haha i'm back!

okay okay raq! haha goodness, yes finally i'm blogging again.. anyway today can you believe it? i got scolded by mr. chiang... for NOTHING... haha... during mornign devotion, i decided that it would be good to jot down notes and verses which are useful and good for reflection.. so i was happily doing doign doing.. but no one said anything.. later during pe.. mr. chaing came up to me and said i should be paying attention and should not be writing so vigorously during assembly.. wahhhhh.. oh well nvm.. hee oh ya, today pe was kinda of a flop too... like sigh.. i somehow doubt it's due to our short stature leh.. somehow.. the ball NEVER comes to us.. i repeat NEVER.... yes... angel, hui ping and me were like standing in the middle of NOWHERE, meaning EMPTY space.. like at the other end of the court, while everyone was congested at one side. yes, i really somehow don't think they cannot see us leh.. it seems to em they don't want to throw it to us? hmm.. nvm, i shall not be so negative. i shall put it down as kan cheong, then really cannot see... haha, maybe they believe that the "one-two, one-two" approach will help them score goals.. yeah i guess, but it leaves some of us out! NVM. =)

anyway, before pe was humanities.. sigh... mr. rashidi lost my literature notes! argh! yet he said he gave them back to me! cannot be leh, i'd have most definitely stuffed them into my lit file cause i'm this kind of kan cheong spider person.. yeah.. besides, angel who knows mroe about me than i know myself, said he didn't return anything to me! AND she sits right beside me! sigh, so for like an hour i had nothing to do lar. then the last hour.. haha.. kidna funny, mr. rashidi locked jonovan and jeremy inside the com lab! haha! i thought he locked people inside... angel said no, but when we looked back, we saw jeremy inside. was hilarious. haha, angel called after mr. rashidi but he ignored her and just continued walking on. haha i panicked and started using my hairband to try to get them out. haha then angel passed me her hair pin and we became the lock picking duo. anyway that should be about the end of my day.. can't remember anything much after that cause i was in a weird and feddupping mood...

ha! i haven't finished pinning on all my badges neatly yet! argh! and promotion and dedication service is fast approaching! YIKES! better get to work louie... no study first.. THEN start pinning til 4am again.. jsut make sure i don't drop my uniform into the toilet bowl again like the last time... sigh

ps: happy birthday ms gan! happy birthday to jeremy too!

ha!

happy birthday carol! haha hope you like your present.. though the colour combination is hmm.. not very you but nvm.

i just realised something.. i grew fat and TALL since june! never mind the fat but TALL! WOOHOO! you see, during the pbb camp in june, i could still wear my GB uniform.. but now arh.. my belt cannot even buckle, so i've gained weight! finally... and also FINAL FINALLY, i've GROWN. yes, my harsersash is too SHORT! haha, now i'm so happy to say the word short.. haha okay feeling a bit nonsense now.. effects of studying chinese... learn all the cheng yus until i think i'm gonna have nightmares

pbb

okay today we received the results that everyone received the pbb title thing. actually i was thinking that everyone would get it but ah well... nvm. should have betted. haha... anyway not the point. i feel that i OUGHT to be like SOOOOOOOOOOO excited... but i'm only excited which feels funny somehow. and i realised i used to have time to walk around the house practicing salutes and marching in my bedroom last year. but now, i ahve so little time to do that! the little time i have, if i don't talk to my parents who seem VERY the unresponsive nowadays (communication is important okay!), i'll blog and read raq's blog, and whosever's for that matter. it makes me feel good in a way cause i know that i'm studying harder than i've ever did before, but i feel so tired. now when i get home from school i feel like a stone fish. in the night i'm a kan cheong spider, but by 9 plus, i feel so dead... so pooked!

oh and i made a decision just now. i have decided to write nicer english posts in order to improve my english. since i have so little time, i use my blogging time to practice english! haha... erm but that's starting from tmr okay? not today... sigh just finished 2 math papers and 1 physics paper... i feel like a pufferfish... weird.. i msut be getting fishy... oh well, i'm also ain't too sure what i'm talking about now... haha..

PS. Juli! where's our blog arh? i've been typing all sorts of urls just to find it but it's not working... haha

carol, happy birthday tmr! will pass you your present tmr... =)

story

One night a man had dream. He dreamt that he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happens at the lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him so he asked the Lord about it.

"Lord, you said that once i decide to follow You, You would walk with me throughout the way. However, i have noticed that during the most troubled times of my life, there is only one set of footprints. I do not understand why You would leave me all alone then. "

The Lord the replied, "My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you. " =)

that's really sweet eh? it's true you know.. He will never leave nor forsake you.. there's a verse somewhere about it right? gotta find it... =)

haha

something weird happened today. was kinda funny actually now thinking back about it... i went to seek help for chinese from mdm li dong mei... then arh, she told me that actually she taught that i was pretending about my asttocious chinese during GB. like whenever she talks in chinese i would siam or speak some funny chinese back to her. she taught i was playing! probably playing a fool. very funny arh. why woudl i bluff and pretend my chinese is poor? if it really is good, i'd be proudly prouting it by now. haha kinda funny. no wonder she was more patient with me today. now she finally knows the truth about louie's chinese. i feel a bit uncomfortable in school actually. teachers' eyes roll round and round in their head...some of their mouths turn downward and their lips curl cruelly... and they seem to taunt me about chinese. they shake their heads in disgust and mutter about teenagers these days losing their roots! (okay fine, i'm exaggerating... suddenly felt like doing a paragraph on descriptive essay. haha... but the eyeball part is true) most teachers smile sympathetically though. but i don't want that. i don't want anything. i just want HELP. and no chinese teacher seems to have the time! nvm, louie will do what she can, and God will take care of the rest! =) okay shall stop about chinese.

on to pbb! haha, finally i decided to heck with everything. just ask ms gan about pbb! so i smsed ms gan and she argh! goodness.. like so cute like that... told me "soon you will find out". i was like hopping all over my room. i actually kinda asked on behalf of aud... she seems dying to know. haha i admit i'd lvoe to know too... but i wasn't really willing to "waste" my sms.. but nvm. oh then i called audrey on her hp about it. but she seemed so angry goodness. i can only hope that she sounded angry because she was sleepy, or she was studying. she even hung up on me before i could finish talking. very cool. sigh... sometimes audrey does things like which kinda makes me feel uncomfortable. nvm. aud's still my aud. =) anyway, pbb letter is coming in either tmr or thurs.. hee! shall wait for it... i don't feel kan cheong though... funny... now maybe all the waiting has caused the anxious effect to be lost.. oh well.. tmr i'll be excited i guess... haha

sigh...

you know? i was actually beginning to get used to my chinese.. cause i know i can do better the next time. no way is louie from nui ren brigade ( i've GOT TO learn the chinese word for it) giving up! no way san hosea!

anyway as i was saying.. i WAS quite okay with it.. but maybe nearly the WHOLE school is hmm... showing a bit TOO much concern? like you know, i don't mind the people i know, knowing about my chinese... but i kinda feel funny about EVERYONE knowing about my chinese.. yeah.. i feel kinda funny. maybe i'm paranoid or something but it looks as if everyone is talking to em as if i'm going to become a fountain any time, or that i'll jsut break and melt away. very funny people! sorry, no show for today. show's over. i don't care. i'm just gonna do my best and glorify Him. ha! maybe another day yeah? same time same place... oh goodness i'm begining to become crappy again... sigh...

no actually i'm kidding myself. if people would start remidning me about chinese, i'll stop becoming paranoid, and i'll be fine! =) when i'm learning chinese or if there are chinese lessons, i'll jsut concentrate and do well. jsut don't remind me of chinese when i'm happy please! it'll crumble that fragile wall of security around me! okay let's not talk about it anymore. i have confidence... but not THAT much yet yeah? =)

oh ya, avril gave a letter today encouraging me about my chinese. that was so sweet lar... godnes felt like crying. haha... i just feel so touched when juniors come up to me with a small word or two you know? i don't know... it just feels like hey! the love is going both ways! we're a family! the old ones care for the younger ones, the young ones encourage the old ones! ha... actually truthfully, i feel funny sometimes when i think about it. when i was free last year, i wrote mass letters last year to like almsot the whole coy lar... but i realised... it's kinda not reciprocated.. haha there's such a word right? my mind isn't thinking properly.. in fact, i don't qutie understand what i'm saying right now.. thoughts are too jumbled up. oh well... i shall end up with the same thing.. study hard people! you can get only so many chances! do it right the first time and be a testimony to others! =) God bless ya

hmm

i've realised i'm not as strong as i hoped to be. i'm having my break from physics papers now. after i did them i was quite pleased because i feel i can pass my physics but then i realised i may not score. from there i thought about my chinese and the fact that i failed my oral too. so now i'm wondering, where do i go from here? i hate it when funny negative thoughts come into my mind. makes me feel as if the devil is pulling me away from God and i'm letting it happen. i don't know how to stop it. maybe i do, but in the night, in the dark, it's like more lonely, there's no more light, it feels.. scarier somehow... and images play on your mind. for my case, horrible thoughts. i've torn up one packet of tissue paper. i'm so angry... but then i stopped being angry, and i started crying, which made me all the more angry. oh how i hate crying. makes me feel so lost. oilam gave me some chinese books. made me cry more. i feel like a fountain. yuck. i'm afraid i won't have the motivation to strive hard for the second one. hate it hate it! no hate is too strong a word. i find myself getting more... ji dong. i didn't use such words before. now it scares me. the more i get scared, the more panicky i become, the more i become ms watery, the more i get more fed up. it's a cycle. can't stand cycles. hmmm...

i'm going to youth service tmr with juli... hope raq is going too... maybe i'll pray then... i guess what i'm afraid of most is losing that faith

chinese o level

okay that's it! this has been a wonderful wake up call. i'm quite thankful about it too. decided to be positive about it. it's God's test for me. i am going to get at least a c6 for my second chance at chinese.. if not, c5... i CAN and WILL get it. i am determined to. today s few of us flooded the toilet. couldn't stop the darn tears coming.. hate crying at school. felt as weird as i did when the gb girls cried in school once. NVM. cry once over. chinese here i come! i'll take you on!

