25th to 28th november

11th annual camp

gosh this was one tiring but satisfying camp. it felt like everything was run by my batch... aud and sam were oderlys for the first two days. julie and me were next. it was as if we never slept! haha we were groups leaders, as well as in charge for the day too. sam and i were in bugalow 13 while julie and aud were in bungalow 7 (aloha loyang) i was the camp nurse can... haha felt so weird... anyway..........................

25th - (aud orderly, sam assisstant orderly) went to school in the morning! had to access the sec 1 GB girls in drill... it was sam and my first time in really acting as drill instructors and accessing the girls. aud was the commander... haha really cute. i panicked at one point of time as i couldn't find my wallet. i was unsure if it was in my old house or new house! aud and sam actually accompanied me home to the old house to look for it, but to no avail. when i got back to school, i found the wallet in my camping bag. -_- fed up. i knew i packed it in but i don't know why i couldn't see it the first time round. sigh my eyes are going. oh ya, we had our bbq on the first day. haha pai seh, my group kinda made a rubbish fire but we were the first to finish up all our food! way to go diligence. we're diligent indeed! haha... okay can't quite remember what happened on the first day.

26th - (sam orderly, aud assisstant orderly) whoa i remember that this day was pretty hectic. sam was real busy adn we were afraid we couldn't wake up in the morning! haha... had to use ms lee's hp as an alarm. okay again can't remember details but devotion was great! and the speaker was good. he played games with us which helped to keep us a little awake. hee. aud was busy i think, so i helped sam out a little. teamwork yeah! =) if i'm not wrong, poor elisa had a bad fall during this day. it was quite bad, and liting and me had to run voer to do our nurse duties! had to use ice bags and all... sigh...

27th - (louie orderly, julie assisstant oderly) ohhhh MY DAY! i remember i was darn nervous for QT. i'm not very confident in leading it... so i think i discussed it with sam the night before. jumped out of bed in the morning for 5BX (morning exercise) but it felt as if i did not sleep a wink. sam and i were so scared we used as many hps alarms as we could plus the alrams of watches. haha worked though. julie was pretty busy with her kitchen work (quater mistress) so sam helped me out. love her so much. thanks sweetie! the speaker for that day was realy funny... as in she talked about marriage and kids and stuff. kinda far off but nonetheless, we sure learnt a lot about being a noble woman yeah? had an interesting recre game with straws. had to use a straw and suck paper, then bring it to across to the other side of the room. goodness, my team was so out of breath haha. basia was so cute! rebecca too! those two were the joy of the group. sun was my second i/c for group, so she took over the gorup for that day as i was busy with the day's events. she did a great job! love my sunshine! hee =) jolene had a very drama accident too right? thank goodness it was minor yeah, no problem =)

oh yeah, the special night event was on this day too! a royal ball! haha there was a royal fall too. poor rebecca nvm yeah? louie still loves you. everyone looked real grand that day. food was wonderful too! haha princessess! avril looked beautiful.... sigh... i wore this black blouse thing with a thai-looking long skirt (considering i was going to go to thailand), but i did not wear heels. so i looked real short. everyone else wore heels! the tall looked even taller!!! argh! kept tripping over my skirt too, and it was so hot! all of us were perspiring like luo tang ji! thank goodness for the ah ma fan the speaker of that day gave us. danced after that, and had this meaningless round of fun, but it was funny... =)

28th - (julie orderly, louie assisstantly orderly) oh gosh by this day, all of us were dying. we were pooped! haha... even with all the alarms and stuff, i very nearly forgot to wake up! haha, but when i did, whoa panicked! flew out of the door and blew my whistle... haha... it is quite funny now actually, thinking back about it... anyway, our last day of camp. we packed up, did all our area cleaning and headed back to the school. by then, i was talking a whole lot of gibberish so got my timing all mixed up when i was getting ready to go home. sigh embarrassing.

well, that's about it. when i came home had to unpack, wash and prepare for my thailand GB mission trip on the first december! sigh... busy busy kid...

23rd November

wow today was on eventful day! woke up at 7.30am... had to get ready to meet angel at 7.55... but then i was late. heh, my mum's pretty stressed out about the whole moving thing, so she's like super extremely grouchy. she was scolding me throughout the whole car trip about some bird shit on the car. i was kinda wondering what does bird shit has to do with me, as if i can control where the bird passes out it's motion... but nvm. it's jsut a moving phase... i HOPE....

okay then i met angel and boy was she hopping mad. but she was find later. i was late around 10 minutes... heh sorry... oh then we went for the JC talk... my, not too bad... haha thinking of going to a CI... am quite into the art stream. H2 subjects - english literature, geography, chemistry. H1 - mathematics... haha... not too bad eh? yeah, and we talked to mrs tan (libarian) for quite a while, she's really nice okay? yup, then we rushed, like seriously flew down to tampines mall to meet 4a for our class championship award, a pizza hut treat for all! =) hee very nice! haha, kim angel and i ate til we were stuffed! poor amelia was dying by the third slice. we all ate 4 slices each. oh yeah, and amelia looked so white! perhaps in contrast to our black class tee lar... haha but she looked so sweet... too sweet! haha

after this, i ran to meet julie and rebecca for our jab thing. in the end, we met sam at the interchange. we were 5 minutes early! haha, AND she was a minute late! haha finally sam is late. haha... then this hoi shek wah fed up. he supposedly waved to me at the mall but i did not see, adn then he called me and i was so confused. before i could say anything he said bye and hung up. i was just standing there with this question mark on my face... bleh... if and when i see him again, i'll personally pinch him til all his hair drop out.

next stop, changi general hospital. we had the jab for stomache upsets, in case we eat rubbish and our stomache explodes. hee... wah i didn't feel as nauseous as i did after the flu jab, but arh, wah teh arm is super super aching can... wah piang... like my arm is going to drop off... yeah that's about what i did today. busy huh...

oh and i jsut found out me and raq are the first and second i/c for thailand trip! haha

one question, WHAT is baccalaureate? it's some a level subject... is it about calculus? haha

the end

THE OS ARE OVER HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hee happy sha la la... so nice to be happy sha la la... haha wheeeeeeeeeee

make time for God!

I knelt to pray but not for long, I had too much to do.
I had to hurry and get to work for bills would soon be due.
So I knelt and said a hurried prayer,
And jumped up off my knees.
My Christian duty was now done.
My soul could rest at ease.
All day long I had no time
To spread a word of cheer.
No time to speak of Christ to friends,
They'd laugh at me I'd fear.
No time, no time, too much to do,
That was my constant cry.
No time to give to souls in need ...
But, at last, the time, the time to die.
I went before the Lord. I came, I stood with downcast eyes. For in his hands God held a book; It was the book of life.
God looked into his book and said
"Your name I cannot find.
I once was going to write it down ...
But never found the time.

kinda sad huh... so there... we must always put God first in everything and make time for Him! lalala =)

ooo we're going for a flu jab! don't like... haha... sigh gthe girls are going next week, but the sec 4s still have our exams on! i have to get hold of aud and sam to find out free dates, then get back to ms gan so we can poke poke for flu... =( don't like... but it's a must i guess... sigh... yuck

nursery rhymes? haha

okay i found this old book on nursery rhymes.. haha... well here goes

The Farm
"Bow-wow," says the dog,
"Mew, mew, " says the cat,
"Grunt, grunt," goes the hog,
And "Squeak," goes the rat.
"Tu-whu," says the owl,
"Caw, caw," says the crow,
"Quack, quack," says the duck,
And what cuckoos say you know.

The Caterpillar
Brown and furry
Caterpillar in a hurry
Take your walk
To the shady leaf, or stalk,
Or what not,
Which may be the chosen spot.
No toad spy you,
Hovering bird of prey pass by you,
Spin and die,
To live again a butterfly.

Little Lamb
A motherless soft lambskin
Alone upon a hill;
No mother's fleexe to shelter him
And wrap him from the cold.
I'll run to him and comfort him,
I'll fetch him, that i will;
I'll care for him and feed him
Until he's strong and bold.

yeah yeah i know, it's all to do with animals... that's why i like them! haha nursery rhymes can be pretty original and creative... i like the "one two buckle my shoe" that one.. too bad i don't know the full thing... when i remember or find it, i'll post it up here k? =)

itchy itchy again!!

i don't know what's wrong with me.. itchy-thy-tis, itchyphobia or something... after i feel like i've done enough studying.. i don't seem to believe in breaks anymore. it's like wah, study too much cannot stop. so i HAVE to do something... not just anything, but something USEFUL. haha so... i've decided to do a near impossible task.

tidy up my room PROPERLY

i never do it the proper way... tidying up to me is " as long as nothing can be seen, tidy lor..." yeah, clothes thrown crumpled into my wardrobe... bags and books stuffed into drawers... you know.. the works. as long as no one tries to open any cupboards of any sort, everything is compact.. EXTREMELY compact. so NOW, good o louie is going to PACK things away nicely, cleanly and tidily. i stopped tidying up my room ever since prelims.. like 3 months ago? so all my books and papers plus files are stacked like twice the height of me? okay that's exaggerating... definitely up to my chin... you know.. thick books, PILES and PILES of worksheets... chem, lit and ss files are like breaking apart already, especially my humanities file. everything's kinda combined into one file, and oh my goodness, it's a ring file and it's bulging can... it's going to puff and huff any moment and then

wham bam alakazaima whoosh!

