! seriously you're so full of nonsense... drama papa, never know when you're pulling our leg! you'll go far in drama... haha =)
Jethro : i'm still trying to figure out if you the stories you tell are true... hmmm... were you the one who said your friend knocked into a van? the other liar-er is james so it might be him too... i say that's not true!! haha anyway nice knowing you... =)
Jeremy : you're gone! were you really knocked down by an ambulance? that james is going to be the death of us... haha all the best! =)
JunXian : yeah yeah i know you like yellow.. yellow yellow banana... haha nvm... you're really nice you know that? unbelievable... wonder how long it will last but seeing how you go about as mr. nice, well it could go on forever! amazing! well i guess i'll miss you too! it's hilarious watching how angel always manages to get the better of you... haha =) psst... music lesson's on tmr! oh no! haha
Linus : i love your mum! haha ah well, you're pretty nice, but real playful... hmmm is study in your list? great knowing you... =)
Othniel : HA you're from BB! my kind of guy... not... haha nah... brother! i'm from GB! haha anyway hmm... your hair blocked my entire view while we were watching the video during GB but nvm, you moved haha thanks! have fun! up til now, i can't quite pronounce your name... opps =)
Nathan : i wasn't crying! i had a cold lar... haha but real nice of you to ask... hmmm i can't figure you out either... but i like your smile... haha, kinda sweet. and eh, my name is LOISA and i don't have to check the directionary! haha God bless =)
Timothy : gee you're scary... you should soften your face or something... give a smile now and then... otherwise you really look like you could whack someone up real bad... but other then that... erm... nice trying not to look you too much... =)
Viknesh : viknesh vikNESH... gosh you're SO exasperating you know that? haha but you make my day... never fail to make me roll my eyes... but that's good you know, cause it makes me laugh... =) all the best to you, chairman of 4 years straight... =)
Wee Jie : ookay, so you pretty much have monday blues and math blues too... haha... well turn up for lessons some time yeah? haha =)

oh angel, if you do ever read this which i'm not very sure you will:
we've MADE IT! ignore everyone who seems to comment and talk so much... we've never expected the kind of results we got... it's God's blessings to us... maybe we're going through this cause He wants us to strive for better goals the next time but NEVER let anyone get you down, no matter if we're from neighbourhood schools... to me, i'm thick skin enough to know that we're geniuses already so i love you! i'll never leave you okay? we may take different routes but hey in a few years time, we'll be out in the working force and haha, we'll get our driving licences, get married, have kids, or maybe we'll just stay single, go senile and enterthe same old folks home and play mahjong there... haha stay happy angel! )

14th February 2006

okay it's valentines' day! haha i totally forgot all about it til i saw practically every single pupil of saint hilda's carrying a balloon, rose, flower and whatever else associated with valentines day... haha i was at the GB table and i saw carol carrying GREEN BALLOON! haha was so happy, and everyone was going on about hong kiat passing michelle a valentine's day gift... they said he was very sweet and wrap until so nice and so on, but i was kinda thinking more that he's very free... haha, ah well that was still nice of him... okay he's nice to my junior so he's in my good books! haha

okay to the point... i'm so HAPPY! i've finally made my decision on where to go, and no one is going to change my mind or make me confused, no teacher, no student, no friend... only family but ah well, i've prayed and i think God wants me to go for it... to try my best... so we'll see... =)

1. mass comm in np
2. tourism in sp
3. tourism in np
4. media and comm in sp
5. law in tp

haha law was for fun, i don't mind it really, but it's pretty far for me... well guess what? jovin and sam have put np as their first choice so yay! haha wo you peng you liao... jeremy's going to sp, haha so i've got a friend there too! i won't feel so small and lonely in poly anymore... poly's kidna scary eh? it's so big and huge... cna get lost in it... np is a perfect annoying example... haha... there are barriers and railings everywhere! sam and i were joking and said we can no longer jaywalk across our grandfather's road, so we have to climb OVER the railings! haha...

oh heard from sam and aud that there's this 3 year to a degree course, which allows me to skip poly and jc, plunging straight to a degress cert... it's erm 54 K in total.. a BOMB! haha, but ah well, we pay in semesters... it's a degreee in journalism... hee... my kind of thing... la dee da... will ask aud more about it tomorrow, at a normal hour... gotta be quick though as the registration stuff end tomorrow at 4pm!! ahhhh =)

11th February 2006

sigh i've been feeling weird and lost today... never knew choosing where to go would be so tiring and panicky... i can't decide between mass communications in singapore poly, media and communications in ngee ann poly, tourism and resort management in singapore poly, and the same diploma (tourism and resort management) in ngee ann poly...

do you know what really scares me most? it's the thought that i'm no longer trusting in God... i pray, but i wonder if my heart truly believes, or is it just my head? or none at all?