do not fear, for I am with you
do not be dismayed for I am your God
I will strengthen you
I will help you
I will uphold you with My victorious right hand
Isaiah 41:10

after carmen returned my bible to me today, i started turning to the bible and reflecting on all i've done for chinese. decided i can do better. yes, i am not just ms english. i am ms singapore (bilingual). haha nah, starting to talk a bit of nonsense here. oh well nvm. gonna study now. see ya! =)

ps bhavna! =) we have big plans for mt yeah? let's hit the road! yenny! hmm not quite sure what happened but nvm, if it's the exact same thing what we've been through, then keep your fighting spirit up and get through this! =)

thinkers

you know.. i got so tired of seeing the same post in hoi shek's blog for goodness how many umpteen years... so i asked him to update it today since he's so free and basically decomposing at his com... and he goodness did what.. started thinking for hours on end, took centuries to type.. so exasperating... sigh... i realised when people are bored.. they like to think. think about life, it's meaning, governments.. national day... studies.. blah blah blah... but he a bit out of the box leh... TOO out fo the box.. out of the universe liao.. but nvm.. continue to update k? have fun! =)

national celebrations in school!

haha, today was one hella crazy day! a dirty and well, stinky one too... basically on the night of 7th august, i was feeling weird and soft. so decided to write letters to my frends! haha,a fter all i've been oweing them their replies for like erm.. months? terms? haha... i tried to be creative and attmepted to fold the notes into stuff like angels (angel), flower (kim), bird (amelia). but of course everything had to backfire and they all pretty much look like ordinary triangles. kim's one turned out to be a slanted box. oh well. i tried.

okay anyway, school was lunatically insane! i did turn out in my nat camp shirt. haha, met eileen on the way in and she passed me a present. so sweet! gave her a giant hug. did i mentiona she's pretty small? hey i am too. okay i get it. oh and before i could think, audrey and sam came running over and started doing something funny. for one moment i thought they were going to strip me. they made me a birthday tee! haha.. actualyl it was for sam's birthday but don't know what happened.. haha.. it was really great! but erm, a bit hot arh. thanks aud, sam, raq, sun and juli!

oh, then after that, angel and amelia were weird. they kept asking me "to go with kim and valda.. there there there!!! " so right... okay hmm.. THEN I SAW FOOD! haha cake! haha, blueberry.. too bad wasn't green berry or green bean.. haha but thanks guys! really nice! ahhh, then they just HAD to sing a birthday song.. they just HAD to.. but nvm.. it was this angel.. this ANGEL.. who had this amazingly bright idea to smash a plate of whip cream on my face... yes fantastic. emily was kind and gave me some on my hand first. but i didn't what they were trying to do. i thought maybe i was to eat cake with teh whip cream on my hand? before i could another thought, i found whip cream and foan on my back, hair, face, inside my shirt, on my skirt.. EVERYWHERE! yes thank you.. somehow it didn't quite fit a facial of any kind. so i went to the bathroom with angel to wash my face, but even the shower was against me. the minute i switched it on, the whole shower WHOOSH, and i was bathing! flooded the whole toilet. then had to go to the general office to borrow a skirt. hai ya so mah fan. (oh psst, i managed to get some ship cream on angel and kim/emily too. mostly on angel. hee) amelia was slightly sick... poo thing... hey if youré reading this now.. are you feeling betetr? hee =) Fop was great eh? next year let's go.. and please brush up on your directions. haha, okay i shall too.

well all in all, angel and me both stunk of hmm.. vomit? yeah.. so we couldn't stand it and kept hoping the hall programme would finish fast. after that we cheong home already. hee thanks everyone! ( kim, emi, val, jia min, professor crazy -maggie, lian, angel and amelia! haha weirdest birthday i've ever had but the most fun. 16 is old huh ) have fun everyone! =)

thoughts for today...

morning devotion on 5th august 2005

destress
depressed
definat

these 3 are the attacks from the enemy

it is tiring to hate. today's generation are leaders of tomorrow and they will not be exiled.

okay, anyway, today was spring cleaning day. and a touching day. haha, i was clearing my room and goodness you won't believe how many lost items i found! under the bed lar, behind my cupboard, between the walls and drawers... etc. i even found erm, some food, but well... so i sweeped, moped, and vacummed my WHOLE room! you can't believe how tiring it was. well anyway, found a lot of notes as well. thsoe small small notes from gb girls, friends, neighbours... the whole wide world! well let me go down the list

every GB girl wrote the sec 4s a small note for our farewell thing... super super touching! i was reading every one and couldn't stop sniffing. they're my family! =) esther squad - they've the best group anyone can have! thank you foe encouraging me throughout all those squad duties and stuff. haha, we did good. we learned yeah? pris and debbie! you're now the leaders of the squad.. hope i've taught you guys something! i believe in you guys! the dear sec 2s and 1s... support the sec 3s yeah?

publicity committee - noticeboard and photo boards and newsletters are your babies. take good care of them!

34th!!!!!!!!!!!!! you rock shi tou! =) da da de shi tou! hee

girls! as in erm, amelia, angel, emily, jia min, kim, maggie, wei lian and valda! without you people, my life would be well... hmmm... clumsy and miserable. okay this is too mushy but anyway love you guys! =)

neighbours! hmmm... well love your neighbour as you love yourself eh? and guess what, i love myself very much so go figure... =) shouldn't be so tough

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm in a happy mood! God has truly blessed with with a loving family, great friends, wonderful seniors and juniors, and caring teachers plus officers! love my world. so louie has now decided, i'll give back to God what he had blessed me with. i shall study hard for His glory. whatever turns out in the end, it's the best i have done, so i just pray i'll continue to be motivated and hopefully, be a testimony to others... everyone out there! God loves you! haha

i'm just gushing out here lar... but anyway yup! happy national day! oh ya, i don't have any red shirt.. sigh.. guess i have to wear my national camp shirt! sigh haha

FOP!!

Fop was greaat! haha, well basically everything was a big mad rush at first. after school. rushed through lunch and ran upstairs to class for english oral practice. oral was nonsense, pure nonsense. it was about national day, and i was just sprouting thigns that had absolutely nothing to do with national day. and then on to the conversation. i couldn't even register the topic, or what mdm norhani was talking about. bah. oral phobia. and my oral's like on thursday lar! sigh... okay anyway, mdn norhani gave up on me and told me to do it another day... so i flew down the stairs, ran for the silly 293 bus which seemed to accelerate faster the more i ran, anyhow cooked my maggie, then satrted calling ans sms-ing the whole world to tell them meeting time and palce. crazy... elisa, sam, aud, shawn, and juli... silly juli.. haha... nearly went crazy with her... she was changing and i was bathing... both of us were on the phone.. haha... in the end we gave up, decided to just hang up the phone and call each other back later. haha, ah well, our original plan didn't quite work out and we realised we were running late, so our impromptu back up plan was to take a cab down to the kallang mrt staion.

FINALLY, juli and i are on our way. in between we started squabbling. haha, juli told the driver to go to kallang stadium. -_- i started yelling that it was kallang MRT station. so okay. we WERE on our way there, when don't knwo what happened, we were on our way to the INDOOR stadium. sam called me and jacintha walled juli at the same time, so everything was in a mess. in the end, we just headed straight to kallang mrt staion. and then what happened? when we reached there, we realised raq, rebecca and carol were not there yet. BUT jami rushed us into a cab to go to indoor stadium. juli adn i were like bah bah bah the whole way, we should ahve gone striaght to indoor stadium. haha so funny. juli was like scolding me the whole way haha. but then in the cab, we forgot all about it when sam started on ricky. she arh, quite funny... poor him. haha oh well. but she was like a pro.

ah, then we went to the east gate. hears ricky, abel, emlia and gang were all at north gate! bah but nvm. haha... we were so totally squashed at the stadium lar. all sat on the floor. only juli had well, erm, a bit of a problem lar eh? haha. so well, we split up and half of us stayed to queue, while the otehr half went to buy lac. (dinner). but they were stuck below and couldn't come up! haha, raq so funny, she sneaked up, like a fugitive like that. following was rebecca! haha, all so cute. well finally, 34th reunited! =)

okay then in the stadium, amelia and i were like trying to find each other, but we were both blind. i stood up and waved like a lunatic yet it didn't quite help. sigh... 2 blind mice named amelia and loisa... tried to look for ricky too but bah, everyone looked the same in the there... oh ya, then ms gan and me lee arrived. haha, my whole batch kinda tried to look at her, trying to hint for our pbb results, bit in the end it didn't work. haha...

okay i'm kinda tired of typing but basically it was at. God's presense was truly there and it was the first time i spoke in tongues! MY FIRST TIME! i was practically screaming in sam's ear. then that juli kept wanting to jump until i was so tired... haha... we walked a long long long way out of the indoor stadium okay. we met charmaine, ee ling and thiam along the way. then we went home. sigh, by the time i arrived home, it was like 12.30am... haha felt so hungry.. sigh... jsut heard that raq went for the fop today again.. sigh.. power seh she! haha ohw ell i'll end off here.. quite tired.. i think i'll scream if this post doesn't go through...