everything's going to come tumbling down and all the koh family, and all of louie's friends, couldn't put the file, back together again. (okay, a bit going out of point here... humpty dumpty rhyme... nvm)

kinda dumb tidying up my room at this time as it's just going to get messier again right? but seriously, i can't step anywhere without tripping over an eraser or slipping on a post it which, btw, are so non sticky that it's beginning to irk me. i mean come on, what do you buy post its for? to POST IT.. to STICK it.. and if they're going to drop off all the time, what's the point? defeats the purpose. i've resorted to using blue tack to stick the post it onto my paper.. which is very ridiculous i tell you

sorry i'm switching topic very quickly. my mind is running away too fast for me to comprehend anything. sometimes it annoys me as i get very confused and lost, as if i just had a wonderful thought and lost it! ah yes anyway, what i was trying to say was that i just remembered that the GB newsletter SHOULD have been given out already so YAY!!!! haha they had better keep a copy for me or i'll just yell into their hair. too busy to collect it from elisa though. can't wait for it! my pride and joy... ahhhh.... it's finally out! oooo my little sarah has all grown up! haha even though i have yet to see it, it must be good... i hope. nvm, thanks for putting in your best sarah cheong!! =) louie loves you! haha now how's the Notice Board coming along? haven't seen it myself quite some time. i used to glance at it every time i walk past it, arrive in school, exit out of school... but now i'm like a mad turkyy, always rushing here and there, i turn my head to look at the board but then i can't see anything. cannot register. and i kinda missed penelope's birthday so happy birthday sweetie! many happy returns of the day! =) oh ya, it was yun zhen's birthday too so i costly smsed her ( i over exceeded lar. teachers don't believe in calls. they like to sms and it's difficult to carry a conversation through sms! argh! ), and she can ask me who i am. sigh... that's so sad... usually i'd keep my seniors' numbers in my hp til i'm certain i'm never going to speak or talk to them again... sniff... nvm it's okay... i shall comfort myself in food... heh... been eating quite a bit too, but the day before the actual exam, i would lose my appetite all of a sudden. i think i'm balding.. my hair is dropping off... haha... i need a wig soon! =)

okay i'm off to bed. quite proud of myself again. managed to study 2.5 themes of ss today! tmr i shall complete the other 1.5 themes then it's math all the way! =) i shall have to read my lit text over and over and over and over over over over over over over again on monday. sigh... i love lit, but the story's kinda depressing isn't it? i mean in the midst of one's O LEVELS, one reads about suicide... the reader might actually comtemplate it you know. okay nonsense! louie shut your mind and trap. no morbid suggestions here. okay bed it is. my mind is running away again...........

ps: don't you think hospitals are well... too white for their own good? haven't you ever been to a clinic or a ward whereby everything, and i mean EVERYTHING is white? it's not those off white stuff, it's really purity white. from the window panes to the curtains to the bed to the bed sheets to the floor to the bathroom to the basins to the toilet bowl to the toilet paper to the walls..... even the pyjamas thing they pass you to wear is white. it's just so... dazzling white! it can give a patient a bigger headache you know? sometimes, when you stare at something that does not move, and it's all one colour, you feel like you're sinking into some empty space? ESPECIALLY if it's WHITE? wah dizzy... like you're just falling falling falling... into emptiness... into... nothing!!

imagine this.

you are bored. when you are on the bed, you can't do anything! the tv is so high you gotta strain your neck, and you can't read a book cause it's either too tiring to hold one up, it's inconvenient, or it's hard on your eyes. so what are you left with? scenery. beautiful scenery. panoramic view. unblocked view. rolling hills, lush greenery.... preferbly rabbits hopping around on the meadows right outside your window.... but NO! there isn't even a window! okay so there IS one, which faces a WHITE wall. you look up, down, left right, everything's white for goodness sake. everything BUT the darn television. sigh... maybe i should make a suggestion of repainting hospitals with various happier, less depressing colours. =) i might win the suggestion of the year! haha... nah one can always hope and dream right....? dream...... of little baby rabbits.... =)

2 more days to the week of extreme O levels

this is horrible... haha was feeling VERY itchy, so when i came home after studying ss and lit (we did a few essay questions which mr. rashidi marked, and he said they were okay!! haha we feel much better about our lit now. pray we can write just as well for the actual paper!) with angel in school, i was staring at my com decided, okay, shall reward myself a little bit... so ah well, here i am. after clearing my mail was was like totally full, there were around 180 junk mail and 50 over emails... nearly died.. in the end i became so lazy i just deleted all the mails which had "forward" on it... sigh... nvm. oh yeah, i saw the GB girls in school today! haha was studying in the canteen you see so was a bit annoyed at first when they were super noisy, but nah, i'm a nice person. haha nah... oh and i saw my julie and sunshine! haha i think sun wants the prom might more than i do! haha and she looked so strange, still ain't too sure about her fringe thing... haha. oh and i met jolene in the noon time to pass her my sec 1 + 2 lit books for her holiday assignment or something...

oh anyway, i became itchy again and decided to do little "i spy my little eye................." heh, so i browsed through pages and pages and pages pages pages pages pages of blogs.. and found some blogs of juniors! haha... shu wen was super fast reaction. i told her to link me, WHOA, so FAST i tell you link liao. michelle.. haha she was very cute. i teased her about hiding her blog. but she got the better of me. she pointed out the fact that i didn't exactly ask if she had one. sigh, everything always backfires on me. better plan my next move carefully. aha, then i re linked zhi yin... wanted to tag somethign but i couldn't find her tagboard. ahh then saw bao hui, penelope and vannessa's ones... oh and i realised something. i linked basia, adn she didn't link me. so i went to ka chiao her. ooo i love her blog! haha looks so cool! okay so i'm a sucker for green and dull colours... haha read that they're doing the christmas dancing thing.. haha was laughing away to myself and reminiscing about the red skirt. sigh okay that's about all i found. no more liao leh...

okay anyway, next monday is my e math paper 1 and social studies. someone murder me right now. ss is killing me. why couldn't they have offered pure lit...? huh huh huh?! okay nvm. louie can do it. must pray for the O level people okay? nerve wreaking one leh... hee... oh yeah, louie was sick too. sorry, that's why i slowed down on the blogging. i'd love to say it's because i was dutifully studying til i drop but nah... although i did revise quite a bit... to my standards... oh ya! i'm going to church on sunday! yay! =)

english as an A level subject?

i had a talk with mdm norhani today, and i was wondering if i'm actually competent enough to study english as an A level subject. it's literature really, but they call it english. funny.. anyway i became nervous when i heard that the students actually do ONE book a WEEK. i mean like, well! i guess i can read a book in a week and complete all my notes lar, but that's if i do ONLY literature? what about my other subjects? my brain will just go haywire and i'll get myopia or something. argh! and i don't like the idea of studying shakespeare... it's in old english for goodness sake.. all those thee thou art etc. "

"o romeo romeo wherefore art thou romeo? deny thy father, and refuse they name; or, if thou wilt not, be but sworm my love, and i'll no longer be a capulet"

or is it catapult? nvm

anyway, mrs. koh's explanation went something like that.

"why are you romeo?" (note: it's not where are you romeo)
and the deny part onwards is basically how juliet wants romeo to disown his family. she herself will give up her own name just to be with him. some love tragedy thing but my point is, it's so complicating!

"it is too rash, too unadvised, too sudden; Too like the lightning, which doth cease to be. Ere one can say it lightens. sweet, goodnight! This bud of love, by summer's ripening breath, may prove a beauteous flower when next we meet"

and what about the stanza above? these are the only two quotes i actually memorised from the book. i hardly understand a word they're saying... but i seem to be more of an artsy person than sciency leh... anyone knows ANYTHING about the english course? fwah... should i even take it? i don't think i'm up for anything to do with science and math!

heelp!!

s'pore's rainy season

sigh... this is horrible season of the year... the Os are ever so near, and it's so cold! everyone's getting sick. it starts with the sore throat, the dry cough, and then the fever comes up, and of course right after that it's the running nose. used up like how many boxes of tissue paper already... sound nasal... haha husky... like that dog "husky"... nvm, out of point.

anyway i'm actually sending out a mail to my physics teacher now to request for some physics consultation since he kindly ignored my second sms. he's not free on sat... so i asked for monday but i guess he's real busy at home. ah well, he said he checks his mail everyday so i hope he tells me soon so i may plan my schedule. i want to control my schedule, and not to be controlled by events instead. cool eh? i woke up one morning and realised that i'm quite philosphical. =)

okay i'm off to do some major muggeration (pris's vocab) now. tmr's the combine practical so all the best to everyone taking it! after tmr it's over yeah so tahan for a few more hours! =) i'm free tmr so i decided since i drank so much tea for dinner, (it was so diluted right elisa? practically like H2O, no tea at all. btw, if it's diluted, it will take a slower time to react right? so the speed of reaction is slower. ha! chemistry... see? i'm learning! ) so yup, as tea works wonders for me, i just can't sleep with tea in my head, thus i shall study like a studatic, a lunatic basically. sigh okay see ya =)

hmmm...

my class! =)

12th october

okay i've been having enrichment lessons from 7am-9pm. physics was a blast today! learnt lots of things, haha, and had loads of fun in the HOD room.

angel: 4-D eh? hope we stirke! haha... sigh, too bad the probability is so low. haha...

amos: square centimetres? cubis metres? squares of cubes? cuboids of squared sqaure cuboids? haha had a great laugh in there eh?

anyway, it's just too bad i can't eleborate on it cause i may unintentionally "flame"or slam teachers. i doubt i would, but a precaution nonetheless due to the news about blogs and teachers right? but it was fun, really... realised that teachers can loosen up a lot, but we have to be careful not to cross the line too. =)

sigh, anyway i realised something. the many student couples we see around... they're so happy sometimes right? but you can see the pain and quarrels theu go through too... it's sad sometimes, but somehow things always turn out okay right? so never fear, God is here! did my QT today and prayed for the O levels. hee anyway i had better go to bed now. tomorrow's my graduation ceremony! haha night people! =)

busy busy bumble bee!