Sam prayed with me over the phone yesterday, while i was walking home... i really love her you know? everyone have been supportive of me though, it's pretty touching... thank you mdm norhani, mr rashidi, ms yew, mr chiang, ms lum, miss gan, jami, oilam, elisa, jacintha, yvonne, raq, sun, sam, shawn, zhiyin, junxian... gosh angel, amelia, kim, emily and weilian too! they are the blessings in my life...

i'm talking to amos now... i love him too you know! sometimes, i wonder if he's an angel... somehow, everytime when i'm so down and i'm not really even aware of it myself, though there's something in me that's not right, he'll come along and make me throw it out, and then remind me of God's love for His people, and guess what? i'm one of them, his very own special child... does that make sense to you? it makes a whole lot of sense to me... i feel so happy and encouraged... lighter, as if God has lifted the burden off me and He has!!

"...seek first his kingdon and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.." -- Matthew 6:33..

this was what amos wrote... so now i'll kneel down, give thanks for what i have, and pray for the Lord to guide me on the right path... only he alone knows what is best for me... =) thanks amos!

ain't sure if i can sleep tonight... i'm still brooding over it i guess, but i can't help it! i'll eventually accept it and life goes on, but for now... sigh... maybe i'll go read a little or something... i have had enough of typing... can you believe that i actually erased all my compositions from my computer after the "O" levels and now, i need to include them in my portfolio!!! haha, sigh... it's sad isn't it... now i ahev to retype our everything that i can find which exists as a hard copy... haha... hit the books louie! =)

THE REAL END OF O LEVELS

ookay, so we've collected our "O" levels result slip, and hey what do you know... LOUIE HAS PASSED HER CHINESE! Gosh i really thank God for that... I prayed and worked so darn hard for that subject... but that UNGRADED for oral is really an eyesore... it's a BIG FAT ungraded... ah well i can't ask for much right? God has blessed me with good results for the written paper already, especially since i failed my oral... it was quite drama in school... haha, cause mdm li dong mei came out to ask how my chinese was, and i found mrs tan ming ngo and ms cindy lum at the staff room and both asked if i had passed my chinese. later, ms kuah, mr lai ( i think that's his name, and another female chinese teacher (she remembers me from a GB CNY dance last year) passed me and asked too how i fared for chinese. it was as if the whole chinese department was after me and i was the only case who failed like that... sigh... but i really love mrs tan and mdm li... well "fu lao shi! now the whole of 4A has passed chinese!"

oh oh and again guess what GUESS WHAT?! I PASSED MY PHYSICS TOO! haha i will always remember what mr. yap told me "ai yar no hope like that..." i was pretty demoralised... i told him i might fail physics, and he said right back to me "fail, fail lor, no choice already, your physics is like that." so now MR. YAP! I PASSED physics! haha, hope he's proud of me, i put my all in my sciences you know... a real lot... cried so much as i was studying it too... and now i've passed both sciences! okay, so i maintained my chemistry, but hey i got a 5 for physics okay?! i improved from a 9 in prelims! Oilam guided me through too... thank you Lord...

now just don't talk to me about english and mathematics okay? those were my hopes of covering up for my sciences and chinese, and now WHAT?! i got Bs.... B!!!!! a B for english! i was praying so hard i'd get an A... so seriously, i have no comments, pretty sad about those subjects...

ah well here's my pride and joy... ahem, my HUMANITIES! ahhhhhhhhh i can jump off the building with joy! i actually got an A1!!! like never in my entire upper secondary life have i got an A1!!!! WOOHOOO!!! i never expected it, i would have been pleased with an A2, but an A1, oh gosh, pleasant surprise... God has truly blessed me... i studied my arse off for my ss, but erm lit er heh... on that exam day, i had both lit and math, so i was concentrating more on math, but see where math has led me?! grrrrr

okay that's the end... we'll see where the Lord leads me... =)

but somehow... it's kinda depressing... =(

she was too fidgety so i had to take hold her still between my legs while i snapped a shot...

she's teething, so she's biting this nylon string thing...

haha don't ask me what she's doing... mid jump...

ooo i love this photo! sweet

she's killing my green slippers!!

haha, i found a hat for her!

she's sleeping yet again...

awww....