3rd august 2005

okay today i loved raq so much... she wrote me this letter thing ahhh so sweet! haha, couldn't help giving her a giant hug.. and a group hug from sam aud and me! haha, you see i was feeling a bit down today as i failed my enlgish compre... it's never nice to fail anything right? but it's okay.. i can always do better the next time. oh ya, then jolene saw my note and i came to a sudden realisation... notes are something special... a little something from well.. raq to me! all for me! gosh i was so touched lar... thank you raquel! =) and i heard her talking about devotion adn recreation.. wah so busy like that... haha, we both agreed not to touch anythign and concentrate on our studies for His glory... hee

okay then in school, i had this ntoe passing session thing with angel and a few others. we went crazy.. drawing pictures and stapling everything in sight... and i don't care what you say angel, my cow does NOT look like a submarine. so there! and you amos! fop is on thurs fri and sat! haha, elisa told me so. i was actually going to laugh at him and told him he cna go by himself when he told me he's going on sunday... but in the end the tables turned and he told me this time, I could go by myself on thursday... fed up

ah yes, and i walked home with jemima today! haha.. she was so eager beaver when she told me she lost 3 kg.. haha, so cute. you should hear the way she weighed herslf. her motto - "everything take out so i would be lighter! off with the shoes, wallet and watch? socks? that too mr. sham!" haha.. was laughing so much... okay yes yes jemima, we'll go jogging soon. with bhavna too! what are jogging partners for? haha

well see you all around! will pray for all of you and the exams k? God bless! =)

ps. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAO HUI! =)

sigh

you know, after talking to raq about how we feel kinda weird with the sec 1s, and how it's cometimes hard to talk to them... i suddenly realised it about the sec 3s too...! like after not being in GB meeting and no more poking and no mroe LITERALLY PHYSICALLY working with them... it's like suddenly ties are cut off. i don't know.. maybe it's my mind haha.. the effects of studying... study too much.. brainwashed... nutty nutty fruity nutty! i must have also ate too many fruit bars... i love them okay.. kinda sweet but filling also. convenient to bring around.. it's so small lor. only problem is that it's kinda crumbly... so all the crumbs always drop everywhere... and i mean EVERYWHERE.

i'm beginning to feel funny again... well don't think too much. think about fop! quite excited.. fop's coming soon. i know for sure juli, raq and sam are going. sze ern too! perhaps zhi yin! haha, i'll ask jolene tmr when i meet her for lit. i'm teaching her lit! cool huh? maybe it'll help to improve my lit too.. then maybe if i train her hard enough, she can do o level style of lit for her sec 1 work! haha, nah that's a dream.. cannot push too far lar...

i KNOW i have something important to share... but i just can't seem to remember it. and that worries me more. if i cannot remember a simple thing like that, how am i supposed to review notes for all my subjects in school? how how HOW???!!! okay no panicking.. trust in the Lord your God with all your might, all your soul and all your mind. is there a "with all your strength" some where? or am i getting the verse mixed up with "my life, (LIFE!), is in You Lord my strength, (STRENGTH!), is in You Lord my hope, (HOPE!), is in You Lord in You, it's in You, IT'S IN YOU! =) hee love this song... =)

i just figured out my life!

as the title shows, i've made a fascinating discovery on my character! i was eating tim yam noodle and was practically dying of thirst and spiciness when i had a brainwave! or a spicy wave... well now i understand myself! the reason why i poke my little fingers into the many chicken puffs or curry pies around me is that i like to solve problems and be done with them! there's the satisfaction that you have helped out in doing away with annoying thorns that stand in one's way! that's why i go around with my nose in other's busines.. it's not exactly to the entent of k p o... but more to the border of over doing it... if that makes sense.. am i making sense at all? i hope so, cause it was so clear to me during my noodle eating.. it's nice to help.. but maybe i'm helping too much? spoonfeeding? and while i was in the loo and reading today's newspapers.. i had another thought. i may not only be spoon feeding them, but i may be annoying them too? perhaps they'd like to do it themselves, but i'm not giving them the chance? life's questions eh? sounds so psychological.. hmm.. psychological warfare perhaps...

oh and this branched out when i thought about discipline (GB) and games day (council). hah! there's this rule that the girls'are not allowed to wear the gb uniform in shopping malls and etc, but i ain't too clear on the reason. and i was only reminded of this when i saw the sec 3s' ndp meow meow print whatever thing. so you see, i'm sticking my figners into their pie again? oh goodness when will i ever learn? i can't even differentiate between sticking and helping.. sigh.. and for games day, i was trying to think of a suitable nice date for the councillors to hold their games day.. but then again i realised.. i was never really in the council family.. it's was weird enough that suddenly i did this bonding games day thing.. and besides, i've stepped down. the thing has been handed over to shawn, or bundit, or the exco, or whoever. so basically, i'm out of council... if i was ever in anyway.. i feel weird about council sometimes you know.. like yeah, i'm wearing the tie and balck shoes.. but everyone's somehow out... not like a big family similar to GB.. i feel comfortable with ANYONE in GB... but not in council.. it's just... weird! hmm.. nvm.. i shall think about it and perhaps eat another cup of maggie noodles.. maybe then i shall find my answer... hee =) i'm thinking too much really.. i should be studying.. i've done my revision for today so i guess i'll go to my wonderful la-la land now.. night everyone! =)

cell group dinner

wow i had such a nice dinner today! haha so happy... nice nice food! haha.. today daddy left for seoul so dinner was just mummy and me.. well anyway, cell group's on tuesdays, but it's just for the adults, and mummy was invited to the newest member's house for dinner.. leaving me all alone! haha, but it's okay.. mummy was nice, she brought me along. actually all the children went along.. except that moo fella... we're both pretty much the oldest there.. then that shaun pang seh me lar... very smart... in the end.. i babysat all the kids there and brought all of them home. and guess what, the second oldest kid there who's pri. 4.. she's 153cm.. goodness.. she was bigger than me and it looked as if SHE was walking ME home.. ah well.. i played babysiiter today and went from block to block ensuring all of them went home... but nvm.. the dinner was good. it was some curry fish head thing and steamboat! haha, ate so much crabmeat i'm feeling a bit crabby now.. sigh... so satisfied.. but i can bet you i'll be hungry later.. hee can't wait to eat! hee =)

oh ya i nearly forgot... i got a new stationary box and two magnets which are totally not magnetic at all lar... today was... interestingly sleepily fascinating... we were having assembly.. i was erm falling asleep.. at the LAST part only.. i emphasise, at the LAST part, meaning i was good for the first half. well anyway, i woke up when they were announcing the nkf thing... haha, angel represented our class! hahahahaha... was like laughing so happily cause she was so blur... she was sleeping too.. (at least i woke up faster than her hee) yup, and she went up to collect her prize... lalala... then there was the overall nkf champion thing... mrs leong announced that the fella was from 4 a... i thought it was angel! i was like poking faces at angel and gearing everyone up to clap and cheer and embarrass her or something.. in the end it was louie! thanks to GB and council camp.. took all the pictures and used them for the nkf thing... (ndp, christmas charity item, council camp, my pet bird ditto) hee.. not abd eh? as i said above, i won a purple stationary box (not green!) and 2 magnetic motivational stuff that cannot magnet anything lar, so in the end, i used scotch tape and banged them onto my wall. yup.. nice! =)

ps. thanks angel for the rabbit stickers! super sweet.. though they're pink... i always thought sticker rabbits are either white or browm! not pink! haha... but thanks.. oh yah, there's the frog sticker too! haha.. thank you! =) love them!

picture!

jami and me!

i have no idea when this was taken but ah well.. haha.. she said it was in school... i seriously cannot remember... hmmmm ah nvm.. haha nice! =)

poems

elisa actually sent me this poem a while back... but anyway, here it is! =)

its all a mess
without a doubt
compression, squashed up
brain juice squeezed
just want to release everything
fast furious
harsh words
meaningless at times
frustration
admiration
jealousy....probably
what to do, when to do it
advice, time spent waiting
wanting it
blue, black, yellow, purple
all but red
peace admist is hard
solace in trouble
love in hatred
light in darkness
silence

haha, now this is the one i came up during lesson time.. erm, during math... haha

once a fellow met a fellow in a field of beans
said a fellow to a fellow
if a fellow asks a fellow
can a fellow tell a fellow
what a fellow means?

why field of beans? well hey don't blame me. i was trying to find something which rhymes with means... anyway beans makes one sounds kinda dense right? after all if a fellow can use the word "fellow", that fellow shoudl know what a "fellow" means right? uh it's just a poem anyway... the things a math lesson can inspire to do.. haha.. we were going through statistics and cumalative curves btw.. haha... i was getting sick of the curve ruler as it wasn't curving my way. the only way i could control it was if i held one end down with my foot and the other with my left hand, the middle with my chin, THEN i could use my right hand to draw the curve... contortionist eh?

founders' day

wheeew! today was founder's day! haha we were all released at 10.15 am so we could go home and rest. since we did not have recess, i was as usual very hungry so i had to eat lunch, or breakfast, or just anything! when i got home, found mummy still sleeping so i went to cook instead. hee, made somethign really cheapo and easy. cambel soup! with beaked beans amd bread! haha... it's enough for mummy cause she doesn't eat much since her operation, but i knew i'd still be hungry... especially since i have to be in school again at 3.45 and we would not get to eat dinner til after the parade! therefore when sam called me, i decided to make maggie noodles to eat, to last me through the parade. haha... oh ya, regarding the parade, i was actually not in it, then i become the reserve, then the rerserve of the reserve, and now judith's boots were stolen, so i went into the parade. pretty cool huh, how my role changed within 3 days.

ah yes anyway, when i went to school, i found the girls in the d and t washroom. they were all changing already okay! i panicked and went to work. then this jami sprayed sam's and my hair.. supposed to be 6 inches away she prayed right to out scalp lar. (no wonder later our hair had turned to ice and couldn't move even a bit -_-) okay anyway after that, it seemed we had miscalculated all our time so we were behind every other uniform group. we rushed like siao okay! no time to do discipline and stuff, we had to go and fall in at the front gate liao. goodness kia nang leh. we were all like dehydrated there. kept drinking and drinking and drinking... haha.. bottle after bottle, we sucked it all out... hee

okay well now on tp the parade itself. when we went in, gosh it was super nice lar! woohoo! felt so united so nice! =) but erm hmm.. when we pandan that time.. erm not quite sure what happened lar arh, but after that all our arms all sala... but nvm! the point is to learn and be betetr next time eyah? the sec 1s were good liao, to be able to learn so fast! good job too sarah for the erm.. timing though in the end we didn't hear anything but nvm yeah? and SAM! you're the best man! aud too! thanks for training the contingent and all yes? there was lots of frustrations and erm, weird miscommunications too but that's where we can do better and learn from mistakes! hee... not bad not bad.. can't wait for the next one! for now, let's study til we drop! hee.. but aud, slow down a bit k? too much ain't too good for you too! =)

okay then raq sam and me went for dinner. raq brought us to this fish and chips place to eat. not bad! haha, very nice! thanks raq! oh ya, then we had to rush back to school as we suddenly remember about discipline. we ate a little in school too.. haha, free buffet! =D yup, then sam and i had to leave, so we walked out (wanted to collect donations but teachers seemed so busy so heh, nvm), but mr kwok caught us! haha so funny, he was quite insistent! haha, he told us thee's a lot of food so please eat. he ESCORTED us to the buffet table lar.. haha quite funny, he was like watching us to make sure we ate. haha, but int h end, sam and i escaped when something else caught his eye. Outside school, i remember that sam and raq had won the gb award thing.. cool eh? so i started congratulating sam on it... then alamak! remembered that i ahd not congratulated raq yet! so again, sam and i walked back into school. haha, luckily we met raq walking out so i congratulated her and we all went our separate ways. sigh.. a truly satisfying day.