as the title obviously shows, tomorrow is gonna be a real busy day! oh gosh i think i'm goign into la la land the minute i reach home. i'll be spending mroe time in school than at home tomorrow! sigh i fell tired already! haha

i'm supposed to be in school by 7.15, attend assembly, and have class at 7.45AM! mind you ti's not school, it's an enrichment lesson with mr rashidi and mates. the small problem is angel and i don't really have questions to ask him, so well, we'll just sit in and listen to the rest! =) perhaps we could learn something too! =) oh after that, it's lunch time! hee angel adn i are gonna have a NICE lunch. after how many months we're actually goign to sit down and eat! we don't have to stuff our faces and rush up the stairs with bags hammering at our hands and legs, or bang into walls, tripping over shoes laces and stuff like we used to during school hours! haha quite excited actually... funny eh... well after that's physics with mr yap. we're gonna ask him a few questions... okay so it's A LOT of questions, but we're probably complete a few only cause our physics ain't too strong. actually our sciences are horrible but ah nvm. i'm more of an artistic person. yeah right... okay i'm more of an arts person. the kind who dreams and writes and ya da ya da na da... yeah that kind. okay my physics ends at 2pm, then angel and i are off yet again to literature lesson! this time mr rashidi's gonna go through unseen poetry! haha i'm never quite good with that but somehow i always land up choosing poems over prose even though i hate poems. maybe i'm weird. ah yes, lit ends at 5pm, and finally i get to go home! HOME! back to my mummy and daddy and spider named charlotte (inspiration from jolene's literature text - charlotte's web)! haha, okay, so i caught this spider and am rearing it. (nothing to do with dengue fever okay?) exciting isn't it? i have a pet again! though not a mammel, but a pet nonetheless =) oh anyway, i'm going to meet elisa for dinner! haha yay! now's my turn to feel so loved. i get to spend some time with angel, then elisa! haha, i was deprived of my love for quite a few months. you see, for our csf thing, no one loved louie! yvonne and zhi yin didn't call me for about 4 months straight! (it's recorded in my notebook heh) so anyway, i'm getting my love back! haha nah, i'm being my nonsense self again. ah yes, the reason i'm meeting elisa is so that i cna accompany her in school since mr ng requested for her to help out with the night classes thing. ahha might as well right, then i get to ask her questions too if i'm unsure, which would be most of the time. (LOISA! where's your confidence man!) we end at 9pm. long day huh. i would have spent at least 12 hours in school in one whole day after tomorrow! world record, falling short of camps in school! haha

okay okay, i had better pack up everything and start studying now... bye people! =)

prelim results

mrs. koh came back to school yesterday! haha, kinda nice. missed her when there was a change of teachers. mr. wee was scary today. asked me about my total score or points. sigh... below 20? i wish... anyway on to my results. great!! i improved for my humanities! =) and ONLY my humanities mind you. sigh, my pride and joy is only in my humanities. but i'm still not happy! i felt i did really well for my lit, but my dear ss again, my SS hai yo! want to slaughter myself. brought me down to a B, and missing a mark to A can!!! ahhhhhhhhhh well my sciences are like flop. bleh. i'm going to SOMEHOW pull them up. i believe i still can do it. i have to. now math... hmmm.. i think i can do it too. i'm banking on my math too. didn't do TOO badly but not up to my expectations. chinese... improved a LITTLE, like 2 marks? but i'm afraid if i do too much chinese, my english will go down. it's gone down this time, and i scared myself. i got a darn b can. not happy. cause english is one of the few subjects which can hopefully cover up for my dear chinese and sciences which at the moment, are atrscious. at the moment only. =) okay, i've decided. no more computers for me. it's bad. it doesn't really help blogging anyway. didn't improve my english did it? maybe cause i didn't try to speak good english out here but ai yar. anyway seriously, it doesn't help anything. so... if anyone had anything to important to say, pls don't feel free to call or email. but do feel free to tell me in my face cause that's the only way to get anything through me now i guess. my mom and dad seemed pretty okay with my results, they said i have to pull up my sciences but good job for my Bs.. at least not Cs or something. but then, i made one grave mistake. that was calling sam to tell her that our mission trip but the day after our supposed prom night so i might not go. then wah, my dad's face turned a black precipitate colour. wah he wasn't happy anymore. i was actually preparing to finish up a math paper i did yesterday but fell asleep. but now he doesn't seem to be happy with my doing of math. he wants me to do science. but the problem is, i do math in the night. and i do science in the afternoon. somehow it works better but okay. i'll try to turn things the other way around to make him happy. like i said, no mroe computers, no more phone calls that last over a minute, if i can even pick them up. oh ya, and i'll try not to touch my handphone too. shall keep it off for as long as possible so my hands will not be itchy when i receive a call or sms. sigh, i feel like kingshaw. trapped. but that's the way it is. come on, ti's one mroe month to O levels only. can make it! ONE MONTH! can't wait. okay this shall be the end of louie's happy life. good bye... sniff... okay being dramatic yet again.....................i'm depressed, stressed, supressed, opressed, whatever press.. press starts sigh. okay off to my study table. c ya =)

ps. happy birthday yesterday germaine! =)

1st October

happy children's day! haha, okay funny way to start but heh... it's just too bad youths don't get a holiday too and it's REALLY abd that instead, the Os are COMING!!!!! haha like angel said, "bang wall also no difference", or for my case, tearing tissue paper. =D sigh... the rest of the school's finals are on monday, sigh all the best yeah? it's jsut as stressful here haha as i'll be getting back THE RESULTS. AHHHHHHHHH...... panic attack here! haha, realised something. i tend to put "haha" for the sake of it. doesn't it make one feel better, it's as if you're telling yourself "no worries, God is behind you... HAHAHAHA!" does that make sense?

anyway began to feel really lonely after i hung up with angel. it was such a surprise. we've all been... isolated... after the exams. all our papers are different (bio, a math, chinese, chem, physics) sigh... was at home studying while mum was out (dad was overseas), when angel called!!! haha she was at the interchange or something. of course we just had to go crazy. haha psst, read her blog! i just love her latest post, erm basically cause it's GREEN. haha... thank you angel! =)

oh ya, i went for the miracle service today with my mum! it was an annointing session. =) they put oil on our foreheads, and blessed us. prayed against dengue fever and all. after they blessed me, i was supposed to say "i receive, in Jesus' name, AMEN." that's for the youths lar, but for the adults, it's "i receive, and my family too, in Jesus' name, AMEN" of course, i had to fumble and consider myself as an adult when i said the wrong one, but does it mater anyway? ahha good thing i said the family part too, cause daddy wasn't there as he had just arrived from a business trip and was very tired, and mummy said the youth's one. she forgot to say family! haha, so i said it. good eh? my whole family's annointed! =) that would spread around to everyone else too right? cause we're all one big family! =) sigh, tmr raq's sister has a birthday party so she can't make it for service, adn julie's not going for it as it's her finals on monday, so maybe i'll either go with my neighbours which is funny as i have rarely, no, NEVER gone with them before... or i'll go for the morning service with mummy and daddy. yeah =)

one last thing, i had another dream last night! haha, for our GB annual camp this year, we went to Florida (disneyland). haha maybe ms gan would bring us there? 10th year mah, special! haha i guess i can continue dreaming eh? nvm it's a pleasant dream =)

ps: this hmm pink colour is dedicated to angel, who went through the trauma of putting up a green post for me! haha thanks... okay, so i've got one purple (amelia) and one pink (angel). erm kim, there's way too many blues in my blog! more than my green okay! haha study hard people!!

don't worry be happy =)

well i changed my song haha kinda like it. i think i shall stick with it haha.

hey DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY!

haha how true isn't it? if you face trouble, don't worry cause you'll just make it double. in most cases triple! so basically don't worry! haha always be happy and everything will fall in place, especially when God's carrying you all the way! =) pray and don't worry, be happy, okay i think i've made my point yeah? shall not repeat myself again. sorry just one last time

Don't worry Be happy =) put a BIG smile on your face!!

a MOVIE FINALLY

yay haha finally i'm going to watch a MOVIE after like goodness knows how many months! haha it's some bride movie thing. watching it with sam, aud and jami. argh! wanted julie raq ans sun to come along too, but they've got school and their finals are coming up. raq said she's going to mug real hard. sometimes, with her crankiness and humous and all, she's really a motivation. it's like she goes for it and she works hard for it. she reaps what she sows. after reading her posts, somehow i find some kinda inspiration there, a motivation to STUDY. haha nice eh? =)

oh ya, the reason i can make it now it's because the rehearsal for my class's performance ( graduation ceremony) has been cancelled. but then again, i kinda pang seh-ed shawn cause i was supposed to help with some math and physics thing. opps sorry... nvm, another day k? and you really should go for studying. sicne you've made it this far, supposedly without studying, you might as well go the whole way and end your journey with your best try. =) oh ya, council has this performance too. some singing thing. yeah the chorus goes something like that, ain't too sure

"and friends are friends forever, if the Lord's the Lord of them, and a friend will not say never, cause the welcome will not end, though it's hard to let you go, in the Father's hands we know, that a lifetime's not too long, to live as friends"

oh ya well basically tonight was a mad phone calling day. felt like GB all over again when we call our squad members! haha, felt normal again. haha well had to call a few cca councillors regarding the council performance on friday, then had to call amelia, angel and kim to inform them of the cancellation of my class's rehearsal tomorrow and blah blah. and THEN tried calling samantha (class) to ask her about the eagles award thing as we were supposed to collect the form from her tomorrow but we're not going to school anymore! and erm well, as expected, mr chiang spelt my name wrongly, as always... (louisa) can't anyone remember it! (sigh... what i cannot stand most are the pronounciations... many variations of it. there's loy-sa, lobster, or oh i absolutely love this one. LOU-SIA! say it in chinese, and wow, i'm downstairs or something.) oh goodness was quite messy. then aud and jami called about the movie and ai yar, really like GB. haha you can never get bored with GB. busy busy bumble bee. that's me! haha, nah, rabbit would be nicer than a bee.. oh did i tell you once angel, kim and me stayed in class during bio by ourselves and we had a date with a whole SWARM OF BEES? haha nvm. long story. it was funny AFTER the incident though.