=)

sleepy...

side view of pebbles

8th February 2006, Wednesday

yiiiiiiiiiiiiiaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

friday's the big day, it'll be a turning point in my life! it's the collection for the O level results... i had this terrible TERRIBLE, i repeat and emphasise, TERRIBLE nightmare last night...

do you know how the percentage passes are always announced right before you get your o level slip? yeah, i dreamt that this time, for physics, it's no longer 100% passes, it's 96.3! do not ask me how i came up with that number, but the point is, i'm that 3.7% who did not pass! and there's only so few people taking pure physics, i feel like i would know it's me if the number does not turn up to be 100% pass! the same goes for chinese... it'll probably 98.1% or something, and again that's me... i have to tell mrs. tan (my chinese teacher) if i failed or pass some more. i'm so going to run away from her and mr yap... i feel like a let down already, even before i've collected anything!

okay i'm going to stop my rubbish and start concentrating on what i want to do after the Os... sigh, i'm actually thinking of

JC/MI - chemistry, physics, maths, and lit, maybe chinese B
Poly - media, mass comunications or heh, tourism... sounds funny? sigh, i'm a confused kid with no goals, yeha i know it's bad, don't remind me...

well we'll see what happens next yeah? pray for God's blessings... i truly worked my hair off for physics and chinese... sigh... i'm kidna nervous for humanities and english too, cause i'm hoping they cover up for my weak subjects, but argh! do i really have that little confidence or am i being too pessimistic and negative?

okay cut! i'm going to study now... =)

Chinese New Year!!

wheee chinese new year is here!! haha, today was hilarious! my secondary school class 4a had decided to go back as a class to St. Hilda's for CNY celebrations. i heard that qashrul was the one who initiated the whole thing and that dear fella did not even go back! so anyway, initially, angel and i did not plan to go back as our parents do not allow us to skip school, BUT haha due to our charming ways (heh), we managed to weasel our way through the security guards, teachers, and HODs.

NAH, we actually got permission! here's the funny part. angel, jolene, may, junxian, jethro and me (my new classmates lar) wanted to get out of school real bad. we stayed for the performance til 9, but after that we did not want to join in with the activities. so we all trooped down to the back gate, but oh darn it! although it was not locked, it was chained!! -.- sigh... haha we contemplated climbing over the gate but heh, well we are ladies after all. there were even ideas of poisoning the guards, or putting laxatives into their drinks so we could sneak out as they rush for the loo! our school had also invited a "lion dance" troop to perform for us, so one joker suggested all of us hiding as storaways in their lorry! but the saner ones reasoned that it might take hours before the lorry actually moves out of school! haha junxian was cute! he said that "what if the lorry drives until don't know where, we wouldn't be able to find our way back!!" all of us went "DOTS! we just need to get OUT of school, the minute the lorry exits MI, we jump out! we don't travel with the lorry to its destination!!!" haha... so we continued scheming and brainstorming of ways we could get out of our jailhouse. we truly resembled jailbirds lar, the way we pressed our faces against the fence which blocks us out from the world outside... haha pathetic right... haha

aha! our home tutor was the answer, we told ourselves. thus we went over to ask mrs kuek to see if we could go back to shss, or rather, for angel and i only. jolene and may were going home, junxian had to go back to his bowen sch thing, and jethro, ohho jethro! haha, no idea what he wanted to do. he was super funny, he tried to find excuses to go home, starting with