HOWEVER, today i woke up with a backache, headache, arm ache, leg ache, ai yar everything ache lar. i guess i deserve it as i haven't had pe and have not been exercising. first day of pe had GB day, the next week was sec 3 camp so pe teachers were not around. next monday arh, it's my check up alr, i think i will not be exercicing for one whole month lar arh. oh well. GB girls! please rest k? don't want all of you to be walking like some fragile ah ma in school.. hee..

Thank you Lord for making founder's day a success and for giving us great weather. in Jesus' name i pray, Amen! =)

20th july 2005

i'm seriously running out of titles. usually one would write about his or her day right? so what kind of title can there be other than "today" ? that would be kind of boring right? either that or i have no imagination so i'll just stick to the stuffy method of writing dates instead. anyway today was a weird day.... graceful here graceful there... during recess my silly fish floss thing kept flying everywhere.. amelia never laughed so much in her entire life put together i believe. (psst! first time i've actually heard SOUND from her laughter okay!) anyway, i'm getting quite tired of angel and amos. these two arh, can just kill everyone around them lar. the way they argue and scold and debate arh, makes no sense lar. i say one word, or rather OPEN my mouth to comment on something they shoot like an essay of paragraphs lar. in the end i'm so tired it's like just forget it. they argue until makes no sense, then they say they win. okay, whatever they say, if it makes them happy. haha

well angel and i stayed back today with the prospect of actually "asking mr yap physics questions" in mind, but anyway mroe of that later. the point is, i've been talking to my GB juniors quite a bit, and i've had founder's day and stuff, so angel's pretty mad at me for not spending time with her. so she devised this revengeful plan during lunch. we bought this fries thing from the canteen, i put a LITTLE bit of chilli in mind, but i couldn't tahan the spicey-ness, so i went to the water cooler in the hope of cooling myself down. goodness knows what happened, i came back and saw my fries practically drowning in chilli can, like chilli-ed tsunami... i nearly died finishing those fries lar! and that angel happily sat there laughing and drinking water herself! no alr, she gave me some also lar, but she was gleeful. that i am sure of. word of advice... NEVEr, and i mean NEVER agitate angel. the consequences are disastrious. believe me.

ah eys, so we FINALLY landed up outside the HOD WAITING for mr yap from like 2.32 to like 3 can. we found him in the meeting room, and mr philip advised us to show our faces at the window, then maybe he'll remember about poor us waiting for him. SO, we did! we plastered out faces to the window, and flapped our arms like some lunatic chicken in distress, but they totally couldn't see us can. i mean we're not that short bah fed up

okay so we landed up at the library.. as usual.. that's pretty much our sanctuary.. so anyway, we had a good talk outside the HOD room and we continued in the library... cool eh? but anyway, ask me no questions and i tell you no lies... see ya! =)

racial harmony day and chinese listening comprehension

you know i actually typed out one VERY nice, long ad detailed post about today.. every event, every discussion and blah blah... but erm, i think i was doign too many things at the same time on the comptuer so it hung, and i couldn't recover my dear post. well i shall do like a 160 word summary here...

Racial harmony Day - an exciting day, a colourful day... very cool. there were kimonos, adn quasrul had this funny southy arabian thing... plus a fake beard! well a shrub of it alr.. but it was funny all the same... very cute. suanned amos quite a lot during a maths, and then i walked angel off to erm, the second storey to say bye! then i went off for my GCE O level listening compre

Listening - scary! totally scary... but sam made me laugh, she made me feel all better. amos was on my right ( what did i do to deserve that? it's traumatic sitting within one 5 metres of him.. hee, it's nice teasing him), and jean was on my left! so sam told me that if i wanted to copy answers, i MUST turn to jean instead of amos as he'd get all the wrong answers. haha, how true isn't it? =) well i prayed before the listening and after again... but before the listening started, this orchestra thing was playing some symphonies.. almost feel asleep.. haha... but anyway it's over yeah.. thank goodness

ps: pearlyn jia you! don't quit before you have even started!

bah bah black sheep

argh argh i feel so annoyed nowdays! what's wrong? or do i expect too much... ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... cannot tahan... maybe i'm too picky... or fussy.. the problem is i don't even know if it's me, or that i have a right to feel super annoyed and piqued. i better drink water.. water is good.. it calms people down

do you like sometimes feel as if you're doing everything and no one is doing anything? you keep reminding and people keep forgetting.. and the problem is your job is not to remind BUT you just can't help yourself but remind just to get the job done faster, and because the actual reminder is not reminding, but forgetting too! does that make sense?

now i'm talking to carol.. and it's kinda sad... she's having the same experience as me.. first time i feel so connected to her.. like she's the second bigger version of louie... fed up! this cannot be right.. it's so not louie... maybe i'm not louie anymore.. i'm loisa now... sigh.. what am i saying??

anyway, just spoke to ms gan. shes's what sunshine would calls tower of strength. very calming... haha... gotta meet yvonne soon to collect discipline books... sam... hai ya.. sad right? nvm. like what raquel says.. pray... and He will make all things right in His own time

GB DAY!

you know.. i was kinda dreading this day.. it was exciting at first cause for this year, our whole batch was together and doing you know.. SOMETHING.. like flags.. commanding... contingent commanding.. it's like so cool! but i'ts scary too... i thought audrey would be standing with me.. goodness i almost died when i realised it's like i'm one man show.. thank goodness the contingent was supporting me. i so lvoe them can! thank you sarah too! she kept consoling me before i fall-ded in.. sigh.. love her so much. was a bit stressed up at first... cause i woke up kidna late.. so sleepy lor.. i thought i was late for the GB thing! scareded me.. in the end.. i was one of the earlier ones... -_-

anyway, we were so behind time. was panicking a bit. was quite frustrated too cause sigh.. everything was so messy. i like suddenly had mind block, and i couldn't remember what to brief the girls. thank goodness for audrey sam juli and raq! they reminded me and calmly told the girls to follow instructions. audrey was a bit scary though. felt a bit intimidated cuase when i made a blunder, she'd be like NO! uniform imspection FIRST! wah, aud and her loud voice.. embarrass me in front of contingent. felt quite bad. but it is kind of her way and she was trying to help i guess.. but sometimes it just makes me feel worse, cause the contingent kinda knows i don't know something in a way. nvm. i still love my adurey. oh ya, then a few people were sick, and there were also some who turned up for school but did not wear uniform. THEN THERE WAS THE GIRLS' HAIR! goodness i can vomit blood. i don't know what happened to the girls lar arh, but i just find it so weird. like they don't have that sense of urgency, i mean such a simple thing as hair.. just get the HAIR INTO THE CAP! then they like so mah fan... but still trying to be nice... and during the national anthemn, while i was saluting.. my legs were trembling like nobody's business... couldn't stop them, was so nervous... then after keluar baris, i know the contingent has been standing still for quite some time, but they're like, after that their posture.. they just slouched like some chicken in FRONT of the WHOLE school... but i forgot to brief them on that part.. so maybe that's why i'm so angry. i'm not angry at them, i'm angry at myself. i don't know... my squad kinda disappoints me, i don't even know if its good writing it here. but i've got no where else to write so i'm just going to continue.

like after the sec 4s have stepped down.. my squad is dying. it's can be heartbreaking. i have absolute faith in esther's sec 3s, but well, somehow, they don't seem to be showing good example. like they're wonderful people, but things like uniform, punctuality... argh! i don't know.. i'm jsut so sad.. it's as if, everything has gone down the drain. raquel say something to make me feel better. going to cry soon. forget it. pray tonight. i am off to tear tissue paper. my thoughts are so jumbled up i don't even know if whoever is reading this understand what i'm trying to say. but don't take it the wrong way... i love everyone in GB, love the company, love the work. i just don't know what to do with everyone!

ps: good thing no one fainted! =)

breakfast

hmm let's see.. i woke up at 8am today, or rather 7.30. but i switched off the alarm and went right back to sleep then woke up at 8. today was breakfast day! haha. mdm norhani was treating LAST YEAR'S debate teams to breakfast at swensons! haha. there was karthi, qashrul, amos, timothy, keefe, kim and me. i think thiam's supposed to be inside but opps, we forgot him. ate some toast thing. kinda dry but tried to quickly finish it up. mdn norhani asked if we knew the other word for sunny side up. we had bulls-eye, sunny side down, rainy front down... but it sounded all wrong. then we asked karthi what is was in tamil.. he didn't know! chinese? hmm... tai yang bian shang? or yang guang pang bian shang? oh well

anyway just talked to bhavna. amos and hwee koon did not record the speeches! she said maybe they had too much fun.. i think she really wanted to hear bundit's speech. nvm, the memories of the juniors will always be in our hearts. that's enough! =) cheer up bhavna! at least we got to watch tv that night!

messy day

feel so messy now.. in the end, i didn't go for the council farewell party, don't ask me why, just feel weird i guess. i'm at home, and like sms-ing so many people at the same time. kim,bhavna, angel and amelia. and i was talking on the phone with sam and jami. wah i feel like a telemarketer. maybe i should become one instead of some bartendar or prison warden. i don't really seem to know what i'm doing nowadays. i do things yes, but i'm not conscious of what i'm doing.. as if i'm in a dream or some auto world. oh well

today. ( i've run out of titles)

let's see.. what happened today? i honestly don't remember. let's jump to recess. i met juli in the canteen. she looked so sad. i hope she's not feeling depressed over the attendance thing. i just sent her an sms... see if it encourgaes her. some verse thing. anyway, after that, i hung out with my usual group of friends.. blah blah.. laugh laugh.. as usual... form of de-stressing... jia min was crazy today. she laughed until she cried.. thanks to angel who kept ridiculously imitating her laughter... (wait til she sees carol and her fanning action) yup, went back to class late.. it was chinese.. but somehow the whole world was still hanging around the corridor so heh our teacher was late... so lalala, we just sneaked in. well, after that, audrey told me about some founder's day thing, so last minute i couldn't attend. bah. sad. nvm.

when i came home, ms gan sms-ed me about GB day! haha, aud's the parade commander, sam and juli are the flag people, raq's the ndp flag fella, sun's in the contingent, and i'm the contingent commander! lalala, i just love my batch. best batch in the whole world! haha, okay so i'm biased. well basically that's how loisa's life goes... school, GB, home.. no more rabbits... =( oh BUT, my aunt came abck from australia! or rather she came back to singapore to visit! haha, i was kinda more interested in the photo albums she brought back lar cuase there were pictures of all the animals. i'm not very close to her family.. probably cause all my cousins are like bullys. nah, they didn't quite like me as a kid. i was too small and boring for them. by the time i grew up, they moved, so i'm kinda the baby of the family and i hang around the adults. but as the saying goes, children are seen but not heard. so i eavesdrop. heh. i'm beginnign to feel lor sor and i wannt read my story book liao. hopefully it improves my english. it BETTER improve my english. or not i'm not loisa from nui ren brigade!

my future career

and ah yes, after doing my career thing, guess what careers moe has chosen for me!