oooo nothing much happened after these i guess, now i'm free so study it is... i hope =)

ps: ms gan said the disneyland at florida is ncier than the hong kong one..! haha, when jami told me that, for one moment i thought ms gan was bringing us to florida after the thailand trip. sigh my hopes have been dashed, my spirits dampened!!! okay i'm being dramatic again... haha.. well one can dream right? haha i think if we do really go, zhi yi would love it since she likes mickey mouse so much. julie would probably go crazy over donald duck and daisy duck. i love pluto! haha, cause well, it's a dog! haha =) goofy's just too goofy for me.. haha goof woof! okay as what julie would say, deprived of a childhood.. haha nah... just being nonsensical again

sos and elisa's birthday!

haha tmr's sos quite excited... church service that is. save one soul! julie, raq and me are going! sam was supposed to go but in the end she had somethign on. aww... haha, well basically i was QUITE free as i'm done studying physics and chem! today i was so sciency lar. did all the mcq papers in preparation for tues's examination. i'm so happy, taking a break now haha. but then timothy asked me for my copy of the format for english reports, letters etc. had to scuffle through my room to look for it. now everything's turned upside down again. all messy. haha, and i just tidied my room! ah well nvm, all the best for english k? =)

well anyway, tmr's elisa's birthday too! shhh... got surprise... will tell you about it when it's over. i'm not going though, so will harrass someone else to tell me what happened. julie and i are meeting earlier tmr to get elisa a present! sam's chipping in too. hahahahahaha... betcha tmr's gonna be a mad rush as you know whenever julie and i are together, SOMEHOW we'll end up being late. sigh... punctuality is not our forte... haha

oh ya, sigh, there's something wrong with me. i feel old. i have no idea what happened by my neck feels so stiff! my chin hurts, and i keep slouching and hunching. í may be getting athirithis!

break time!

haha okay the last two days were great as basically i had time to take a breather. whew! though i rested quite a bit, i studied too! quite proud of myself. have been qutie focused these few weeks, ever since the september holidays. =) erm wait, i'll continue another day. cold case had started and i'm gonna eat while watching! lalalala =)

21st September

when i got home, my neighbours and i had lunch together, in front of a computer. sigh, realised teenagers these days just love the com... a bit addictive isn't it? anyway, i received this email thing, and after clicking and answering question after question for like how many pages long, i finally got the results of this funny test thing. i didn't even know what i was supposed to find from this... something about me i guess... a quick advice, maybe one should put the title of any quiz at the TOP of the quiz? yeah...

as i was saying, basically... this is what the screen told me

You see many things through the eyes of a child. Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded. You cherish all of the details in life. Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.

i see things through the eyes of a child? hmmm funny... i find that i don't even realise the details in life as i'm always rushing or sleepy or just day dreaming. most comman past time is stonning. easily fascinated? haha YEAH maybe! =) experiencing new things are fun... but somehow i prefer to experience new physical things. i don't mind trying out a new sport, or jump over a wall or something like that. but if you ask me to try something that is mental... ahhh maybe not. okay okay i'm off the com now! i'm going to study my literature for tmr's prelims! ahhhhh hee =)

flag day

okay louie is sick. haha been sneezing my arse off. something very wrong with my nose. i got a fever last night, and a cold this morning. my noose is bloocked! not nice. oh i can't breathe! no oxygen! haha... nah, being drama ah ma here. i don't really have the mood to study now, so i went online heh. the GB girls are having flag day now. around 9, julie called me. haha, it seems she's supposed to go to seng kang with carol, sarah, and a few sec 1s. they're lost on bus 27! haha! actually after hanging up, i realised that could they not have taken the MRT train instead? haha, anyway, i played a few games with amos, or rather ATTEMPTED to, but our coms are weird! the only game both of us can play is tic tac toe, which becomes boring after two or three games. discussing ss and lit with jeremy. he told me there's this website online whereby you can get questions with model answers for KOTC online, but i'd have to pay. in the end i was like "nvm!" he said he'd hack into the website or something. goodness gave me a fright.

oh ya ya, i saw this version of a star in this stationary shop in st. 11 yesterday! haha was so excited. the people who came into mind were audrey, avril, carol and sunshine. haha. so i decided to draw the outlines during dinner for the star. then i'd try to do some decorations, cut it out or something, then give it to them. haha wheee. so excited. i glued audrey's star already. currently doing avril's one while listening to this song amos sent me. it's quite nice. "i'll be okay" by mcfly. hee thanks! =) lalala, wonder where's julie now? anyway i should be heading out later to donate and say hi to jessica and debbie's group in pasir ris... hee wait for me girls! =)

erm people, would you like to make a donation to The Girls' Brigade? please head down to tampines, bedok, semei, pasir ris, or erm, seng kang NOW! thank you! =)

first week of prelims are over!!

okay i realised a few things. this is officially the second time i feel so proud of my juniors and touched by them. i was totally panicking for my chinese exam, as different people kep telling me different formats and different things i nearly died lar. so i decided to take on priscilla''s advice and to call carol and germaine up for some major help, the day before my prelims. yeah yeah a bit late, but i felt bad for troubling them. anyway, i decided carol was quite busy so i called germaine up first. although she wasn't very sure about the format, and we hung up, i think she got jacintha to help me. i guess i can safely presume that's her cause jacintha's scary sometimes that was why i was hesitant in calling her. but she called me anyway. and that's so sweet! it's like, juniros who care. it brings out this really nice feeling... oh and carol too! carol actually helped me out during her recess too. aw so sweet. shawn too. these are examples of people who are too nice but that's good right? the world needs nice people. what's that haha, powerpuff girls' song? (sorry lar, i babysit so i've listened to this song quite a few times)

"love love love makes the world go round!!"

haha, oh yeah, bhavna was really a darling too. i was just brooding in my room, couldn't quite concentrate in my room. she smsed me and that cheered me up quite a big. thank you! funny eh? little gestures like these, or hugs and smiles from your friends (angel, kim, amelia) can encourage you so much. one doesn't need something that big to motivate you. something small everyday can make your life so colourful. okay sorry, i'm becoming very philosophical here cause i'm on a one day break after the first week of prelims.

okay okay i'll get to my point. this week has made me realise that there are great people in the world and i am really thankful for them. i'll probably be this crabby stone fish on my bed now if i wasn't feeling so mushy and grateful and cheery. so thank you people! you're the ones who that rainbow and whisk that rain cloud outta my life! i love you guys! =)

ps. happy birthday cherie dear! God bless ya =)

physics and chinese

argh argh argh oh goodness yikes! today's physics paper was like pure ridiculous. kept avoiding mr yap after that. felt so bad for letting him down. bleh. the FIRST wonderful light experiment was deemed a failure the minute my eyeballs set sight on the screw. i don't like light experiments. first and formost, let me introdue to you the plasticine we were given to, to attatch to all objects. we were not given a stand, a box, scotch tape, stapler or glue. oh no no NO! we HAD to be given what...? STONE PLASTICINE! the plasticine arh, i don't know what kind of synthetic dumb clay it's made of, but it's totally rock lar. they gave us a whole gigantic LUMP of it, and we had to break it up into smaller pieces for each object. i didn't do anything for a whole 10 minutes except attempting to pull apart the clay, not as if i have a lot of time. fed up i tell you. in the end i was so pissed with the stone thing i threw it onto the floor. it didn't work. i scratched it, pinched it, used my ruler to cut it. okay, this is turning into a descriptive essay so my point is, the plasticine was plain hard and shi tou like.

well anyway i FINALLY got it apart, then what happened? i switched on the torchlight... and... the switch came off -_- argh! i was hopping mad by that time. so panicking, i stuffed the switch back then tried to find my dear image, which seemed very insistent on disappearing from me. something wrong with my cornea or what but my eyeballs JUST couldn't detect any image of any kind. all i could see was light. LIGHT! sigh, didn't finish graph, bleh bleh bleh

okay time's up! we switch experiment. YAY! an easier mass experiment. we're supposed to measure the mass of the metre rule. haha, oaky no problem! or so i thought. i spoke too soon. all i did was merely poked the wooden cork and it fell apart. what nonsense is this i ask you? okay, i've run out of steam. tired of complaining liao. anyway my 5 mins break online is over. i guess i had better get to studying metals, gases, anions, cations, OAs, RAs, colours, ppts etc. sigh... chemistry HERE I COME! i tell you arh, the test tubes had better not break or the hose don't start to mysteriously spray water on me otherwise, that's it. loisa will lose all sanity, if i haven't already... oh the effects of prelims. what will happen during the Os? haha nah, don't think so much, i'm outta here! =)

ps. oh yeah, chinese ain't too bad. it didn't make me go as crazy as physics, but i don't have much confidence. for the compo, i either did very well, or i wrote so well i went out of point. i memorised phrases from a compo book you see, since i obviously can't form a single proper sentence on my own. paper 2.... eh... the problem is i understood the passages. i didn't understnad the questions! ahhhhhhhhh haha, nvm it's over. with God's grace i'll stay alive somehow. by the way, ahem, important message here, LOUIE IS GOING TO THAILAND with GB! wahahahaha heeeeeeeeeee

hee =)

okay okay! i admit now and right here! i am bored and a bit GB maddening... well sorry i happen to have quite a few GB pictures right? anyway, you see i did all my science practical practices, and completed 3 math papers, so i decided to give myself a treat. i logged onto my computer, and then tuned in to the creative side of louie! haha okay so this isn't the best work of art you've seen, but the fact that i managed to put everything together QUITE straight is a miracle okay? so give me a break. applaud! haha, so pleased with myself. hey! this IS a start. maybe one day i'll turn everything a bit to the right, a bit to the left, centre, forward, backward... resulting in one VERY nice collage but for now, we'll settle with this yeah? nice...? nice...? come on say it.. it's GREAT! haha =)

11th September

sigh today i had some problems with daddy but i don't quite want to eleborate right here cause once it's written, it cannot be erased, and i know i'll forget about it sooner or later so nvm. anyway saw this youth's prayer which ms gan passed to us on youth day this year (it's pasted on my cupboard).i saw these two rpayers which are really meaningful, well some parts of it applies to me, so i jumbo mumbo both of them together into one nice prayer for louie. here it goes!