1) headache
2) stomachache
3) goldfish died
4) grandmother's wedding (she's remarrying)

and ending with

5) going with a friend to his secondary school (mind you, both of them are from DIFFERENT secondary schools! haha)

well mrs kuek wanted to help us out VERY badly but she did not want to get any of us or herself into trouble you see, so angel and me thick skin went to ask the security guards posted at the front gate, if we could go out early. they told us that we needed a permission slip signed by our home tutor and a HOD. so again, we marched over to the general office and asked the clerk there if we could have a permission slip or something. haha thank our lucky stars! a HOD man was behind us (he looked like a technician lab helper, not a HOD!) and he allowed us to go back to our respective secondary schools! haha, we enticed him! nah, haha, we psycho him til in the end he gave in and said "okay lar, we want to encourage filial piety in MI, so since you all are so filial and attatched to yoru secondary schools, i'll let the 6 of you off." he walked us to the school gate to give the secuirty guards permission to let us off, and then others asked him if they could go off too! haha he was so funny. he told them "i don't know all of you arh, i only know 6 of them." haha hilarious!

the minute we got out of school, angel, junxian and i started running like the wind (haha exaggerating here) out of toh tuck rise to catch a cab outside. 3 of us got in and we made out way down to tampines st. 81. poor junxian had to follow us all the way there as we were in a rush. i was so excited i whipped out my handphone to call amelia immeidately. haha was so breathless but my, my heart nearly stopped when i heard her voice! okay, not so kua zhang lar, but i missed her so much! haha... throughout the ride, angel and i were laughing at how we got away with it all! the "early dismissal", and the way we fought to get it.

opps, too late. we then realised that we didn't have enough money to pay for the fare! haha, again we were ultra fortunate that junxian had money with him. vikNESH (he's always going around calling us anGEL and loiSA you see, haha) had given him 10 bucks and he had another 10 bucks of his own so whew! we had enough, but heh, angel still owes him a buck while i owe him 30 cents. pathetic... haha... the total cost was around 12 plus lar, each of us had to pay 4.50. it's like a ticket to enter SHSS's concert.

okay, so we stopped at the springfield bus stop, and we RAN, yet again, towards SHSS, with junxian panting behind us. haha, poor guy... well he wanted to see our school what... haha... first person we saw when we reached school? AMELIA! haha i've never loved her so much! we had a group hug, a bear crushing hug! haha... then we walked in as graduates of SHSS. haha dramatic isn't it? too bad we didn't have a fan club or something waiting for us. haha, okay i'm babbling again. hee

gosh so many familiar faces, friends, fellow school mates, juniors, seniors too, and teachers! haha, there was this homey cosy feeling as we walked up to the hall. sigh... i love SHSS. truly, once a hildan, ALWAYS a hildan. okay, i'm getting sappy here... anyway, the concert was still going on. it was this hildan superstar singing competition thing, and we got there just in time to hear song ren (at least i think that's his name) sing! wow he's good, made my heart melt! haha i could fall in love with a guy like that, although i didn't understand a word he was singing since it was in chinese... haha

okay to name a few people i met... ... ... hmmm i've decided not to. it's just too many! i saw nearly the entire sec 4 batch, joy a senior, juniors, councillors, mr. wong, mdm norhani, mdm wong, mrs. tan the libarian... wow haha... and when mr. yap saw angel and i in school uniform, he was telling us that we disgraced the school uniform as we were not wearing our name tags, school socks, and for me, the school tie. he pointed to my black shoes and went "you still wear black shoes some more... councillor! never wear tie HAI YO!" angel was diaoing him and i so wanted so badly to roll my eyeballs up but i didn't want to look rude and was afraid my contact lenses would drop out onto the floor. haha... met nic teo too... he told me some lame joke, as usual, then twirled me three times... seriously, i do think he's insane... =)

oh oh, i'm wearing contact lenses! ain't used to it yet! mum made me get them as my degree went up and it was advised that i wear lenses to lower my degrees before i go entirely blind! haha, i got it three days ago... heh i'm taking pretty long to get it onto my eyeballs... i woke up at 5am the other day, and i only got it in around 6.45am... haha was nearly late for school because of that... taking them out is much easier... all you've gotta do is practically peel it off the eyeballs... okay am i scaring you? it's okay... =) i'm scared of it myself. haha that's why i take so long to put it on. scary, but my chor lor nature helpes me take it out easily lar. haha...

