Family and Babies

And yes, another random post. I'm obviously not studying eh.

Angel recently blogged about babies, and recent events has made me think about my own family, or rather my own family to be, or family to create.

A friend's marriage... Mrs. Koh's babies... Mike and Ken's talk about wives... Amelia's dream wedding date of 12.12.12... (which btw amelia, is approaching really soon)

I do want to get married, and i want kids, loads of them. Tiny little things that grow up into big horrors, but still the loves of my life.

I want a loving God-fearing husband, a beautiful marriage, happy kids, lots of animals roaming all around a HDB flat, and no maid.

I want to take care of my kids MYSELF. With my husband of course.

But i'm thinking, is that God's plan for me? Will i find a good man? Will my kids be raised right? Will they grow up and be spiritually strong?

Mike's afraid of marriage, cause he's afraid of seeing the same face for 24 hours for the rest of your life.

I'm afraid of... everything. -.- Childbirth. What you do BEFORE childbirth to get a child. What you do when you DO get your kid. How to maintain that relationship with husband and kids.

Oh yeah, getting back to amelia's dream wedding date, i realized i have one criteria before marriage. I'll have to date that fella for quite a while before enterting marriage. So bio clock ticking! Find someone. Date what, 2, 3 years? Then marry. Then get kid. STRESSED??

What on earth am i talking about?

I'll think about all these again when i get am financially independent. I think i'm starting to think too much. Cause i'm worrying about a job. Then i started to worry about future. My brain's gonna burst. It seems i'm slowly realizing how alone you are when you're done with studying. I mean, you just worry about grades. That's all. But when you graduate, OH MY GOODNESS. HOWW????

I so envy those who are still studying. All my peers just started their undergraduate studies. AND I AM GONNA BE DONE SOON. D.e.a.d