Dear Heavenly Father,

You know the struggles i face. people are loading their expectations on mr. the worst part of all is that i am not sure about myself. i have many dreams. i have my own expectations. Dear Heavenly Father, give me understanding. You understand the turmoil i am going through. help me find the anchor in You so that i will not be swept away by the storms of life.

i know You have commanded me to obey my parents. You ahve made it very clear in Your word that i am to respect my parents. in fact, You have even promised me that if i obey my parents You will bless me richly. Dear Heavenly Father, You know that my relationship with my parents is not exactly what it should be. i pray that You will help me in this area of my life. give me spiritual wisdom and understanding so that i may know how You want me to conduct myself. give me strength so that i can obey my parents even in the face of opposing forces. remind me constantly of the wise word of Psalm 119 verse 9 which asks the question: how can a young person keep his way pure? the answer: by living according to Your revealed word, the Bible.

Dear Heavenly Father, enable me to live a life worthy of Your name.

In Jesus' name, Amen

10th september

goodness i'm just so hungry! i think there's something wrong with me. it must have started when i feel out of bed this morning! i had this nightmare about green frogs eating tiny rabbits with giant forks... started hammering my on my bed and kicking the wall, and somehow, i landed on the floor. bumped my head. from then onwards, i had worms in my stomach. i think the hunger worms diffused from the marble flooring itno my head, traveled down my ateries and veins, and lodged themselves in my stomach. i'm talking nonsense here right? sigh...

i'm feeling so hungry now, but my mom banned me from eating. i actually happily made one tom yam cup noodles with this gleeful grin on my face, and went to do some math. when i went back to the kitchen i couldn't find my noodles. i went back outside to the hall and found my mom eating them. she said she's doing me a favour by eating the noodles so i wouldn't get fat. goodness i cannot think anymore. i'm famished! i'm probably a glutton but hey, i'm a growing girl! well erm, trying to grow but one can always dream right? =)

had tuition with oilam in the morning... quite braindraining but enlightening too. just realised i am THAT blur with chemistry. and i FINALLY understand that darn logic gates! how to combine the silly AND< NOT, OR, NOR, NAND whatever gates! i kinda like physics actually, now i i'm beginning to understand it. it's growing on me. maybe i shall be a physician... hey no, that's a medical doctor. see? hunger pangs make me go all funny. i'm starving here. mabe i shall wait til like 3 or 4am and then i'll go and steal food from the refridgerator. heee now that's an idea! =)

8th september

haha sigh don't ask me what i'm doing right now. i'm basically doing all my notes, doing my compo, and resting at the same time. or rather, i'm crapping around with a few erm.. poetic people... sigh... help! i drank too much tea and now i can't sleep! i've got tuition with oilam tomorrow morning at 8.30 too! fwah la la... okay i seriously don't know what to do with myself...

"i don't know what to do with myself.... lalala, lalala, la, lalala"

uhhhh

why am i doing this?
1) i'm bored
2) i'm on a break
3) for entertainment
4) due to some baton thing but uhhh nvm

Total Volume of Music Files On My Computer
erm... 305 MB? 63 files and 5 folders... yup... i may have got it wrong though, cause they MAY be 5 folders but 63 files?! hmmm...

The Last CD I Bought Was...
God Reigns! =)

Song Playing Right Now
I'll be there for you - The Rembrandts (from the comedy friends! haha)

5 Songs I Listen A Lot To, Or Mean A Lot To Me
1) Sprit touch Your church
2) What the world will never take
3) Tell the world
4) You will never walk alone
5) Can't decide between runaway train, superman, 100 years, hero, or life for rent

5 People I Am Passing The Baton To
I'm nice, i won't pass it to anyone. i don't think they'll actually do it anyway... raq? try rhyming everything... haha

gosh it's so obvious i'm going nutty... i shall sleep now, just finished a chem paper and this too. tmr gotta meet aud, sam and jami for math... mroe math!!! =) suddenly i love math so much. i lvoe paper 1s best, but i guess i better do more paper 2s right? it's jsut pretty boring... sigh...

Dear Lord, give me strength and help me focus in order to do well and glorify you. thank you very much Lord. In Jesus' name i pray, Amen! =)

6th september

JULIE! happy birthday yesterday! haha, glad you had a nice day.. 2 cakes eh? eat so much... hee! sigh nvm, nowadays i find myself eating a lot too... little food glutton... non stop eating, if i don't eat.. i feel so out of focus... haha... i shall just take it that i use up so much of my brain energy that i ran out of nutrients or energy or specific heat capacity or whatever it is... can tell i've been studying physics lately right? actually, hmm.. not THAT much, but today was purely physics. i totally went crazy during the weekend can. did math paper after paper after paper... goodness.... i'm so pleased with myself actually... find that i've been quite focused this holidays.. no not quite.. VERY... i finished my compo, chinese xi zi, and the chinese close passages okay?! CHINESE! first time i chiong chinese homework until like siao. although i still do it, i'll usually leave it to the last. hahahahahahahahahahahaha goodness i just love myself.. hope that everything STAYS in my head though and doesn't like jsut leak out or worse, SPILL out... if not there'll be NOTHING left in my head! ahhhhhhhhhhh okay i'm crapping again... sigh...

raq hasn't been blogging.... i'm lost... blog raq blog! NOW! it'll improve your english... you know i thought of something. if there's a chinese blog, would it improve my chinese? but everyone would probably misunderstand me right? sigh.. its'okay! louie has learnt 250 chinese cheng yus! =) yes i can, yes i can, YES I CAN! PRIS! you can too! chinese is our mother tongue, we are not plain english people, chinese is our game too! let's strive and beat that darn game yeah? lalalala =)

weird boots

okay like right! i had washed my shoe bag as my boots were dirty because i fell into the toilet bowl suring the pbb camp, and i had to put my boots in the bag so everything was so sticky and wet... it dried today so i decided to plish my boots nice nice until become liang liang then pack everythign away nicely. then like???? suddenly the soles of my boots fell out? okay only one side lar, but ther other side has a big hole... sigh... i do not have super glue so use what? glue stick? stapler? scotch tape? STRING?! okay, i'm beginning to sound ridiculous... sigh... actually i've got another pair of boots but that's not shiny cause i ahve nto been constantly polishing it... YET. i want my old boots back! where there's a will,. there's a way... where's there's a stationary shop, there's a tube of super glue... therefore louie will go down and buy a tube... see if it works... i feel so crappy and senile now... fine, shall go back to writing my composition entitled "Describe how your family spends a typical Sunday". sigh.. i shall use self-deprecated humour as i always do.. it's the easiest... hmmm...

bbq!

sigh... yesterday was the bbq... it was raining lar... such a miserable day.. but nvm.. the sec 3s prepared all the food! haha, only problem was... well.. there was SO MUCH chicken! and like erm... very few sausages and crabsticks and corn? goodness... haha.. ate quite little there... had to eat carrot cake and instant noodles when i got home.. avril and me were like saying "i want to eat sweet corn! haha, go home we'll have to eat some more.. hungry hungry... !" haha... she's cute... raq came too! it seems she was a lost stray or something... nah... mrs. koh's joke. elisa dragged her back when she wanted to leave earlier...

well anyway, when julie and me arrived (quite late), we were feeling kinda stoney and moody... sigh... i felt pretty weird... like kinda sian, and i felt bad because of the card. i thought that i had told elisa on the phone that if we do make a teachers' day card, it would only be from our batch. when asked if she wanted to contribute, i thought it would mean including her signiture or note. in fact, when julie was sick and raq wasn't sure if she would be coming, i was going to do away with the card and all cause i really CANNOT make any form of a card. in the end it was julie who was on about making the card. so it was only from both of us lor... sigh... the seniors' faces looked so angry then that i felt so stoney after that....sorry.......... but julie was right.. it was only a small thing, actually that was what i thought too... until the seniors like made one circle and started whispering about card and gifts and going out to buy something. they sounded so serious in the end i just went to become a shi tou. thank goodness after i ate one crabstick i felt normal again. was afraid i was going to spoil the mood. sigh... this year it seems as if i get so pissed so often, and i keep making mistakes. sigh... beginning to find GB more stressful than ever. first time keep feeling so stoney in GB. oh dear... oh then julie started stoning too.. also not quite sure what happened to her. raq was quiet.. didn't quite know how to talk to her. wonder if she's okay.. suddenly her blog's gone... sigh... i hope julie and i did not leave her out... the sec 3s were pretty weird too... like they were eating and eating AND eating... and disappearing... haha nvm. forget it. that day was just weird lar. didn't quite enjoy myself until sigh... so sorry... when all the sec 3s left. felt so weird. sigh... must be my hormones or something... heh

oh ya, then we had a small birthday celebration for jolene. HAPPY BIRTHDAY you! haha it's great you got an A for lit. hope i helped a little. sorry my facial expression was such a rock that day.. wasn't feeling too good at that time. rachel! WHY did you miss 2 marks to an A! nvm, end of year get A yeah? =) oh oh, julie and me then presented jolene her present. haha it was a small notebook! she had betetr use it man.. hope you like it jolene! julie and i squeezed through a HUGE crowd to get that for you okay... haha...

well basically, we splashed water on feline, carmen, zhi yin and julie. they got wet! HEE but well, i got PUSHED in well thank you. somehow i always kena pushed in, i just don't know why. got pushed in during GB camp, cca council retreat, council camp, now bqq... oh well... nvm.. as long as my hp doesn't get wet =) oh dear, feline and zhi yin's hps couldn't quite work i think... hope they're okay now...