1) bartender
2) Prison warden
3) Physiotherapist ( i don't mind)3) all the counsellor stuff and teacher stuff AND children's nanny, volunteers, nurses, doctors... (i don't mind doctors.. if it's vets)

sigh... this must have been due to the survey i did... all the people related questions i clicked "i don't mind", and all the electrical mechanical stuff (such as changing a tyre) i clicked either "i THINK i can do it" or "i can't do AT ALL". i mean i've never tried changing a tyre right? or fix some electronic plug. i've only done about two plumbing jobs! i feel very long winded.. i shall stop here. will study my bestest best and who knows, maybe i will become a bartender or a prison warden.. so.... see you in a pub or prison cell 10 years down the road.. cool! =)

computer lab

hey! haha, i'm now currectly in the computer lab.. supposedly to check about careers and stuff, but the thing is so super laggy, we're all doing other stuff, probably causing the com to be more laggy but nvm. anyway, on my right is amelia! my left would be angel, and on my left left is kim! amelia is asking me what nonsense something something something, angel is doing some neopet thingy, and kim is doing the career thing! oh ya, my career page is up! let's go and see what stuff or future career i can do. btw, amelia is looking at my fascinatingly fascinating blog. she looks forlorn... lalala, poor girl. extremely lonely and deprived of life's enjoyments. she is obviously taking revenge on me and annoying me BY editing my spelling, or rather typing. good bye amelia, i am logging out before you annoy the hair of me

this purple font colour is dedicated to amelia who is laughing like a heyena beside me. in other words... loooooney...

aha!

now i remembered what i wanted to say earlier! i've learnt something new from Oilam. she told me that one has to force oneself to gain confidence as one cannot be so timid forever. allow me to start from the beginning.

i was telling her that when audrey told me she was advisor for facilities (is that correct? or it is equiptment? about the same lar arh), i went to check the notice board too. i met sam there! haha, she's advisor for devotion! it's so her... anyway, i found out that i am advisor for publicity! so scary... feel so old.. like wah.. ADVISOR. haha, no longer doing newsletter and rearranging photos until eyeballs entangle. now it's ADVISING. quite funny, i was laughing with sam. anyway, the fascinatingly fascinating thing was, i'm nco i/c for drill.. with yvonne and pearlyn again! i'm somehow always stuck with yvonne, especially! haha, she's my csf and mentor! hee, so cute. anyway, yes, to cut the extremely fascinatingly fascinating story short, i told oilam i don't really feel competent enought to be like in drill. cause after going for the drill instructor course, i felt really lousy. like my commanding so weird, no confidence, i kept giving the wrong commands, and argh! i even said rendang chicken in a command can! the sizing part. yuck. everyone else sounded so good and smart, felt so small, as if i wasn't small enough. then now yvonne and pearlyn quite sud arh, feel more weird. bah. but oilam told me to try. pray i guess. =)

so now people, the moral or this fable is, do your best adn try no matter what. if you feel small, pray to God and He will give you strength. after all, you never know til you try right? that reminds me.. read 1 Timothy 4:12! haha, it so relates to my moral... hee

crazy day

today was weird.... super weird... kena scolded by parents about everything and anything.. the thing was... i felt so numb i didn't even have the usual maddening fed up thoughts in my head.. felt so tired i jsut bit back my tongue and yes yes the whole way! so proud of myself. i should do this mroe often. think positive and understand scoldings are GOOD! they have my INTERESTS at HEART! i msut not be SARCASTIC! but it's hard.. i feel like i'm contridicting myself but i don't care. my enlgish is dying. my math is improving. mayeb my english marks are going to my math marks. nowadays i find my sentence constructure so funny. i read in a newspaper once that one should always have a blog so you can write in it and improve your english. however, the more i blog, the more it's evident my english is ahhhhhhhhh.. i cannot stand it! i cannot express myself. so frastrating. and another thing, my thoughts seem quite jumbled up... that means i cannot organise my answers.. that means my lit is also dying!

now what was i saying? yes be positivie... viki just thanked me for her birthday present so now i've forgotten what i wanted to say before.. nvm.. on to something else.

i've decided on a new hobby. to collect torn tissue paper. i realised that i'm wasting quite a bit of tissue paper (when i get angry or sad i'll start to tear tissue paper) although i try to reuse them for projects (decorations). therefore, i thought of something really fascinatingly fascinating to me! i'll collect a small plastic bag worth of tissue paper (msut be evident how often i get mad or sad, not very good huh) then i'll recycle, reuse, NOT reduce them! i'll just jumble all the torn tissue paper up and start re tearing them again! okay, i've made myself so happy now, i've decided to reward myself my getting something to eat! haha so fun! eat! food! yay!

ps. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMILY! haha, lalala, in 4 more minutes time, it'll be liting's birthday.. so many britdhays in june and july.. sigh.. a bit tiring leh, i made 4 birthday cards in a row liao... all look the same actualyl but heh nvm. hee! well happy birthday again emily! you, kim and amelia are 16 already! time flies. now just wait for angel, weilian and me! haha! too abd our birthdates are during o levels.. so not fun...

chinese oral today!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, today was the chinese o level oral! i didn't know about it til like tues... goodness... on my o level slip it was written it'd be somewhere in 15 july.. now all of a sudden it's like TODAY!

i was so talking rubbish. the examiners had to re explain the topic to me in ENGLISH can. oh ya, and i'm not sure if they were fed up with me for saying lau shi men zao an!! i forgot it was noon time liao.... oh someone kill me...

but anyway, i'ts over, so life goes on yes! leave the rest in God's hand.. shall just pray about it! optimistic yes that's the way uh huh uh huh

house cleaning!

ever since my mum got back from hospital, the house has been ridiculously messy. it is at this moment then one realises how much a mother does. she cooks, cleans, washes.. goodness.. she does everything! the husband works, the child studies, everything else is left to the 'lady-of-the-house'. so now that she's handicapped, the next lady in waiting would be me. sigh.. so tired! man, i lvoe to eat, but never cook! you can't imgaine what i've done to the food my fmaily eats. i was so blur that once i cooked rice without water. then i tried to be a dutiful daughter by making barley for mummy. i happened to be doing my math at the same time, and i forgot all about the barley! wah fantastic... thank goodness my hosue has not burned down yet.

my washing machine has gone crazy, i suspect i pressed the wrong button or something... the kitchen is super oily... the hosue is full of dust... argh! there's a pile of clothes waiting to be washed.. soon, i will haev no uniform. sigh... now's my break. i'm waiting for my school shoes to finish soaking. and after i washed some GB t-shirts, my bathroom tiles are like orange and blue! someone like just help me can! ms gan not really of much help. she did offer to send me for 34th's maid training course. -_- she's too kind. i feel like cooking ready made food for tmr liao. feeling a bit hungry now. oh ya, my water pipes burst too. and my air con started leaking, and there's a hole in my floor. all these so CANNOT be because of me. but still, i want my mummy back. i promise to be good, i promise to help her out when she's recovered. my dad's kinda mia.. he's usually in the room busy working. he's going to travel overseas soon, and when he comes back... WHOOSH! another PILE and PILE and PILES PILES PILES of clothes. i'm loving it.... NOT. okay my shoes should be done.. let's see what i can with the clothes... lalala

ps. oh ya, i had better go make amelia's birthday card. i've been procrastinating but tmr's her b'day! sigh.. i must be more focused.. amelia! here i come...

super exciting

yesterday, i couldn't sleep, mind was super active, so i decided to wake up and do the laundry which was like piling up, like a mountain like that. while waiting for the laundry to soak, i read newspapers. i was actually just browsing through, not really focusing which my eyes caught an article on the NDP parade this year. i decided to read it. THEN, i saw.. THE picture! of pearlyn!!!!! i was so excited i started looking around for a magnifying glass to check again to see if she was really pearlyn! pearlyn represented the whole of GB singapore! wahahaha! ms gan said 34th has been receiving a lot of publicity. i was on the webpage of ndp parade 2004, pearlyn on the newspapers and tv, the christmas item and so forth! so fun! haha. pearlyn looked good man! okay shall stop gushing for now, just feel so excited and proud of my dear junior! no, make that juniors! all my ndp juniors who have worked so hard! haha

coco!

coco! i miss my rabbit...

the scary camp

okay like whew! the camp is over! haha, missed my bed and oh i miss my food! i tell you, the camp was weird! haha, actually it was pretty fun too lar, but got quite a few scoldings. okay first of all, we went over to ms gan's place to stay overnight. my girls made me lose my sleep! heard that i went sleep walking in the night. i supposedly walked out of the room and went to sleep on the stairs near the toilet. fine okay.. didn't know that. but anyway, the point is this sunshine, was so mean. she took the bolster all for herself, so raq and me felt so weird, like nothing to hug. then i can't remember who, i think she's juli, she told me at 3AM that it was time to change into uniform. 3AM huh... time to wake up.. yeah right! caused me to be wide awake, in the end, didn't have my full sleep. and don't know what happened, supposed to be sam, sun and me sleep on one mattress, in the end juli come and ka jiao us, and plonk herself next to me.