okay back to topic. after school, kim, angel, amelia and i went to macs for lunch! angel and i were kinda broke (thanks to the taxi fare) so we used our EZ link cards to pay! haha oh then i had to rush home, as my trip back to buona vista is super long! sigh, we went our seperate ways, and i boarded the train towards "don't play" station. (boonlay i mean, it sounds like don't play right? i was a kid and doing my version of a pole dance, playing on the train, when the announcement was made. DON'T PLAY!! i thought the person making the announcements was scolding me, heh) yeah then angel called me and guess what? she met alvin (my orientation group member) and gang at tampines interchange. they're from dunman secondary school so i guess they wanted to visit their school too. by then it was 12 plus, haha, not sure who they're visiting... security guards maybe? haha...

well that's about it! louie's eventful chinese new year! haha... my friends have planned an ice skating outing... i'm afraid i'll fall down and break the ice or my neck! haha, we'll see... it'll be an experience though... wheeeeee cant wait! =)

happy chinese new year you guys! =)

turning into a lawyer

okay i've suddenly thought up of an amibition! haha, weird huh... i'm thinking of becoming a lawyer! haha, those criminal ones... hee... but it's a little scary, dealing with them. i wanna be a defender! =) my inspiration? haha the lawyer, madison, from tim green's books! haha! however, i just found out that in order to be applicable for that particular career, i have to get an A in GP (general paper), be real proficient in english and etc. i'm not sure about science, math and all those stuff, but i might as well do my best in those too yeah? well so basically i'm panicking, as i have slowly realised that my english is failing me. so... i'm back to my OLD resolution again. i'll do my best to write good english in my blogs, i hope. yeah, i wanna do well for GP! i'm going to read the newspapers as i read my novels and books... with ZEST and PASSION! haha, that was what my current lit teacher told my class. we need to have ZEST and PASSION to do well in literature! haha, so ZEST and PASSION it is for me. i can't imagine pouring over the newspapers, especially the main straits times section as it's the most unappealing part for me, but that i must do! i do't mind the home section but goodness, the MAIN one? it feels well... boring perhaps... but my GP teachers said that we must know our facts not only at an individual level, but also at a global level. louie, world news is for you! sigh... i have to change my habits now... =( read newspapers everyday, every section, all the time! haha

talking about newspapers, i'm considering journalism too! haha, i do not really enjoy the writing part, but it sounds nice, and something that i believe i can cope with, better than other careers. does that make sense?

okay i'm switching topics very fast. my mind thinks too much haha. my new cca, badminton! haha i haven't exactly signed up for it yet lar, but i'm all for it! haha, it would be cool to actually play badminton regularly now... =)

all these trend of thoughts make me remember something i learnt somewhere in school... a teacher told us something about one thought leading to many many thoughts... it was in literature i believe. she told us about a lady who composed a poem similar to this. a cloud of thoughts or something like that. i'm ashamed to say that i slept in her class. NEVER before have i slept during a literature period. i have always been wide awake during mrs. koh and mr. rashidi's lessons. somehow, this time i just couldn't seem to keep my eyelids open. i promise myself though that in future, i'll sit up real straight and be extremely attentive. haha =) i want to take literature at a H2 level!! not H1! sniff oh well nevermind. i'll stick with my current combination. i can always change it later! =)

friday the 13th!

haha wanqi and angel told me that friday the 13th is a black day, a dao mei day! haha it MUST be true after what we have been through today! allow me to explain...

i attended yet another group outing with my mi mates today. it was supposedly a bbq to celebrate two people's birthdays. namely, carmen, and benjamin. i'm not too sure if these outings are for cyrus one, or the whole of cyrus or something, but nevermind about that. just a thought. anyway, i arrived there pretty late, around 7 plus as i had to travel from music class in buona vista. the place was near MI, and i could actually take bus 173 from there -.- BUT i was told to travel all teh way to bukit batok, adn take 173 from the interchange. hai yo haha but nvm. it was an interesting though stressful ride. the train was darn crowded. oh ya, a mum asked her 5 year old kid what bukit batok was in chinese, and the little one answered with much confidence. i was so embarrassed that i myself did not know it! haha a five year old kid beat me to it! haha oh well...

anyway, basically, i arrived there at 7 plus. 2 guys met me at the bus stop. haha i had escorts! haha, nice of them =) nat, ting, and wanqi were already there in the house when i went in. we played with poker cards for a little while and then nat went home. the 3 of us left decided to help start the cooking as it was 8 plus by then and though everyone was hungry, no one was cooking -.- one fella told us "maybe you better start the cooking. it's okay if you poison us, cause if we don't eat now, we'll still die of hunger" haha it was pretty funny... so the three hopeless cooks tried to kick start the bbq by putting the grill onto the pit. haha we took approximately 20 minutes to do that? haha in desperation, we decided to call the boys who went out to jalan jalan. by the time they got back, we were already cooking the raw food. we were unsure whether they were cooked or not so we just trial and error lar haha. some food were erm, chao ta of course. hee but that's not the point

the point is...