well that's basically the GB's teachers' day bbq! still a bit hungry now actually.. it rained around 10 and had to like run to the bus stop, then had to run for the bus, had to run home again... sigh... jian fei arh like that... nvm... healthy.. since i didn't run for aces day anyway... (psst angel and i hid in the library to do our lit notes hee)

ranks and pbb brooch

whew today was one long day... it was promotion adn dedication service at ACJC! haha... well basically raq, sun, julie and me were supposed to meet at tampines to buy ms gan her birthday present. it was a cross! hee... anyway, julie couldn't make it as she had to pack for the overnight stay at ms gan's place... and i was kinda late. but got reason one. haha, cause the night before i had pattern pattern burned 3 fingers, so couldn't polish boots, hurt like mad. so this morning i was to polish my boots but didn't realise it would take so long. in the end, i polished like a bit only? yeah.. so i met raq and sun around 10.45, half hour after meeting time. heh sorry... sun told me that mount zion was like second last floor of century square, but when i went there, i couldn't find anythign? realised shop was closed. so nvm, we just bought it from life book shop. saw ben tan there... haha.. he was goign for the band graduation thing i think...

well anyway, after that we headed for the coffee shop near faith's place. ate erm, nasi lemak.. quite nice leh.. but was darn full after that. met up with sam, adu and julie there. wah after that arh, mad rush okay! went to school and started changing into uniform like crazy... haha... oh then we boarded the bus that would take us to ACJC. that was the start of my horrible day. i got scolded about my total defence badge and kidna disappointed ms gan and ms lee. sorry. you see, raq, julie adn me had formally received our td gold badge but sun, sam and aud had not. so we were plannign to wear our silver one instead so as not to let the others feel left out. in the end, they had brought their gold badge, while the rest were given theirs on the bus. i did not have mine, so ms gan was pretty mad at me. sigh.. felt like crying... ms lee said i had to run 10 rounds for punishment. sigh... well we gave ms gan her present on the bus anyway, and she cried! she actually cried okay... felt like crying myself.. i think she was touched... hee..! =)

okay then we arrived. we were ushered into our seats... haha then we waited quite long. sm gan was in the colour party! haha, no wonder we had to go at like 1.30 while the service itself starts at 3pm. well anyway, saw jami in her white officer's unufirn! haha, quite funny... she looked cute though.. loved her click clock shoes... was kinda waiting for her to fall but nah, nt so mean. okay we waited and waited, and waited... sigh... saw my food com 1 group members! wahahaha hee! =)

FINALLY it started, and it was message after message. by then the girls were all feeling quite tired... julie aud and me were in one row, sun and sam behind us. raq was collecting ranks for the sergeants. (congrats by the way) aud julie and me were nearly falling asleep, but whatever did get into our heads, it was truly inspirational. =) well the long awaited moment arrived. promotion time! avril collected the corporal ranks, raq the sergeant ranks, and for the ssgt, it was individual collection. we were cheering for the sergeants like crazy, but they didn't seem too excited about our pbb or ssgt. it's okay though, cause i guess they were tired. long weekend after all. no congratulations and stuff but again, it's okay.. positive thinking! =) it would have been nice for a loud crazy cheering... but ah well, they do need their energy. haha, scarly i was deaf but hardly like it. anyway, after that was PBB brooch. the mam asked me why my hand was so cold and commented that our company had so many badges! haha hee.. so proud of the girls! =) it was so cold and nerve wreaking at that moment that i truly needed to pee so badly. haha. oh ya, and i was selected to present the guest-of-honour her token of appreciation, which was like a HUGE bouquet of flowers! haha and when i mean huge, i mean GIGANTIC! and the mam told me, where's your face, i can't see your smile... i was like heh sorry, the flowers are quite large... had a bit of trouble carrying them too.

okay i was quite happy then cause everyone was in quite a high hyper mood, BUT i kenw my face was like super super horrendously BLACK after the service. when the sec 3s went for ndp, and i saw pearlyn without her hair net, i was told with much CONVICTION by EVERY sec 3 ndp girl that "the other girls dont need to wear leh, it's OKAY, ms angeline didn't say anything. pearlyn has not been wearing it for quite some time so it's OKAY." and the careless thing i did was not to double check with ms gan, since i thought pris was handing it. and today? i saw peralyn wearing hair net, so innocently i asked her "why are you wearing one?" and she like gave me this innocent face too and said "can don't wear meh?" i should have said "YOU tell ME!" but i was so angry i faced the wall. was kind of punishing myself i guess cause everythign was rushign through my head, like discipline adn hwo i wasn't a good example to the juniors if i myself had to do pinishment later (run 10 rounds). thanks carmen and avril for making me feel better... i felt like a total failure and was angry at the whole world at that point of time... =)

oh then on the way home, had motion sickness... bleh... i never was good on buses.. sigh head was totally spinning... then ms gan wanted to pin the brooch on for us but erm, in my confusion i gave her the plastic instead... heh... she wanted to pin the palstic on me!!!

well all in all, a tiring but rewarding day yeah? have fun at the happy happy carnival girls! be happy! SMILE! it increases your face value.. hee

!!!

gosh i just dislike some people soooo much... goodness i'm like so mad now... ARGH! whatever did i do to make people so crazily mad at me?! forget it.. really not my problem... i don't care... i hope.. yes why other? first time i shall use this.. what the hell? i apologise right now for saying it.. but it makes me feel better looking it so i'm not gonna delete it... pissed man.. now all the words are coming out of my mouth shoot..

Lord, help me to forgive and forget.. preferbly forget first... if i'm in the wrong although i don't see how i can be, please show it to me so i know... Thank you Lord... In Jesus' name i pray.. Amen

devotions! haha

22nd August 2005

• Do not give up. Take things as an encouragement; a propelling force to spur you on
• Perservere and "jump out of the pit"
• No one promised a life that is easy, but when you come head on to a difficult situation, have the courage to carry on
• Never, never, never give up
• The winner has to try

25th August 2005

• We have to stop hiding behind our weaknesses and strive
• God has the power to change things

26th August

• You don't always have to take the credit
• You don't always have to shift the blame onto others

yup, that's what i've learnt for this week... haha =)

25th August

nothing much happened today leh... walked home with angel, had quite an interesting talk with her.. but yesterday was hectic! again, my friends had some misunderstandings... yet AGAIN... sigh... black faces AGAIN... tears AGAIN... goodness.. history kinda repeats itself but thank goodness everyone is back to normal today... yeah all these happened thanks to some finger poking fella... you're my successor (heh, GB would know what i mean)... try not to do that too often k? well anyway, we were all weird but it's over... =) ha promotion and dedication service is coming... don't really feel that UHHMMM feeling... that "faster-come-now-i'm-excited feeling"... weird... i feel so studious all of a sudden leh.. quite proud of myself cause i feel that i'm striving for my chinese.. but we'll see yeah? there's GB meeting tmr too... it's been changed to friday jsut for this week due to p and d service... we're gonna get our brooches! haha, felt i should at least announce that... heh...

talked to raq just now... our batch is going to have lunch on sat! haha that one i can't wait... but Sam and Aud! argh! those two arh... a bit scary... sigh... nothign much left to say leh.. it's as if i'm posting for the sake of posting.. i guess i betetr continue to pin my badges huh... sigh... ahve been re-pinning them since last sat.. just can't seem to get the right way to do it.. argh! i'm NEVER washing my harversash again.. nvm stinky.. it's okay.. at least i don't keep poking my fingers.. it's as if i'm pinning my fingers more than i'm pinning my badges lar...

oh yeah, pris if you read this... don't give up! you're a great person... just look to God and think positive... walk with God... and don't cry yeah? don't waste your tears... be strong and go on... i'm behind you all the way even though you can't see me.. so sorry i can't help you out now thanks to my o levels which i am beginning to be tired of, but nvm. spiritually i'm with you eyah? we'll see each other on sat and sun! wahahaha keeping you in my prayers always heh =)

ps: joyce! basia! happy birthday two days ago! =) sigh happy birthday jazzlyn yesterday! and happy birthday feline today! GOODNESS, hwo come so many august babies one... but nvm. they rock yeah? shi tou! hee

haha i'm back!

okay okay raq! haha goodness, yes finally i'm blogging again.. anyway today can you believe it? i got scolded by mr. chiang... for NOTHING... haha... during mornign devotion, i decided that it would be good to jot down notes and verses which are useful and good for reflection.. so i was happily doing doign doing.. but no one said anything.. later during pe.. mr. chaing came up to me and said i should be paying attention and should not be writing so vigorously during assembly.. wahhhhh.. oh well nvm.. hee oh ya, today pe was kinda of a flop too... like sigh.. i somehow doubt it's due to our short stature leh.. somehow.. the ball NEVER comes to us.. i repeat NEVER.... yes... angel, hui ping and me were like standing in the middle of NOWHERE, meaning EMPTY space.. like at the other end of the court, while everyone was congested at one side. yes, i really somehow don't think they cannot see us leh.. it seems to em they don't want to throw it to us? hmm.. nvm, i shall not be so negative. i shall put it down as kan cheong, then really cannot see... haha, maybe they believe that the "one-two, one-two" approach will help them score goals.. yeah i guess, but it leaves some of us out! NVM. =)

anyway, before pe was humanities.. sigh... mr. rashidi lost my literature notes! argh! yet he said he gave them back to me! cannot be leh, i'd have most definitely stuffed them into my lit file cause i'm this kind of kan cheong spider person.. yeah.. besides, angel who knows mroe about me than i know myself, said he didn't return anything to me! AND she sits right beside me! sigh, so for like an hour i had nothing to do lar. then the last hour.. haha.. kidna funny, mr. rashidi locked jonovan and jeremy inside the com lab! haha! i thought he locked people inside... angel said no, but when we looked back, we saw jeremy inside. was hilarious. haha, angel called after mr. rashidi but he ignored her and just continued walking on. haha i panicked and started using my hairband to try to get them out. haha then angel passed me her hair pin and we became the lock picking duo. anyway that should be about the end of my day.. can't remember anything much after that cause i was in a weird and feddupping mood...

ha! i haven't finished pinning on all my badges neatly yet! argh! and promotion and dedication service is fast approaching! YIKES! better get to work louie... no study first.. THEN start pinning til 4am again.. jsut make sure i don't drop my uniform into the toilet bowl again like the last time... sigh

ps: happy birthday ms gan! happy birthday to jeremy too!

ha!

happy birthday carol! haha hope you like your present.. though the colour combination is hmm.. not very you but nvm.