okay then on to the camp. when we arrived, we were immediately put into our groups. my group was food committee one! haha, food yet again. and all my ndp friends were there! haha... and guess what? almost everyone brought a pot! haha, so i needn't have worried. haha! well anyway, we had to prepare dinner, in the end, we were so lazy to cook we went to cater food. heh. later on we were late for a programme so our punishment was to run up to our dorm (4th level) and down to the canteen again in one minute, PLUS wash up the kitchen area together with utensils. sigh... sad huh. and that was stright after we took a bath. in the end, after all the running and washing, i felt like i had not bathed at all. oh well. for area cleaning, we had to wash the toilet. goodness the toilet was super super so hairy can! as if every girl was balding or something, there was just so much hair. so because i was the smallest and my shoes were the cleanest, i was the one to finish up all the cleaning, so the toilet would be super clean when inspected by ms gan. sigh.. i was practically crawling on my face to pick up all the hair from the drains and stuff. fantastic toilet.

oh yah! then it was drill time! you know, the reason i went into food committee was to avoid drill? haha, then in the end, because i am a drill instuctor, i had to teach drill stage 3! bah. and i wasn't feeling confident at all. i was commanding so fast another officer told me to cool down. embarrassing. in the end thank goodness my partner took over. scary. oh yes, something quite funny also. my group had the most casualties! all pai kar one! one fractured her foot, one banged her foot, another had a lot of blue blacks. oh and another girl had a scratch on her forehead. quite poor thing lar, but everyone was okay =)

oh oh and i must complain. throughout this camp, super sleepy and hungry! cause there was this one dinner, there was not enough food! so it was decided that for my group, 2 girls would share one plate of food. so while my friends took the food, i volunteered to wash the cups. i came back happily with the cups, then don't know what happened, my plate was empty of food. they forgot all about me! sigh, so in the end, i ate two spoonfuls of rice and one duck bone which was like useless. so hungry in the night!!! so nvm. i thought at least i could have a good rest and forget about my stomach. then what happened?! in the middle of the night when i was dreaming of tom yam cup noodles, there was a fire drill. -_- wah, no time to do anything. my group panicked! cause we were late down as we did not hear the whistle (4th floor mah). then i was sleeping on the top bunk, so i jumped down, wore my slippers the wrong way, banged right into the door, flew down the stairs, and then fall-ed in with the rest. my group members were all running, was so scared more would fall down. sigh, but nvm. 15 minutes ltaer we were back in bed sleeping. then when i was dreaming of mash potato, this time, i heard aother whistle again! WAH, my group practically flew to the carpark arh, then very funny arh. we realised... it was not a fire drill. z_z it was the morning call! it was time to wake up. hai yar.. my group members all sleepily went to the toilet to bursh our teeth. goodness, so sleepy can. but all in all, it wasn't too bad a camp lar, cause all of the girls became quite close after that. i hope the all the pbb girls would get the pioneer brigader brooch leh. but must prepare myself if i don't get it. will be super disappointed, but i'm sure we all tried our best at this camp alr arh. just a lack fo food and sleep. hee

well now that i've eaten and slept like a log. i'm HAPPY! haha lalala yi-yi-yi

FINALLY PBB is HERE!

woohoo! okay, today we're going to ms gan's place in siglap... her dog! haha, maybe i'll pass the flu to rover.. better not play with him too much. sigh.. just hung up with juliana.. heard that she was sick too.. there's this ridiculous flu bug going on... juli said i sound sexy... haha.. oh well.. i sound nasal... my nsoe feels like it's going to drop off any moment.. i'm so paranoid i brought 8 packets of tissue paper to camp... there's drill too! i don't feel like doing drill with my nose running like nobody's business.. hope juli's heahaches go away soon. she's in the drill committee some more.. it's mroe tiring to think of drill than food! haha, BTW, i'm in FOOD committee! haha, it's so me actually... but then because of this commitee, now i have to bring pots and pans to camp can! bah...

this ms gan, told me and sam that this is a camp whereby we will be graded on our innovation and initiative. very funny arh, now poor sam has to carry a guitae to camp (worship) and i ahev to bring BIG GIGANTIC pots, pan, knives, choppping board.. etc.. as if my camp bag is not big enough like that. actually, i think i just brought my whole kitchen with me! hee.. i was wondering whether i should bring a wok or not. then i realised something, the camp site may not have a stove! haha... so i wanted to bring mesh tin, BUT i again realised ONE mesh tin cannot cook for A HUNDRED girls. haha so funny. nvm

anyway, will be meeting juli later to buy her camp plate. she doesn't ahve a plate for camp. sigh.. got to meet her at 6.45.. sacrifice my dinner time. nah nvm juli.. since i'm so nice, i'll accompany you. better thank me later. i xin xin ku ku stuff one mroe cup into my bag for you okay! hee.. well will tell you about my camp when i get back! wheeeeeeeee

pbb.... AGAIN

i realised something.. i've been getting all my dates wrong... i'm 2 years behnd time.. my calendar is year 2003! bah... this shows how long it's been since i last changed my calendar... sigh... it msut be because i like the gb calendar too much. maybe i should suggest having a GB calendar every year... maybe then i wouldn't make such a blunder of everything. can you imagine how many meetings i missed due to my wrong dates! no wonder my calendar was so empty...

ah well, today we had english remedial... i kinda neglected to talk to angel so she was kind of sad... so sorry... yes, i did say once i've stepped down from council and GB i would spend more time with you. when school reopens i will prove that! haha.. then we'll definitely be simese twins liao. let's see, after that i rushed down to century square to meet sam. i wanted to pass her her birthday present, and together we went to buy jami and extra something for her birthday. the most fascinating thing was that we saw jami in the shop! and since we were buying her birthday present, we tried to hide under this glass thing. but i knew it! she was just too blind and deaf.. AND blur to notice anything. the best thing is later, she told me how bright i looked as my t-shirt was this luminous yellow colour. sam and i were like dotting ourselves away...

when i came home, i WAS planning to study, but again got caught by GB. we have to do this advertisement on 34th. sigh... we had this conference call through sun's phone... there were in total 6 of us. raq, aud, juli, sam, sun and me! lalala, we kept drifting from the topic... goodness... now we have to think of a story line for our drama for tonight's 2nd conference at 10pm.. so many things to do.. beginning to become a bit blur all over again. i made this new holiday resolution (june holidays), not to be blur for at least a week. after this conference arh, i totally broke my resolution. i just got put through only this aud started saying huh. once she says huh, that's it. everyone started saying huh. for 10 whole minutes! nvm. we're somehow always like that, but we also always somehow manage to finish things and do them to our best ability. =)

pbb camp

oh i forgot just now! pbb camp is coming sooon! wheeeee.. haha, but it's kinda scary... cause it's as if we're being graded in order to earn that brooch... we're going to stay overnight in ms gan's house for a while! haha, so i can play with her dog, Rover! wheeeeeeee so fun.. haha... it's GIANT dog.. but extremely friendly.. lalala... i wanna get a dog... but i still miss my rabbit... everytime i see it's photo at my bed side.. feel like crying.. i want to hug it! it was like a fluffy furball! so warm and squishy.. haha...

science camp

sigh.. i've been going back to school everyday for the past one week.. one whole of science! (oh, i got tues off due to bio.. hee) experiment after experiment after experiment, all of which are so fraustrating... but physics was more fun.. jsut sit on the chair and time... haha, extremely slacking.. BUT the second physics experiment super tiring! the silly retort stand SUPER high, but nvm. can clim onto the chair and table. but angel was dying... haha. we were partners for this experiment whereby accuracy was of the utmost importance. so i adjusted the retort stand while she held the ruler to see the correct values... then we switched.. haha, quite funny. we were one of the slower ones to get our accurate reading. the retort stand didn't like us i think.

oh and during chemistry...! haha, angel... what did she do arh? i think she drop something and her expression was very funny, but the best part was she was so irritated with the bunsen burner cause it wouldn't start! but guess what, she turned on the wrong bunsen burner.. she turned on mine! haha, i was so busy laughing i spilled potassium manganate on my school shirt. now i have two beautiful PURPLE and BROWN dots on my WHITE shirt! sigh...

ah yes, and on thurs.. we were eating at macdonalds.. kim was going crazy over her tempura thing. and i don't know what happened to my cheeseburger, it was like so small, i was FINALLY the FIRST person to finish eating. muahaha! okay haha, anyway, the point is that angel took like two whole videos of me while i'm congratulating myself on beating my score on the snake game thing. and like goodness, angel use her leg to tickle mine (violation you know), and kim threw an ice down my shirt... bah... NVM! some people are just still child-like. haha =)
oh ya, and we also had fun playing the finger game AGAIN. maggie was jsut stoning, angel was winning VERY WELL, i was just losing VERY WELL also, and kim was like, blur? but ah well, we were bored people!

i've run out of stuff to say...

chinese o levels

ARGH! chinese o levels! sigh... i don't think i have the energy to retake it at the end of the year.. if i pass this one, it's enough for me... i tried.. i really did... i was okay with the compo actually, but now i'm worrying. i wrote 1000 over characters can! the mimimum number was only 300 plus, and i used to write around 320 characters only. now goodness.... now i'm afraid i may have written out of the topic... and the paper itself was so super difficult, almost cried when i saw the han yu pin yin part. i didn't know any! and once, i prided myself on learning a new word that i thought i would never forget. this word.. TUI JIAN (recommend). i even remembered it's meaning, dangit! but i couldn't remember how to write jian! up til now, i still cannot remember but i don't want to look it up. i'll lose it. i also didn't know the sentence construction part. sigh... bah.. the compre also nonsense.. i cut and paste, lifted everything until i didn't know what i was lifting... sigh.. bummer... boomerang... bananas... bombastic... don't know what i'm talking about now...

oh yah! and i went for my dental appointment yesterday... had to get a new retainer cause i accidentally threw mine into the dustbin after eating.. now the new one is so weird... so icky.. taste like rubber.. hate wearing it.. since it's new.. the dentist instructed me to wear it AT ALL TIMES except when eating... and it's super super super painful!