argh! people were complaining and criticising so much! i mean come on, we're cooking for you, we had not eaten either too you know. if you don't want to help it's fine, but please do not ask "who cooked this shit" when everyone is hungry and yet you're not doing a thing! there were of course more comments on our bad cooking but nevermind, what's in the past, let's leave it in the past! =) i guess everyone was pretty frustrated then...

the most amusing thing was that we three girls walked out on everyone with attitude, or rather only wanqi lar. haha, ting and me were loking down all the time and muttering bye without sincerity, but wanqi is seriously the best! haha she dao-ed everyone! and as our msn nicks say....

PATHETIC us. eating puffs along e DESERTED roadside. we nearly got SMASHED by a reversing car and and ongoing car

haha the host's mum was real nice. she gave us three currypuffs to eat on the way home. =) so we walked to the bus stop, and we realised goodness, was it even a bus stop? there were no benches, no lights, no bars, haha just a piece of metal above our heads and a near invisible bus pole there! haha, we sat down on the road to eat our puffs, and again as the nick tells it, we nearly got knocked down, from both sides! on our right a car was going towards us, and on our left, a car was reversing! haha boy did we feel lousy and pathetic at that point of time. we were quite pissed off too so we lost our appetitie, but on the bus to clementi, we became tired and just didn't have anymore energy to be angry at anyone. we had drinks at a coffee shop in clementi and basically, joked and crapped a lot... haha well we had fun then yeah? oh and poor wei yao (mr. polar bear) tore his ankle ligaments... keep him in prayer! we were missing him like mad cause he would have made our day! haha

so i guess all in all, the whole outing wasn't a total black out right? =) we already planned our next chinese new year gathering.. haha or rather gatherings... we're gonna go visitation! haha... =)

combination

okay my combination is like wow... so non me... i'm taking chemistry, physics, and mathematics at h2 level, and literature at h1 level!! ahhhhhh... so scientific and sciency! haha well, we had chem, physics and math on the first day of lessons! i repeat FIRST day... haha... sigh, we didn't start on any physics but immediately we had chemistry homework. and math oh goodness kill me, just murder me... math was like piang! i was just copying, and copying and copying without understanding a thing! haha... terrible... have to revise again and again and over again in the hopes of understanding at least 10 percent. sigh... pray for me, i'm losing confidence and faith! =(

and now, we need a graphic calculator for math... i just smsed elisa, jami and june about it, but elisa hasn't even heard of it! ahhhh!!! and it's darn expensive lar.. it's 175 or 210 bucks can... imagine, if you drop it on the floor... bang! wah your heart will just stop... the worst part is that in poly, you don't need it! so it's such a waste if you purchase one and then decide to go to poly! sniff... it's quite tiring really... trying to decide on so many things now and gosh, i'm so scared! feel so hopeless... useless especially when the math teacher starts to talk... at least i can grasp chem, but math!!! sigh, i love angel that's all i can say... we shall pull through this together okay? =)

=(

a week in MI

MI's been interesting. we had a week of orientation! well cyrus one rocks to the core! haha i've got such a cool group!! although we were all ignoring each other during the first day (everyone was so shy!!), we made at least a friend too! okay, so we were forced too due to the icebreakers... haha, but subsequently we really had fun!

for the icebreakers we had to "get to know" the person sitting next to us. so i "got to know" benjamin! he's this really tall fella (and he knows it! will explain later), who is from st. joseph's institution... haha we asked a lot of irrelavant questions lar, such as shirt size, whether one likes to eat or not, and if one has any animals at home. okay that sounds so like my questions... well i was the one asking the questions mah. the shirt size was by our group leader. oh ya, his cca was canoeing, but he doesn't like to canoe. hmmm okay i guess... haha...