i just realised something.. i grew fat and TALL since june! never mind the fat but TALL! WOOHOO! you see, during the pbb camp in june, i could still wear my GB uniform.. but now arh.. my belt cannot even buckle, so i've gained weight! finally... and also FINAL FINALLY, i've GROWN. yes, my harsersash is too SHORT! haha, now i'm so happy to say the word short.. haha okay feeling a bit nonsense now.. effects of studying chinese... learn all the cheng yus until i think i'm gonna have nightmares

pbb

okay today we received the results that everyone received the pbb title thing. actually i was thinking that everyone would get it but ah well... nvm. should have betted. haha... anyway not the point. i feel that i OUGHT to be like SOOOOOOOOOOO excited... but i'm only excited which feels funny somehow. and i realised i used to have time to walk around the house practicing salutes and marching in my bedroom last year. but now, i ahve so little time to do that! the little time i have, if i don't talk to my parents who seem VERY the unresponsive nowadays (communication is important okay!), i'll blog and read raq's blog, and whosever's for that matter. it makes me feel good in a way cause i know that i'm studying harder than i've ever did before, but i feel so tired. now when i get home from school i feel like a stone fish. in the night i'm a kan cheong spider, but by 9 plus, i feel so dead... so pooked!

oh and i made a decision just now. i have decided to write nicer english posts in order to improve my english. since i have so little time, i use my blogging time to practice english! haha... erm but that's starting from tmr okay? not today... sigh just finished 2 math papers and 1 physics paper... i feel like a pufferfish... weird.. i msut be getting fishy... oh well, i'm also ain't too sure what i'm talking about now... haha..

PS. Juli! where's our blog arh? i've been typing all sorts of urls just to find it but it's not working... haha

carol, happy birthday tmr! will pass you your present tmr... =)

story

One night a man had dream. He dreamt that he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand, one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord. When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happens at the lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him so he asked the Lord about it.

"Lord, you said that once i decide to follow You, You would walk with me throughout the way. However, i have noticed that during the most troubled times of my life, there is only one set of footprints. I do not understand why You would leave me all alone then. "

The Lord the replied, "My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that i carried you. " =)

that's really sweet eh? it's true you know.. He will never leave nor forsake you.. there's a verse somewhere about it right? gotta find it... =)

haha

something weird happened today. was kinda funny actually now thinking back about it... i went to seek help for chinese from mdm li dong mei... then arh, she told me that actually she taught that i was pretending about my asttocious chinese during GB. like whenever she talks in chinese i would siam or speak some funny chinese back to her. she taught i was playing! probably playing a fool. very funny arh. why woudl i bluff and pretend my chinese is poor? if it really is good, i'd be proudly prouting it by now. haha kinda funny. no wonder she was more patient with me today. now she finally knows the truth about louie's chinese. i feel a bit uncomfortable in school actually. teachers' eyes roll round and round in their head...some of their mouths turn downward and their lips curl cruelly... and they seem to taunt me about chinese. they shake their heads in disgust and mutter about teenagers these days losing their roots! (okay fine, i'm exaggerating... suddenly felt like doing a paragraph on descriptive essay. haha... but the eyeball part is true) most teachers smile sympathetically though. but i don't want that. i don't want anything. i just want HELP. and no chinese teacher seems to have the time! nvm, louie will do what she can, and God will take care of the rest! =) okay shall stop about chinese.

on to pbb! haha, finally i decided to heck with everything. just ask ms gan about pbb! so i smsed ms gan and she argh! goodness.. like so cute like that... told me "soon you will find out". i was like hopping all over my room. i actually kinda asked on behalf of aud... she seems dying to know. haha i admit i'd lvoe to know too... but i wasn't really willing to "waste" my sms.. but nvm. oh then i called audrey on her hp about it. but she seemed so angry goodness. i can only hope that she sounded angry because she was sleepy, or she was studying. she even hung up on me before i could finish talking. very cool. sigh... sometimes audrey does things like which kinda makes me feel uncomfortable. nvm. aud's still my aud. =) anyway, pbb letter is coming in either tmr or thurs.. hee! shall wait for it... i don't feel kan cheong though... funny... now maybe all the waiting has caused the anxious effect to be lost.. oh well.. tmr i'll be excited i guess... haha

sigh...

you know? i was actually beginning to get used to my chinese.. cause i know i can do better the next time. no way is louie from nui ren brigade ( i've GOT TO learn the chinese word for it) giving up! no way san hosea!

anyway as i was saying.. i WAS quite okay with it.. but maybe nearly the WHOLE school is hmm... showing a bit TOO much concern? like you know, i don't mind the people i know, knowing about my chinese... but i kinda feel funny about EVERYONE knowing about my chinese.. yeah.. i feel kinda funny. maybe i'm paranoid or something but it looks as if everyone is talking to em as if i'm going to become a fountain any time, or that i'll jsut break and melt away. very funny people! sorry, no show for today. show's over. i don't care. i'm just gonna do my best and glorify Him. ha! maybe another day yeah? same time same place... oh goodness i'm begining to become crappy again... sigh...

no actually i'm kidding myself. if people would start remidning me about chinese, i'll stop becoming paranoid, and i'll be fine! =) when i'm learning chinese or if there are chinese lessons, i'll jsut concentrate and do well. jsut don't remind me of chinese when i'm happy please! it'll crumble that fragile wall of security around me! okay let's not talk about it anymore. i have confidence... but not THAT much yet yeah? =)

oh ya, avril gave a letter today encouraging me about my chinese. that was so sweet lar... godnes felt like crying. haha... i just feel so touched when juniors come up to me with a small word or two you know? i don't know... it just feels like hey! the love is going both ways! we're a family! the old ones care for the younger ones, the young ones encourage the old ones! ha... actually truthfully, i feel funny sometimes when i think about it. when i was free last year, i wrote mass letters last year to like almsot the whole coy lar... but i realised... it's kinda not reciprocated.. haha there's such a word right? my mind isn't thinking properly.. in fact, i don't qutie understand what i'm saying right now.. thoughts are too jumbled up. oh well... i shall end up with the same thing.. study hard people! you can get only so many chances! do it right the first time and be a testimony to others! =) God bless ya

hmm

i've realised i'm not as strong as i hoped to be. i'm having my break from physics papers now. after i did them i was quite pleased because i feel i can pass my physics but then i realised i may not score. from there i thought about my chinese and the fact that i failed my oral too. so now i'm wondering, where do i go from here? i hate it when funny negative thoughts come into my mind. makes me feel as if the devil is pulling me away from God and i'm letting it happen. i don't know how to stop it. maybe i do, but in the night, in the dark, it's like more lonely, there's no more light, it feels.. scarier somehow... and images play on your mind. for my case, horrible thoughts. i've torn up one packet of tissue paper. i'm so angry... but then i stopped being angry, and i started crying, which made me all the more angry. oh how i hate crying. makes me feel so lost. oilam gave me some chinese books. made me cry more. i feel like a fountain. yuck. i'm afraid i won't have the motivation to strive hard for the second one. hate it hate it! no hate is too strong a word. i find myself getting more... ji dong. i didn't use such words before. now it scares me. the more i get scared, the more panicky i become, the more i become ms watery, the more i get more fed up. it's a cycle. can't stand cycles. hmmm...

i'm going to youth service tmr with juli... hope raq is going too... maybe i'll pray then... i guess what i'm afraid of most is losing that faith

chinese o level

okay that's it! this has been a wonderful wake up call. i'm quite thankful about it too. decided to be positive about it. it's God's test for me. i am going to get at least a c6 for my second chance at chinese.. if not, c5... i CAN and WILL get it. i am determined to. today s few of us flooded the toilet. couldn't stop the darn tears coming.. hate crying at school. felt as weird as i did when the gb girls cried in school once. NVM. cry once over. chinese here i come! i'll take you on!

do not fear, for I am with you
do not be dismayed for I am your God
I will strengthen you
I will help you
I will uphold you with My victorious right hand
Isaiah 41:10

after carmen returned my bible to me today, i started turning to the bible and reflecting on all i've done for chinese. decided i can do better. yes, i am not just ms english. i am ms singapore (bilingual). haha nah, starting to talk a bit of nonsense here. oh well nvm. gonna study now. see ya! =)

ps bhavna! =) we have big plans for mt yeah? let's hit the road! yenny! hmm not quite sure what happened but nvm, if it's the exact same thing what we've been through, then keep your fighting spirit up and get through this! =)

thinkers

you know.. i got so tired of seeing the same post in hoi shek's blog for goodness how many umpteen years... so i asked him to update it today since he's so free and basically decomposing at his com... and he goodness did what.. started thinking for hours on end, took centuries to type.. so exasperating... sigh... i realised when people are bored.. they like to think. think about life, it's meaning, governments.. national day... studies.. blah blah blah... but he a bit out of the box leh... TOO out fo the box.. out of the universe liao.. but nvm.. continue to update k? have fun! =)

national celebrations in school!

haha, today was one hella crazy day! a dirty and well, stinky one too... basically on the night of 7th august, i was feeling weird and soft. so decided to write letters to my frends! haha,a fter all i've been oweing them their replies for like erm.. months? terms? haha... i tried to be creative and attmepted to fold the notes into stuff like angels (angel), flower (kim), bird (amelia). but of course everything had to backfire and they all pretty much look like ordinary triangles. kim's one turned out to be a slanted box. oh well. i tried.

okay anyway, school was lunatically insane! i did turn out in my nat camp shirt. haha, met eileen on the way in and she passed me a present. so sweet! gave her a giant hug. did i mentiona she's pretty small? hey i am too. okay i get it. oh and before i could think, audrey and sam came running over and started doing something funny. for one moment i thought they were going to strip me. they made me a birthday tee! haha.. actualyl it was for sam's birthday but don't know what happened.. haha.. it was really great! but erm, a bit hot arh. thanks aud, sam, raq, sun and juli!