and ah eys, jemima and i trooped over to bhavna's house yesterday. me, to pass bhavna my holiday assignment to photocopy and jemima, ot use bhavna's com. and i wanted to pass jemima a file i bought for her too. have you seen her old one? goodness, it's taped up everywhere and there's this GAPING GIANTANTIC hole at the side. couldn't stand it so i got her a new one. oh and jemima was so sweet! she wrote me a postcard... ahhhhhhhh! thank you! =)

oh oh, and one last thing, i called yvonne up for the care share friend thing (GB activity), i didn't know what to say to her! and she kept laughing.. totally not helping... oh oh! and zhi yin is my care share friend! haha, she told me her "friend" was a councillor in sec 4.. i thought she was referring to audrey! haha, surprised me she did... oh well.. that's about it i guess..

okay FINALLY... the council games day is finally going through! again, i have to say this, after SEVEN months of planning and eating carrot cake and typing and thinking and arguing and laughing and taking pictures and sleeping and grumbling and recording AND evaluating, it's going to happen! BUT i will not be involved... fasntastic ain't it? sigh... i give up... sometimes one cna work and work and work and don't see results... similar to one's studies... bah... nvm... just keep going... just keep going... just keep going going going... yeha!

hmmm

argh today during maths, shiping amos and i kept arguing... why do people like man u and liverpool? i dont know.. arsenal and real madrid are better ain't they? hmm.. but everyone agreed liverpool's the worst.. hmm...

today i was like zombie like that! shoot lar.. woke up like 7.05 today.. latest i've ever woken up... don't know what's wrong with me.. pris agrees too.. like the more we sleep, the more tired we are.. don't know what's going on.. finally i am so tired.. i cannot even open my eyes. good night! i've done my english holiday compo liao.. i am so going to bed! maybe tmr i'll get kenneth to explain to me the chinese compo thing.. and btw, chinese o levels is on monday! lalala.. HOW?! fine, feeling a bit grumpy... i'm sick! what if i cannot do my chinese well. i just realised my answer to that is to sleep NOW. don't like.. fed up... sgh.. feel so sad all of a sudden.. this year i don't feel like myself... not as carefree as before... i should study or go to sleep now. okay i'm officially off the com til tues! that's my goal and aim and vision and mission.......................

dedicated to juli ong!

hey i am super proud of my juliana ong chao ying! the commander of 34th's contingent for inter ug...! wah, speechless... she was so smart can! her uniform, her hair, her boots, her posture, her voice.. her commanding... haha, voice didn't crack. not bad! haha... woohoo! goodness.. i just love GB! they worked super hard can! every time i see them wah super proud! goodness.. raq also.. see her as the right marker wah fantastic! super cool! cannot stop gushing about my girls! lalala.. you go juli! great job in training the girls and all... love you man! =)

council outing

okay like finally!!! council outing ended yesterday. i think the councillors had quite a lot of fun lar arh. well that was great! but it seemed we did so much work for nothing since groupings were not carried out, and so few people came. AND the certificates were like... argh nvm!

anyway, i'd like to officially thank nicholas, shawn, ben and carol! you guys made my day! i was feeling so tired and sick that day, but you all went around doing practically everything! nicholas, for buying that food thing for all of us (roti boy btw, not roti john! ) shawn for giving out the certificates and acting as emcee, ben for calculating until siao, and for making me laugh so much. you sjtu have that question mark face mixed with exclaimation marks everywhere. carol, for sharing with me green tea! haha, hope you like that lime green star i gave you. shine like the star you are! haha... (excuse my habit of writing as if i'm telling you all this directly)

hmm.. and ALSO, i finally managed to finish all the discipline updating! goodness.. nearly went crazy with all the stuff all mixed up! argh! well good luck pris, with all those disciplinary stuff.. haha! okay i'm feeling mean...

anyway as i was saying.. the council thing was quite a success lar, but i feel weird in council really. don't belong. like the sec 3s are one batch, and because i don't know... the sec 4s are NOT a batch. so i'm like neither here nor there. weird! but nvm. will nto dwell on it. it's wastes my brain power only.

okay realised how messy i am. i ahve so many windows open on my com, and i'm doing so many thigns at the same time that i forgot what i wanted to say earlier about the council outing, and i don't have the energy to rethink again. and now i jsut remembered. i wanted to talk about the turkey.

yes, anyway, i learnt something new today. a turkey is 3 consecutive strikes i think. yup. joseph is a turkey. or rather he got a turkey. yup not bad eh? yup. okay i'm done. just wanted to share my knowledge of a "turkey". see ya! =)

inter ug drill com

YIPEE! today was the inter ug drill com! and guess what? uh huh! GB was the second runner up! lalalala... haha, well, finally, the planning committee can come to a rest. i went home with pearlyn today.. had a nice talk with her. i wasn't really satisfied with the planning though. personally, i agreed with mr chiang. the planning was fine, but it's the consistency of tasks done and the overall committee i'm not happy with.

even though this is our first time planning this giant event, but basic things such as updating each other, and finishing tasks delegated to us on time should be done well. personally, i felt ultra stupid today. i THOUGHT i was sure of everything on my part, then after that so many changed was made, until i became blur, then had to keep referring back pearlyn and audrey who suddenly knew everything, it was scary. especially the part about the ushering. goodness, majoy hoohah over that. miscommunication. pearlyn told me on the last meeting that ushers are to bring contingents back to holding area, but today BY CHANCE i found out that they were supposed to be in canteen. AND THEN, suddenly i was informed, or rather scolded that contingents are supposed to be ready THE MINUTE contingent before has marched out. goodness....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, oh this one best arh. the timing of the whole drill com was pushed back.. due to some unforseen circumstances, then i kept asking when my ushers and emcees had to report. i was told to wait. then a few minutes later, kena scolded on why emcees and ushers are not at their places.

AND i was super fed up with ushers today, but after that i felt bad cause maybe they were as blur as i was and i did not inform them properly. but i explain the reason first. okay, duties of ushers were to yes, usher contingent to destinations, but it was ALSO to keep contingents quiet. but they seemed more intent on watching the drill. i guess so lar, but it's not really helping lar, cause again got scolded cause drill participants were so noisy. hai ya, i don't want to be angry at others if it's my fault, so is it? oh my, there i go thinking again. sometimes, i think 'i'm becoming more negative, and my brain is not helping by thinking so much.

i'm tired. i don't feel like talking anymore. nor do i want to complain. feeling grumpy. now it's 7.40. i gotta meet jemima and bhavna at 8.30 for a jog.. haha... anyone care to join? =)

oh ya, today was also the day i went broke. i kept fretting over whether everyone had eaten and drank water. haha, feel like a mother hen (talking about mother hen, tell you about this turkey thing later in my next post). then alamak i went broke! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh had to pay for everyone's lunch and drinks. fantastic... nvm. they did me proud anyway. not bad liao lar, sec 1s had to cheong for this drill com. i salute you guys! =)

and oh yes, must thank planning committee. we worked hard and received like superbly a huge number of scoldings right? nvm, it's OVER! and i wanted to say i almsot cried when sarah hugged me! it's super touching... like i don't know.. feel like i've touched someone's life! like i'm appreciated... sarah cheong! i love you! haha... touching lvies ans saving nations.. i'll start from there! =) anyway, pearlyn and sarah, you guys did a wonderful job! whew, we ran all voer the carpark doign thigns right? and can tell both of you stressed, cause your hair messy.. haha (sounds like jami). and audrey! we'll jia you for o levels! argh, my chinese is in 5 days time! then arh, after that we all cheong for GB yeah? this should be our last activity.. whew! we're done! =)

opps

heh, i forgot to add one thing last night. the GB girls went for the hike on saturday! sniff... sam and me are so super sad.. ms gan actually gave us the consent form, but we felt we should not go as our parents would prefer us to stay home.. saddd... but nvm. zhi yin told me the walk was super tiring.. haha... heard they walked for over 11km.. heh...but they took some pictures.. maybe i'll go and harrass ms gan for them.. haha =)

okay sam! we'll organise a similar outing for raq, sun, aud, juli and us to go k? oh ya, not forgetting jami..! haha, she couldn't go either right? nvm.. we'll go after o levels! lalalala

lalala

oh this is fun! lalalala...

left to right: wei Lian! haha angel... there you are amelia! and well, some creepy crawly thing.. nvm about that.. not the point

this was hmm... taken right after cca council outing right amelia? that lunch thing mr chiang treated us too... haha.. we were like running up and down the whole of tampines mall trying to hide here and there... we are busy people of society... =)

amelia!

amelia amelia! finally after 2 gruelling hours last night and 2 more today, i've managed to fang ni de lian here... okay.. felt like using some weird chinese... =) have fun!

yi-yi-yi

i'm feeling blur again... whenever i talk to germaine.. i feel extremely awake and normal... but after that, start feeling blur.. i think we talk too intellectually liao.. haha.. nah, just like teasing her... feeling a bit weird... i FAILED MY HUMANITIES! you know? they should have offered us pure lit! this is tiring... i cannot stand COMBINE humanities... i was like hoping and hoping that i could score an a1 for humans to cover my other subjects... then i was super happiyyyyyyyyyyy yi-yi-yi-yi-yi when i got A2 for lit... how i know my ss so cute one.. 13/50.. so cool... i failed social studies.. hahahahahaha! sigh... i feel so sarcastic now... i want angel...

oh YA! can you believe it? i PASSED CHINESE! hahahahahahahahaha.. this time it's for real... bhavna and i were going seriously senile... laughing over our 6 points for mother tongue.. hahahaha! i passed! congratulate me... i'm not chinese bbbbbbbbbbb standard! sarah you were right! haha.. we and our chinese bbbbb.. nonsense...

btw, i just realised amelia is alive and kicking.. guess what.. she TALKED to me!!!!!!!!!!1 isn't that cool.... she's BACK!!!!!!!!!!

stressed, depressed, opressed

untahantable.. distahantable... buay tahan....

today kena scolded until wow! yi zhi bei ren ma bah..... sigh...

inter ug - mr chiang
bowling outing - mr kwok
duties - mr tay
GB - ms lum

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... today wrong day very wrong day.. daddy shouldn't have gone to see ms lum about gb! i am being stereo-typeddddddd! wahhhhhhhhhhhhh wrong day.. very wrong day

oh ya, today i walked home with jemima too, we had a nice long talk.. and did you know how fascnating her file is? it's like, there's a GIANT hole at the side, and i mean GIANT can... and the sides are like taped up until don't know what.. and she says she's too lazy to buy one.. NVM jemima! i'll get you a new one.. i also cannot tahan your file....