during break, i was standing at a noticeboard i school, desperately sms-ing and calling angel cause i was so lost! haha, and this girl, theodora was standing enxt to me, doign the exact same thing! ahah since she's in my group, we laughed and agreed that we might only be able to find our friends in the mi crowd next year! and then an angel appeared in front of me... ANGEL!!! haha i happily skipped off with her, then looking back, saw theodora still standing there, so i invited her along! make new friends! =) theo's nice... haha very sweet... kinda quiet and innocent, but great! must not forget this funny part. we were eating at the basketball court (it wasn't allowed but heh), and a hilarious incident occurred. there was this gigantic tree nearby, and this guy threw up another fella's sch shirt. it stuck there lar! they tried using a ball to push it out, and guess what? the ball stuck too! by then we were spluttering all voer our food. it was real funny! haha, then a saviour came along. this guy used a mere TENNIS BALL and one throw, the ball on the tree came loose. of course there was no hope for the sch shirt so leaders had to be involved together with bamboo sticks. haha funny man...

oh and i found a few of my pri. sch friends! haha one of them is amanda, who's in my group too! i totally did not recognise her, but she recognised me! aww so touched... i'm famous... haha! okay then came the games, mi dance, and the oh to goodness SOOO boring discipline talks and subjects combination talks... but i guess it's a neccessity...

ookay, i can't remember details and it'd be too long anyway so i'll just emphasise on my new found friends since that's what orientation is about. jovin, another girl in our group, started passing this book along asking for everyone's numbers and email adds. i remember her casue it's something i'd never dare to do. i'm too shy. i'd just look down and feel real akward. actually jovin's kinda shy too but we both don't know what made her do that.. but anyway it was great cause after that, we all got to know each other better! then there's jasmine, fadilah, michelle, wanqi (her name is together, haha she told me that), natalie, ting you, carmen, pamela (she joined our group on the erm, third day i think), and i missed out a few girls so sorry... i know who you are but can't remember your names! i apologise but i still love you guys! =) okay then there's obviously benjamin, alvin, felix, weiyao erm er... seriously, i think we can forget about the names lar arh... i can't remember a thing. give me faces anytime... =)

what else? okay, we had our first group outing on the 9th january. our group is a very enthusiastic one... haha... i actually heard about it from alvin, then i passed it on the jovin when she called me. the original plan was to go to plaza singapura to play pool, but somehow along the way, the plan changed to orchard taka, then to cineleisure, but still pool.

we ate at macdonald's first. there was a whole lot of fries left! haha so we played this numbers game. each time we lost, we had to eat 5 fries, and we kept giving the longest fries to that poor fella. haha had a good laugh. after that we went to change into home clothes as we were nto allowed into the game room in school clothes. goodness as some did not bring their casual clothes, we had to mix and match to help them out! haha i ahd to pass my school skirt off as a normal skirt! the minute we went in, the man went "oh erm half u is also not allowed" haha. wanqi told him that was not a school skirt. haha she was good! and yeah thanks, we looked small so we had to take out our ezlink cards to prove we're 17! -_- okay on to the game! oh the game was hilarious... haha, theodora and jovin left before the game started, but wanqi and i stayed behind. we took cue sticks, and realised they were longer than us?? haha heavy too... so well, we attempted to help our respective teams play, but of course we were of not much help. in fact i think we slowed them down a lot, thanks to the way our white ball continuously going into the holes... or better yet for my case, the ball flew right OFF the table, don't ask me how that happened okay... by then we were pretty hungry so off we went again to eat! haha, this time at mos burger... wah the guys can eat a lot! wanqi and i were kinda out of the circle so we stonned a little, very quiet. i lost my appetite cause it felt a little weird. in the end we did share a corn soup though. =) it was NICE! i'm going for the frozen strawberries next! hee...

okay time to go home!! majority took the bus home i guess, while a few stayed back to take erm neoprints. did i get it right? yeah.. that sticker picture thing... wanqi, alvin, me and another fella who's from cyrus one (i didn't even know he's in my group til today) went to sommerset station. since wanqi was taking the opposite train, the two guys adn me went off first. i couldn't decide whether to go back to buona vista, or back to tampines instead. (long story) at city hall, i was still thinking about it when alvin made me so kan cheong and told me i had to "decide now". so ookay! i went back to buona vista... haha it was nearer. he actually calculated the number of stations. buona vista - 9, tampines -11... he said two stops did not make a difference but well, haha. that concludes cyrus one's outing!! =)