oh, then after that, angel and amelia were weird. they kept asking me "to go with kim and valda.. there there there!!! " so right... okay hmm.. THEN I SAW FOOD! haha cake! haha, blueberry.. too bad wasn't green berry or green bean.. haha but thanks guys! really nice! ahhh, then they just HAD to sing a birthday song.. they just HAD to.. but nvm.. it was this angel.. this ANGEL.. who had this amazingly bright idea to smash a plate of whip cream on my face... yes fantastic. emily was kind and gave me some on my hand first. but i didn't what they were trying to do. i thought maybe i was to eat cake with teh whip cream on my hand? before i could another thought, i found whip cream and foan on my back, hair, face, inside my shirt, on my skirt.. EVERYWHERE! yes thank you.. somehow it didn't quite fit a facial of any kind. so i went to the bathroom with angel to wash my face, but even the shower was against me. the minute i switched it on, the whole shower WHOOSH, and i was bathing! flooded the whole toilet. then had to go to the general office to borrow a skirt. hai ya so mah fan. (oh psst, i managed to get some ship cream on angel and kim/emily too. mostly on angel. hee) amelia was slightly sick... poo thing... hey if youré reading this now.. are you feeling betetr? hee =) Fop was great eh? next year let's go.. and please brush up on your directions. haha, okay i shall too.

well all in all, angel and me both stunk of hmm.. vomit? yeah.. so we couldn't stand it and kept hoping the hall programme would finish fast. after that we cheong home already. hee thanks everyone! ( kim, emi, val, jia min, professor crazy -maggie, lian, angel and amelia! haha weirdest birthday i've ever had but the most fun. 16 is old huh ) have fun everyone! =)

thoughts for today...

morning devotion on 5th august 2005

destress
depressed
definat

these 3 are the attacks from the enemy

it is tiring to hate. today's generation are leaders of tomorrow and they will not be exiled.

okay, anyway, today was spring cleaning day. and a touching day. haha, i was clearing my room and goodness you won't believe how many lost items i found! under the bed lar, behind my cupboard, between the walls and drawers... etc. i even found erm, some food, but well... so i sweeped, moped, and vacummed my WHOLE room! you can't believe how tiring it was. well anyway, found a lot of notes as well. thsoe small small notes from gb girls, friends, neighbours... the whole wide world! well let me go down the list

every GB girl wrote the sec 4s a small note for our farewell thing... super super touching! i was reading every one and couldn't stop sniffing. they're my family! =) esther squad - they've the best group anyone can have! thank you foe encouraging me throughout all those squad duties and stuff. haha, we did good. we learned yeah? pris and debbie! you're now the leaders of the squad.. hope i've taught you guys something! i believe in you guys! the dear sec 2s and 1s... support the sec 3s yeah?

publicity committee - noticeboard and photo boards and newsletters are your babies. take good care of them!

34th!!!!!!!!!!!!! you rock shi tou! =) da da de shi tou! hee

girls! as in erm, amelia, angel, emily, jia min, kim, maggie, wei lian and valda! without you people, my life would be well... hmmm... clumsy and miserable. okay this is too mushy but anyway love you guys! =)

neighbours! hmmm... well love your neighbour as you love yourself eh? and guess what, i love myself very much so go figure... =) shouldn't be so tough

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm in a happy mood! God has truly blessed with with a loving family, great friends, wonderful seniors and juniors, and caring teachers plus officers! love my world. so louie has now decided, i'll give back to God what he had blessed me with. i shall study hard for His glory. whatever turns out in the end, it's the best i have done, so i just pray i'll continue to be motivated and hopefully, be a testimony to others... everyone out there! God loves you! haha

i'm just gushing out here lar... but anyway yup! happy national day! oh ya, i don't have any red shirt.. sigh.. guess i have to wear my national camp shirt! sigh haha

FOP!!

Fop was greaat! haha, well basically everything was a big mad rush at first. after school. rushed through lunch and ran upstairs to class for english oral practice. oral was nonsense, pure nonsense. it was about national day, and i was just sprouting thigns that had absolutely nothing to do with national day. and then on to the conversation. i couldn't even register the topic, or what mdm norhani was talking about. bah. oral phobia. and my oral's like on thursday lar! sigh... okay anyway, mdn norhani gave up on me and told me to do it another day... so i flew down the stairs, ran for the silly 293 bus which seemed to accelerate faster the more i ran, anyhow cooked my maggie, then satrted calling ans sms-ing the whole world to tell them meeting time and palce. crazy... elisa, sam, aud, shawn, and juli... silly juli.. haha... nearly went crazy with her... she was changing and i was bathing... both of us were on the phone.. haha... in the end we gave up, decided to just hang up the phone and call each other back later. haha, ah well, our original plan didn't quite work out and we realised we were running late, so our impromptu back up plan was to take a cab down to the kallang mrt staion.

FINALLY, juli and i are on our way. in between we started squabbling. haha, juli told the driver to go to kallang stadium. -_- i started yelling that it was kallang MRT station. so okay. we WERE on our way there, when don't knwo what happened, we were on our way to the INDOOR stadium. sam called me and jacintha walled juli at the same time, so everything was in a mess. in the end, we just headed straight to kallang mrt staion. and then what happened? when we reached there, we realised raq, rebecca and carol were not there yet. BUT jami rushed us into a cab to go to indoor stadium. juli adn i were like bah bah bah the whole way, we should ahve gone striaght to indoor stadium. haha so funny. juli was like scolding me the whole way haha. but then in the cab, we forgot all about it when sam started on ricky. she arh, quite funny... poor him. haha oh well. but she was like a pro.

ah, then we went to the east gate. hears ricky, abel, emlia and gang were all at north gate! bah but nvm. haha... we were so totally squashed at the stadium lar. all sat on the floor. only juli had well, erm, a bit of a problem lar eh? haha. so well, we split up and half of us stayed to queue, while the otehr half went to buy lac. (dinner). but they were stuck below and couldn't come up! haha, raq so funny, she sneaked up, like a fugitive like that. following was rebecca! haha, all so cute. well finally, 34th reunited! =)

okay then in the stadium, amelia and i were like trying to find each other, but we were both blind. i stood up and waved like a lunatic yet it didn't quite help. sigh... 2 blind mice named amelia and loisa... tried to look for ricky too but bah, everyone looked the same in the there... oh ya, then ms gan and me lee arrived. haha, my whole batch kinda tried to look at her, trying to hint for our pbb results, bit in the end it didn't work. haha...

okay i'm kinda tired of typing but basically it was at. God's presense was truly there and it was the first time i spoke in tongues! MY FIRST TIME! i was practically screaming in sam's ear. then that juli kept wanting to jump until i was so tired... haha... we walked a long long long way out of the indoor stadium okay. we met charmaine, ee ling and thiam along the way. then we went home. sigh, by the time i arrived home, it was like 12.30am... haha felt so hungry.. sigh... jsut heard that raq went for the fop today again.. sigh.. power seh she! haha ohw ell i'll end off here.. quite tired.. i think i'll scream if this post doesn't go through...

3rd august 2005

okay today i loved raq so much... she wrote me this letter thing ahhh so sweet! haha, couldn't help giving her a giant hug.. and a group hug from sam aud and me! haha, you see i was feeling a bit down today as i failed my enlgish compre... it's never nice to fail anything right? but it's okay.. i can always do better the next time. oh ya, then jolene saw my note and i came to a sudden realisation... notes are something special... a little something from well.. raq to me! all for me! gosh i was so touched lar... thank you raquel! =) and i heard her talking about devotion adn recreation.. wah so busy like that... haha, we both agreed not to touch anythign and concentrate on our studies for His glory... hee

okay then in school, i had this ntoe passing session thing with angel and a few others. we went crazy.. drawing pictures and stapling everything in sight... and i don't care what you say angel, my cow does NOT look like a submarine. so there! and you amos! fop is on thurs fri and sat! haha, elisa told me so. i was actually going to laugh at him and told him he cna go by himself when he told me he's going on sunday... but in the end the tables turned and he told me this time, I could go by myself on thursday... fed up

ah yes, and i walked home with jemima today! haha.. she was so eager beaver when she told me she lost 3 kg.. haha, so cute. you should hear the way she weighed herslf. her motto - "everything take out so i would be lighter! off with the shoes, wallet and watch? socks? that too mr. sham!" haha.. was laughing so much... okay yes yes jemima, we'll go jogging soon. with bhavna too! what are jogging partners for? haha

well see you all around! will pray for all of you and the exams k? God bless! =)

ps. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAO HUI! =)

sigh

you know, after talking to raq about how we feel kinda weird with the sec 1s, and how it's cometimes hard to talk to them... i suddenly realised it about the sec 3s too...! like after not being in GB meeting and no more poking and no mroe LITERALLY PHYSICALLY working with them... it's like suddenly ties are cut off. i don't know.. maybe it's my mind haha.. the effects of studying... study too much.. brainwashed... nutty nutty fruity nutty! i must have also ate too many fruit bars... i love them okay.. kinda sweet but filling also. convenient to bring around.. it's so small lor. only problem is that it's kinda crumbly... so all the crumbs always drop everywhere... and i mean EVERYWHERE.

i'm beginning to feel funny again... well don't think too much. think about fop! quite excited.. fop's coming soon. i know for sure juli, raq and sam are going. sze ern too! perhaps zhi yin! haha, i'll ask jolene tmr when i meet her for lit. i'm teaching her lit! cool huh? maybe it'll help to improve my lit too.. then maybe if i train her hard enough, she can do o level style of lit for her sec 1 work! haha, nah that's a dream.. cannot push too far lar...

i KNOW i have something important to share... but i just can't seem to remember it. and that worries me more. if i cannot remember a simple thing like that, how am i supposed to review notes for all my subjects in school? how how HOW???!!! okay no panicking.. trust in the Lord your God with all your might, all your soul and all your mind. is there a "with all your strength" some where? or am i getting the verse mixed up with "my life, (LIFE!), is in You Lord my strength, (STRENGTH!), is in You Lord my hope, (HOPE!), is in You Lord in You, it's in You, IT'S IN YOU! =) hee love this song... =)