and ALSO, today my girls found this fella's wallet, what's his name? ronald i think.. yup... now i don't know what to do with it.. made me panic only... hmmm... oh well, that's the end of my day....

inter ug

okay today's meeting was i don't know the worst ever. i don't understand my role. i'm supposed to be in charge of pa crew, councillors, and emcees, but the one briefing them is i don't even know. oh my goodness, my brain is mumo jumbo up. this is tough. it's really tough. i don't know. feel lousy. today kinda wasted everyone's time. i mean, yeah, i understand what they're feeling too. they came down to school for nothing in that sense. but is it that difficult to understand? we are trying. we're all school mates. help each other out a little. is that too much to ask? or is the society that cruel? i feel like i'm in the working world and everyone is against me. or am i thinking too much about me and not about them? i hate thinking...

i wonder how's pris. it's hard for her, for pearlyn, for debbie perhaps? what's wrong with everyone? why is it not working out all of a sudden? life was good, in sec 1, sec 2, sec 3... is this year weird or what? like super emotional or sensitive or something? i'm thinking everyone's under pressure. the sec 3s mostly. perhaps it's a turning point for them? see if they can work under pressure? feel helpless sometimes. i see me in them, the sadder part, the raging part, yet i see their sweet side. they've got really beautiful personalities, but they don't have the time to show it.

oh dear, Lord, just give them to strength to carry on. don't let them fall.

lift experience

sigh... just the other day... i was going up and down the lift.. thanks to angel... i tell you arh... she is mean okay!

she told me, DO NOT PRESS THE BUTTONS EVEN IF THE LIFT DOORS CLOSE. i REPEAT, do NOT press ANY buttons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so well i followed her... and then super smart.. how i know she HELPED me press the button to first floor liao... her finger very itchy... haha... cute angel though....

anyway, after that heard she went on some peanut pancake eating spree... without me, and NEARLY conned a classmate to buy her food... okay now i'm mean... oh well...

okay anyone up for some tom yam noodle? feeling a bit hungry liao... bye!

prayer

dear Lord,

there's so many things going on that are just not right. could You help me? i know You can, You've done so so many times.

i pray for the upcoming exams. everyone's been so fretful about it. they do not have confidence. i pray that You will grant them the wisdom to study well and give them concentration during the paper itself. help pearlyn too, as she's afriad she will fail every subject, and might retain. i do not believe so. help her to see that she can do it.

i pray for pris and debbie too. esther is in good hands, but they seem to be feeling insecure right now. a heavy load is on them, they feel down, tired, and even frustrated. please carry the burden for them, teach them, guide them, help esther cooperate with them. help pris especially with the discipline. it's a tough job, and she may not yet be ready. mould her to be what you want her to be, lead her, and show her how to lead others. give her the strength to do what she has to do, and give her no regrets.

ah yes, the council committee too. shawn, ben and carol. they're the best committee i can ask for. but sometimes, it can be hard to work together. help us to unite as one, to serve as a whole. help us to understand each other, and to come up with the best outing ever, to bond councillors and to have fun at the same time.

not forgetting inter ug. now that pearlyn is the i/c, give her to courage to stand tall and organise well. give her the talent of speaking well and being concise in her instructions. help the committee to be able to carry out their duties systematically yet with a passion, to serve willingly and happily.

i ask these in Jesus' name,
Amen

laughing gas

today, louie enticed angel. i was so enticing she was dazzled, til she could not stop laughing for a full 20 minutes. well she stopped for around 2 minutes, then kim and valda appeared in the library. that started her off again. let me attempt to explain to you the food chain.

Valda enticed me
i enticed kim
kim enticed angel

the problem is angel was too enticed by me to be enticed by any other homo sapien or cavemen.

In conclusion, we learnt a new word today.

ENTICE

another movie

okay, i think the council games day went for an outing on the 22nd i think. we were forced to! to bond or something.. yeah... anyway, so we decided watch any movie for the sake of watching.. so dear carol here, chose "a world without thieves"

gosh! no one knew it'd be a chinese show.. a chinese how for goodness sake! CHINESE! not that i have anything against chinese, but i'm no chinese fella, i'm horirble at it. at least there were subtitles.. whew!
The interesting thing would be that throughout the movie, carol was playing with her hp, shawn was doing no idea what, and i was either falling asleep or huh-ing all the way. besides that, we were freezing! okok, i shall stop complaining for a while... nvm. we managed to finish up our proposal thing... wow! it was a great feat! :)

scary

hmm.. you know? a few days ago, raq told me she saw my blog. she can be really sweet you know? she gave me advice and said i should change my layout. haha, it's kinda true but oh well. actually jami helped to change my layout into some green frog thing, then duno what happened it went back to this again. anyway, well, council has this Games Day thing. i've got a great committee, but sometimes, it's really demoralising. I kinda knew i was never good at being firm or discipline or yeah, along those lines. i can be grumpy when i mad but other than that, i can't be firm with pple, except my rabbit i guess.

Today, i was trying to get Wei Jie to come to our next meeting cause he's losing out on a whole lot. we can't cover up for him for so long. it's ridiculous. anyway, he kept confusing me, first telling me he doesn't know where shawn's place is, then he tells me he doesn't know who shawn is. bleh...

i thank you Lord for shawn, he managed to get wei jie to come for the grp picture. haiz.. it's sad when you think about it. oh well. nothing more to say except that i need food.

movie!

whew.. i've finally finished my a math qt today. so happy. i'm done. i'm free!!!! i really seriously did the best i could do. well, at least i am satisfied i tried. ah well.. heh

so anyway, today a few GB girls went to chinatown to erm, buy the t-shirts for the christmas thing right? not too sure about that. the plans were all so vague. oh, after that we met for a movie! "the incredibles" if i'm not wrong. yeah, then haha, we laughed and laughed. erm, well, there was this really cute character in the movie, haha, let's just say we related her to ms gan and mrs koh. very cute! yeah, laughed and laughed. basically laughed lar. we related a lot of stuff to gb, amybe that was why we laughed so much, a bit too much actually. yup, oh! then there was this chain effect thing. aud jumped when this creppy kind of music camp on suddenly, i saw her from the corner of my eye then jumped too, and resulted in jami jumping. haiz.. quite fun lar. it's nice to go out with GB girls, they're like my second family! :) oh msut explain how they inspired me for a math.

Jami: when i thought of her, i remembered how she forced me to think
Aud: inspired me to try and do my best
Sam: caused me to remember the questions
Juli: erm, she kidna made me forget everything, but she's good for cheering pple up. the only side effect is that she makes pple laugh, so when i think of her, i laugh and my mind becomes blank. yup. that's about it! :)

thanks everyone, for all your encouragement. yup :)

10th annual camp!!

okay, now on to annual camp! GB rules!

wahhahahaahaha again. i was in RAHAB! my grp members were like so cute. there were jami, elisa, yvonne, sunshine, carol, jessica, and jia qi! woohoo... the other groups were naomi, miriam, and deborah. yup. i was in the best grp ever! everyone was so co-operative, and we all had fun! we did outdoor cooking, only thing is we couldn't see what we were eating. we did the beauty pageant together! i have absolutely no idea how i came about "volunterring" my services. this is called psychological warfare. anyway, we laughed til we were rolling on the floor. let me explain to you the pageant thing.

Naomi: vanessa represented that grp. she was so pretty! she was playing the role of a good mother-in-law. cheers to you!

Miriam: haha, another sweet lady. Debbie represented this grp. i have to say her chest erm, was enlarged, but she looked so sweet. she paraded for us and waved her tambourine about. so musical!

Deborah: wow, this girl has the moves. avril, somewhat the baby of the family (sec 1), played deborah's role. She was liek some kind of detective, wah, so mysterious. haha, (hey, you can be the spy! and i can help you!) yeah, she did this cat walk thing, wah, i take my hat off to you. so sporting!

RAHAB: finally, last but not least, my grp! hmm, i was rahab, adn hmm, i had an interesting career.. as a prostitute! oh well, we kinda played a joke on elisa, and used her number as my services. okay, i admit, i was attempting to play cool and trying to act sexy, but i did not manage to pull it off. my supposed balloon rubbery boobs kept getting into the way, and my balloons at my behind was uncomfortable. best of all arh, the towel dropped, like so embarrassing can. elisa and jami were like rolling on the floor laughing. duno why they always end up on the floow. sad case. haiz.. but nvm.

all in all, we were all God's heroines yeah? we went thru a lot togther! so let's dance!

just wanna end off with...

WE HELP SPIES! that's my motto. (just to explain, rahab was a prostitute who helped hid some spies, yeah)

enjoy! can't wait for next year's camp! oh, and thanks to all who played a part in making this camp a success, basically everyone lar. haha. remember. 1 timothy 4:12!!!!!

retreat

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! came back from annual camp liao! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH finished a math qt. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH sleepy! brain cells used up. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH so much to write. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

okay, my point is.. lemme start form the cca council retreat. haha, it was a really good retreat. learnt a lot on how to lead, what makes up a good leader. i managed to get to know the juniors and seniors better, and best of all, we all had fun! let's see the sleeping time was a bit funny, like no sleep like that. amelia and i slept on the same bed, two pple on a single bed. haha, so incredible. oh well, we're small. oh ya, i forgot. Amelia was so smart! you know samantha? wah, she cunning like anything. she lured me to the pool by saying "come loisa, i tell you something" b4 you can say huh, she had pulled me into the pool liao. can i say clever? amelia so smart, run FAR away. she good, leave me alone in the water. in the end, i had to borrow mr chiang's shirt to wear cause i didn't have enough clothes. wah, it was huge, can say i was swimming in it. oh well. the bbq was quite a success i must say. i believe everyone had enough to eat, so we were all satisfied. i guess the only problem later was that during the evaluation, everyone was half asleep liao. fell asleep so many times while mr chiang was talking. felt so bad but really was very tired. let's see, we had a bit too many chicken wings too, haha, but thanks to shiyun, she ate up a LOT. jasper helped to get rid of some too.

oh now must say thank you to those who helped with the food stuff and all, hmm.. amelia, samantha. keefe, abel and david... yup... sorry to abel and david, you guys had to take the bus while we took the taxi. nvm, experience lar hor. yup.